Y/n's P.O.V

"It still haunts me.

It does. Even after Jackson came back from Busan and asked me out for numerous lovely dates, I still feel like I lost everything.

Yes I did.

And though I'm dating him, I understood I never loved him, it was just I guess attraction.

How come I never knew that kookie was already in love with me...and I'm dating another guy??!!!!
Actually,to be exact, Jungkook isn't at home. He is out for some days at Jeju Island with some of his friends. I wonder since when did he started having friends except me........
I mean Jackson too....
And it was completely understandable that kookie went there just to erase me out of his mind. He probably doesn't want to face me. Ever.

And I also thought it will be me for easy to stay away from Jungkook for awhile. At least I could look at my ceiling before going to sleep and make the right decision which is to just forget whatever happened in the party and live my life with him only as a BEST FRIEND.
But the decision turned out wrong.....

It ended up making me fall for him deeper and deeper

Aish it was a bad idea anyways but....what will I do now?????......

I'm dating someone but I'm in love with my best friend. Wow Y/n. You're exceptional!!!"

"Umm Y/n??" There was a twist on her door's knob and it suddenly opened,revealing her mom.
"Aaaahh yes mom??" She smiled and felt very comfortable all of a sudden. All she needed
was her mom's hug.
She slowly ran up to her and hugged her tight. Aww the scene was too sweet to watch!!!
"It has only been some hours and you hugged me all of a sudden??"she chuckled and hugged her back.
"Well I kinda missed you"
"Oh darling I missed you too" her mom broke the hug and made herself and Y/n sit on the bed. She did went to her friend's house and Y/n always felt terrible when her mother leaves
her all alone.
Once at the age of 5, Y/n's mom went out to meet the neighbor and for some reason didn't take her precious daughter. Then,after some minutes, the electricity in their house went out, making baby Y/n scream in fright.

This flashback still sometimes come to Y/n as dreadful nightmares which always ends up her getting killed by murderers or her dying because of the difficulty of breathing....
Ok...that was way too weird of her.

"Y/n, I need to discuss something with you" her mom spoke softly.
" Yeah anything mom" she felt nervous though.
"You know what happened with Jungkook don't you??" Wait what?? What happened??!!! WTF!!
"Huh?? What happened to him??!!! No ofcourse I don't know!!!"
"I saw him hugging a pretty girl that day in the park. They seemed to have a very romantic
conversation. Are they dating or something?? Do you know anything honey??"
"What??!!! Just because he hugged some girl that doesn't mean they're dating or something!!! C'mon mom... seriously that was so stupid of you" Y/n rolled her eyes. It really was stupid of her.
How strange would that be... typical Asian moms will never change. Uff

But somehow, dear Y/n got jealous. Hehe

"But what if they're dating huh??"her mom seemed concerned too.
"Then it's good for him I guess" Y/n shrugged her shoulders.
"Hmmm ok then. I gotta make dinner bye honey"
"Hmm ok"

Who the fuck was he hugging?!!! This is so unfair. But if he is in a relationship then he would've told me. Oh but now I remember that he ignores me.....but doesn't he love me??

These were the thoughts which roamed around her head. She was hella jealous!! And then she thought that maybe her mom had mistaken someone with kookie. But then she again thought why did he did that without her knowing the relation.

Aish like mother like daughter.

4 days later

It has been 4 days till now. Kookie will be coming home anytime from his trip. One of his friends was supposed to drop him off. And Y/n?? Oh God damn gurl she was eagerly waiting and was sitting on the sofa while looking at the door.
You can imagine her feelings right now. Seeing your first, strange-wayed,true love's face after so many days while keep you excited as fuck.

And she also needed to apologize to him. At least that can make her feel better.
After sometime,the door opened,revealing the one and only Jeon Jungkook.....aahhh even I'm excited to meet him after so many fucking days.

"Aunty.... I'm home!!!"he greeted Y/n's mom who was busy cooking dinner in the kitchen. She hurriedly went towards him and gave him a glass of water.

The 2 of them seemed happy,but there was one person who thought it was kinda rude of kookie to not greet her even though she went up to him with a cheerful smile.Lee Y/n.
But kookie somehow dodged her. Woah!! Did some random dude taught him how to be a man these days?? Because as far to me and Y/n, he was a complete shy bunny even weeks back.

Fortunately, Y/n accepted that rude attitude from him and kept silent. All she wanted was peace. She didn't want to fight with him again. Who knows?? What if this time Y/n spill out
her confession to him???

Dinner was served. Jungkook got all freshed and came downstairs with his pyjamas.
He really missed her mom's delicious food.

After Dinner

He sat down on the couch and turned on the TV. It was his favorite show time. American Idol. Oh how dear much he loved it God knows!!!

Y/n took this chance to sit beside him and her mother was in her bedroom. Good timing.
Hope she can solve the issue.
"What do you want from me??" Y/n was about to speak but stopped after hearing him speak first (ofcourse without looking at her).
So she decided to straightforwardly say it out.

"Jungkook" she took his hands and made him look into her deep, beautiful, brown eyes. They were something else. Something different from this world. But Jungkook though was melting into her eyes, he had to act strong...that's according to plan...wait...the fuck??what plan??
"I'm sorry for everything. Please Jungkook. Please forgive me. I beg your pardon. But honestly can I say something???I really love you too. But it was impossible for me to confess."FUCK. Fuck. Fuck. What the freaking....?? She wasn't supposed to!!! Why did she confessed??!!! Jungkook almost fell from the couch. He was about to have a heart attack.
Someone help!!!!! Ambulance!!!

"What do you mean???" Jungkook asked quietly,nearly choking.
"I meant that I love you. Yes I do but I didn't tell you since I'm already dating. I know you're hurt kookie ah." She caressed his cheeks. He was touched and wanted to drown. Is he fucking dreaming??!!!

"Please forgive me. I promise that I'll never hurt you again. And you want to hear the truth??the truth is that I was in love with you all of a sudden, in the middle of my dating life but then, I couldn't change my feelings. I truly love you,believe me kookie" well he had to believe. After all, he knew Miss Doobadaa was the reason behind this.
"Y/n"
Jungkook held her hands and looked straightly at her. Aish Y/n was blushing!!
"I ofcourse forgive you.... you're my only best friend but I also need to say sorry for 1 thing"
He looked down.
"What??"
"Maybe you should keep your confession to yourself. I already have a girlfriend".

............???!!!!!