CHAPTER 39: Sharing Pain

BELLA PARKER


"Liam."


"Hmm."


Me and Liam, we were in our room while Ryan was already asleep in his room. I was laying beside Liam, my head was resting on his arm and he was playing with my hair.


"Can I ask a question?" I asked.


"How about no?" he replied.


I turned to look at him "But I want to know."


"See I don't have any other option than to answer your question."


I pouted. He smiled and pecked my lips. "You love teasing me, don't you?"


I blushed.


"Please don't get mad." I said hoping he answers my question.


"I won't."


"Why don't you let anyone go and see your paintings? They are beautiful Liam then why?" I was scared as hell while asking him this.


He stared at the ceiling for sometime, with a clenched jaw. "I have reasons."


"I want to know them."


"Bella. Can we please stop this?" He said sitting up from the bed.


I too sat up with him, holding his arm. I said "Liam, you know everything about me but me, I don't know anything about you other than this that Ryan is your son."


"You don't have to know anything else." He said in an angry voice.


I just nodded slowly without arguing, I laid back on the bed turning to my side.


He sighed and called me "Bella." but I didn't reply instead I clutched the duvet tightly and closed my eyes. Without saying anything else he left the room.


What is it that you are hiding Liam?


Why can't you just tell me everything about yourself?


Why are you being like this?


I don't know when did he return because while sobbing, I fell asleep. But the next morning when my eyes opened he was already gone. When I asked Maria she said he had some important meeting, but I know this very well that he is trying to avoid me.


Fine, if he doesn't want to tell me. I won't ask him anymore.


He didn't have to avoid me for that.


I was lost in my thoughts when someone called me "Mommy."


I looked up to see Ryan, who was playing with his shield he eyed me suspiciously "Yes baby."


"What happened? You look lost."


"Nope I am not."


"Yes you are. You shouldn't lie Mommy, it's a bad thing."


"Come here." I called him and he came running to me, making him sit on my lap I hugged him "It's nothing."


"You miss your Nanny, don't you?" he asked.


I nodded.


"Don't be sad Mommy. Dad says that people who die becomes star and shine in the sky, then they watch us from the sky. Your Nanny too must be watching you Mommy and if she sees you sad and crying like this then she would too become sad. So if you want her to be happy then you should stop being sad."


"Hmm.. I see my baby has grown up so much."


He gave me a dull smile then said "Mommy don't be sad please. If you are sad then I too become sad. I don't like the sad side of yours, it doesn't suit you."


This boy is so young yet he is so mature. He is right, I have people who needs me.


"So you are sad now. Umm... let me think of something." I said while acting that I am thinking.


He looked at me with curiosity.


I smirked then said "The best way to make my baby happy is.."


"Is?" he asked.


"By tickling him." I started tickling him in the stomach and he started laughing loudly.


"M-Mommy s-stop." He said while laughing trying his best to make me stop with his hands.


"You wanted to be happy right?"


"I-I didn't m-mean l-like this. Oh Jesus!" he said while shaking and trying to move away from me. Finally he got the chance and ran away from me. Then he stood at a good distance from me breathing heavily "Mommy you are getting r-really n-naughty."


I laughed at him.


In the evening, when Ryan was studying  I was roaming around the house. When I passed through the room, that was filled with the paintings, I couldn't control myself and I went in.


I don't care if he sees me here. He doesn't have anything to punish me with now. I can go. We'll see what he'll do later.


I opened the door slowly and went in. It was all the same, the same paintings, the same pictures. No additional paintings.


I wonder why has he kept this room? He can just destroy everything here if he hates this room so much.


I was looking at the paintings when my eyes again fell on the girl's drawing, the drawing that I saw the other day. It was beautiful, she looked really beautiful. I touched the drawing, lost in the picture.


"That's Amelia." A voice came from behind me. I turned around to see Liam standing leaning against the door. His coat and tie both were off, he was wearing a dark blue shirt with sleeves rolled up and the first two buttons of his shirt were undone giving me the view of his tanned collarbones.


I stared at him for sometime.


Why is he telling me this? He was the one who decided to avoid me.


He came inside the room, and stood in front of me looking at the picture with a smile on his face. Without saying anything I decided to just leave the room. I was about to leave but when I passed Liam he held my wrist.


"She is my sister. Actually was."


Liam then held my waist pulling me closer to him, I felt my heart beating faster. I haven't still got used to him being so close, it feels the same everytime, the unusual heartbeat. Resting his head on my shoulder he continued "I loved to paint."


"L-Liam you don't have to-"


Ignoring what I was saying Liam continued "And she wanted to paint like me. We always made paintings together. One day she asked me to make a sketch of hers and this is the one I made. She was so happy when I completed it, she roamed all over our house with that sketch showing it to everyone and told me to frame it and keep it. This room, is filled with the memories of me and Amelia. All the pictures here reminds me of her, everything here makes me remember her, her smile, her laugh, her talks everything. And these all leads to one thing, that night, the night when I lost her. This is why I never come to this room, nor do I paint. That day when y-you were on the bed I was drunk because it w-was the day she died. I don't know how else to relieve pain. This is the only way I know, by drinking."


