Now 5 am and I don't think anyone on Luna has gotten any more sleep, well maybe just everyone who knows what happened it's asleep. "The wedding." Means Kai and I's wedding, of course, I don't wanna stop it but I have to at the moment, Michelle's little life is at risk if I don't. Which of course, many people are saying that if the person can kill her, why wouldn't he just to prove his point? It's not like I'm mad at Wolf and Scarlet because they have Michelle here, not like that at all! I'm just, I don't really know, I just feel like a curse on everyone. But if I told anyone how I felt they would quickly tell me that I'm not, because they wouldn't look at the facts. More than half the bad things that have happened to our group was my fault or because of me.

My office had finally calmed down a couple minutes ago because all the officers left and went looking for this guy. On one hand, I liked the alone time but I also hated being alone. I put my elbows on the desk and dropped my head into my hands, letting out a sigh I stayed there for a couple seconds not sure what else to do. A soft knock fills the quiet office, I don't know who it is but it's probably another officer.

"Come in," I say and sit back up in my chair to make sure they don't see that I'm tired and hopeless.

The door opens slowly and Kai walks into the room. "Hey." He said and walked over to my desk.

"Hey," I responded and smiled, just to see him made it feel like a weight was lifted off me. Maybe that's what love is, never having to carry life on your own, always having someone to carry it with you.

"How are you holding up?" He asked and sat down on the couch next to my chair. He held out his hand for me to come sit with him.

"I'm fine. How are you?" I asked him and got up from my chair to go sit with him. I sat down next to him and smiled as he laid his arm around my neck and I put my head on his shoulder.

"You know I can see that you aren't fine." He told me and kissed my head softly. "Now besides the big thing, what's wrong?"

She let out a sigh not sure if I should tell him what was really wrong, I didn't want to make tonight about me when it was about Scarlet, Wolf and little Michelle. "Ever feel like every bad thing happens because of you? Like there isn't a single thing you can do to keep all the bad things from happening to the people you love. Like you're a curse." I whisper and a small tear fell from my eyes and onto his shirt.

"Cinder..." He started but trailed off before he could put all his words together. "You aren't a curse and you aren't the reason every bad thing happens." He told her and looked down at me.

"But then why do all the bad things have a tie to me?"

"Is is it your fault that Emile died?" He asked her knowing I'd say no.

"No. She died of cancer, I couldn't do anything about that." I told him honestly even though it hurt a bit.

"See, you aren't the reason bad things happen." He told me.

"That's not true."

"Yes, it is true. You just need to see, maybe people do things to try and hurt you but it doesn't make them your fault." He told me.

"Are you sure?"

"100%." He told me and kissed my forehead as I cried. 

(Oops this is a day late.... Sorry. Also, I didn't post last week cuz it was Easter! Hope you all had a good Easter!)