Harry

"We can't just not tell him you're alive!" I yell at Natalia, Not Nat this isn't Nat she wants to be with her twin every second, I think bitterly while in the middle of a war with Natalia,

"Yes, you can!" She yells back louder and glares at me with the one she would use on Flint or other Slytherins who messed with her 'cubs' or 'Baby Griffs',

"HE'S YOUR TWIN FOR GODRIC'S SAKE!" I scream trying not to falter under her gaze,

"YOU THINK I DON'T KNOW THAT!? YOU THINK I DON'T WANT NOTHING MORE THAN TO RUN TO HIM?! IT'S BETTER HE THINKS I'M DEAD THAN CONSTANTLY OUT OF REACH!" She screams the glare never leaving her while newfound tears run down her face,

"NATALIA! JACK GOES ON SUICIDE MISSIONS BECAUSE HE WANTS YOU BACK! HE NEVER FUCKING SMILES! NEVER PRANKS! NEVER JOKES!" I scream tears finding their way to my eyes I barely register the sound of the Room or Requirements door opening but I see the Marauders walk in through the mirrors, looking completely shocked. We can't stop though this is family,

"I KNOW THAT! I CRY MYSELF TO SLEEP MOST NIGHTS! I'VE HAD SO MANY BREAKDOWNS I CAN'T COUNT THEM! I HAVE WORN THE SMELL OUT OF ALL JACK'S CLOTHES! I WANT TO BE WITH HIM EVERY SECOND BUT I FUCKING CAN'T CAUSE I'M HERE! SAVING YOUR FAMILY! OUR FAMILY! HIS SUICIDE MISSIONS ARE HIS FUCKING CHOICE! AND YOU KNOW WHAT?! WHEN I FIRST CAME HERE THE WHOLE CHRISTMAS BREAK I THOUGHT ABOUT SUICIDE!" She what? "I THOUGHT ABOUT IT SO MANY TIMES!" At this point, she collapses onto the floor and is on her knees at the opposite side of the room because I had backed away when she first told me we couldn't tell Jack she was alive. The tears on her face aren't just running now they are falling like a waterfall. She's never looked this broken or sounded this broken not even when she thought I was dead. She looks broken and it's your fault, my mind whispers. "Do you think I don't want him to know? I want him to know so bad but he'll come here when the time is right," Natalia whispers her shoulders sagging and her posture now bent. Her glare turned into a look of pure heartache and guilt, "I want my other half, Harry," She sobs now shaking and struggling to breathe, I quickly run forward and kneel in front of her, holding her shoulders and I look her in the eyes.

"What do you need Nat," I say gently, she doesn't look me in the eyes though,

"Remus. I want Remus," She whispers, Nat almost sounds like she feels guilty for it. I hear a few footsteps behind me but before who must be Remus gets to Nat I ask her again,

"I said. What do you need Nat," I repeat this time she looks me in the eyes somehow looking more broken than before,

"Jack it's, always Jack," Nat sobs again this time holding me like she knows it's one of the last times. I know it's one of the last times too because I hold her just as tight.

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"I promise Nat!" Harry calls just as he and Mione disappear. Numbly I make my way back to the common room. The Gryffindor common room without them. Again. And again. I walk to the portrait so many times and walk away before the Fat Lady can ask for the password. I spend most of the day avoiding everyone, the girls, the Marauders, literally any Hogwarts student and professor. After skipping lunch and dinner I finally feel like I can stomach food and make my way to the kitchen. Passing a bunch of corridors along the way, carefully listening out for anyone coming my way, when I hear a couple groaning in one of the corridors across from this one. For the first time since the Room of Requirement, a smirk makes its way on my face and I fiddle around in my pockets hoping I have a commy colour one of Fred and George's unreleased products that they gave me like a thousand of. Couple number 23, I think, and change corridors and I don't even need to listen carefully to know which one they are in. The closer I get the bigger the smirk on my face gets, I have the dung bomb-like contraption in my hand ready to use. My hand hovers over the broom cupboard's handle. I think of the unlocking charm as my hand stays in place until I hear the click and throw the bomb at the couple and slam the door. BANG! The door rattles a bit as the bomb goes off,

"James you said you put a silencing charm on the cupboard!" A muffled voice yells, JAMES?!

"I thought I did," James mumbles and the door opens, and out comes a purple James with someone behind him,

"Well, obviously you didn't," A guy huffs, GUY?! My brain is running a mile per hour now. James' shirt isn't sitting right and he's wearing a Slytherin tie messily around his neck, when his mystery person comes out he is wearing a Gryffindor tie slightly neater than James and is adjusting his robes. 

"MY FUCKING EYES!" I scream when I realise that Regulus is the Slytherin that James was making out with. My best friend's dad, my uncle's brother, someone I see as a fucking brother!

"NAT?!" They yell in response now looking at me, I'm staring wide-eyed at the two,

"ARE YOU SERIOUS LILY HAS THE BOTH OF YOU WANTING TO DATE HER!?" Is the only thing that comes out of my mouth. I always knew it was Regulus who sent Lily the books I recognised the writing as the one I studied on the piece of paper from the locket and the writing of my little brother I tutor. But what I didn't realise was they were courting her together.

"Ye-wait that's your first reaction?" James asks confused and Regulus is standing there frozen,

"No, my first reaction is to scrub my eyes out cause I just saw my little brother fixing his robes and tie, which by the way Reggie that is James' tie," I sass still looking shocked between the two. Reg snaps out of it and pulls James tie ruffly over his head a bright pink blush on his cheeks, from the fact he was just snogging James in a broom closet and I just caught and called him out.

"You're not mad?" Regulus questions looking at me after taking back the tie from James,

"Why would I be mad?" I question sincerity confused when he asks, "If anything you guys should be mad I just colour-bombed you,"

"You know that I'm dating a guy and we both fancy Lily," He whispers so quietly I barely hear,

"I'm bi you idiot," I laugh watching his and James' faces change from confusion, fear, shock, acceptance, happy, and back to confusion,

"You are?" James questions truly dumbfounded and wide-eyed,

"Yes Jamie boy!" I respond cheerily and knock on his as I did to Harry only yesterday, "Get that in your head and don't tell Sirius and I won't tell him about this," I blackmail with a sweet smile on my face that it takes him a good ten seconds to realise what I said,

"Hey, what's with the blackmail?" Regulus says a second before James,

"Why can't I tell Sirius?" He pouts completely skipping over the blackmail bit,

"Think about it, or let your boyfriend do the thinking," I smile before actually walking back to the common room to walk in.

A/N I know this is a lot shorter than my most recent chapters but I write this late at night and my brain stopped working and I am not writing this on my preferred device :) I am so sorry I haven't been posting I had a bad case of writer's block but its mostly gone hopefully. I forgot to post an author's note on this book because I did it on my other one. So sorry again, please forgive me!! 🥺

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