"Liam." I called him when he hid his face in the crook of my neck. I pulled away to look at him, when I looked at his face, I saw tears rolling down his cheeks. "Liam."


"It was my fault Bella. If I would've not let her drive that day then everything would have been fine. She would've been alive."


I shook my head wiping his tears "It wasn't your fault. It's just fate. If you would've known then you would've never let her drive the car."


He hugged me tightly, crying on my shoulder. "I should've saved her. I should've."


"Liam please stop blaming yourself. Please."


"I-I can't." He then pulled away from the hug and held both my hands in his. "Bella, promise me one thing, whatever it is, whatever happens, you won't leave me. You won't go away from me. You'll always stay with me. Promise me Bella."


I was confused at first by what he was saying. Why would I leave him?


"But Liam why-"


"Just promise me."


I nodded "I promise Liam, I won't leave you."


He pulled me placing one hand on the back of my head and connected our lips. I kissed him back and wrapped my arms around his neck. Liam pushed me back making me sit on the table. He stood in between my legs, pulling me closer to him. He tugged on my lower lip asking for entrance inside my mouth and I granted him letting out a moan. Our lips were moving slowly against each other. I could feel my cheek heating up, and butterflies all over my stomach.


Finally we pulled away, both of us were breathing heavily. Liam then said resting his forehead against mine "I think we should stop now, or this kiss might lead to something else." 


I blushed.
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"Mommy!"


"Bella!"


"Mommy!"


"Bella!"


"Mommy come fast. We are getting late."


"Bella fast."


"MOMMY!"


"BELLA!"


Ryan and Liam kept on yelling from the living room while I was in the kitchen, pouring juice in the glasses.


"COMING." I yelled back.


For tonight Liam and Ryan decided to play a game. I don't know what video game they both were talking about but they wanted me to join them. So after pouring the juices, I made my way to the living room where I found my baby and his Daddy dear sitting on the floor leaning against the couch with a controller in each ones hand. I went to them, keeping the juices in front of them I sat between Liam and Ryan.


"Mommy take this." Ryan said giving me one controller.


"But I don't know how to play this." I said pouting.


Liam chuckled and I glared at him. Ryan said "Mommy don't worry I am here to teach you."


"Okay.."


"So, we have to make a team of two and then we have to kill the opponent team with the guns. We can buy guns from the shopping bag looking thing there on the screen."


"That's it?" I asked.


"Yep. And this is the shooting button, you have to shoot the person when the red dot comes in him."


I nodded.


"But how are we going to team up? I mean we are three." I asked.


"Don't worry about that Mommy. You'll be in my team." Ryan said with a wide smile plastered in his face.


"Who said that?" Liam asked.


"Me. Duh!" Ryan replied.


"No she will not be in your team." Liam argued.


"Yes she will. She is my Mommy."


"She will be in my team, she is my wife."


"But Dad, you always win this game. Let her be in my team, maybe for once I can win."


Liam thought for sometime then said "You know what, you are right. Bella you can help the little boy try winning."


Me and Ryan, we glared at him and said in unison "We will win."


"That we'll see." Liam replied with a smirk.
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"Yess!" Liam exclaimed. "I won again."


"That's not fair Dad. I was reloading my gun." Ryan argued.


"That's game little one."


This was the 5th time Liam won and me and Ryan, we didn't win even once.


"One more game." Ryan said. "Mommy don't worry this time we'll win."


LIAM PARKER


I smirked.


Poor kids. They think they can win against me.


"Try hard both of you." I teased.


Ryan glared at me. When I looked at Bella, she looked sad. The game started again.


"Mommy we are going to be together." Ryan said Bella.


"Okay." She replied.


Again I shot both of them.


"Oh baby, your plan didn't work." I said Ryan teasing him.


"That was cheating Liam." Bella said in an angry tone.


"How is it cheating?" I asked in confusion.


"Because y-you-"


"I what?"


"You-" she thought for sometime then said "Because you were jumping and firing."


I gave her a boring look. "That's not called cheating Bella. Don't blame me if you both are bad in this game."


"We are not bad." She snapped. And the game started again.


I smiled looking at her focused face.


"Ryan baby, you go from right and I'll go from left."


"Okay Mommy."


However hard they try they can't beat me.


I first killed Ryan. "Dad!" he exclaimed when I killed him. I laughed. "Mommy I am dead."


"Your fault." I said.


"Come on Mommy, you can do it." Ryan cheered for Bella.


I looked once at Bella, to see her focused in the game.


"Come on Mommy."


If she loses again, she'll make that sad face again, which I don't like. I have an idea.


I wasted some of my bullets missing the aim, while she was continuously hitting me, then when I was reloading my gun, she killed me.


"YAY!!" She yelled in happiness jumping. "I WON! RYAN CAN YOU BELIEVE IT, I WON!"


She stuck her tongue out and showed it to me "You lost. I defeated the great Liam Parker."


She picked up Ryan in her arms and twirled with him. "Baby we won."


I just stared at her with a smile on my face. If defeating me can give her so much happiness, then I am so ready to lose all the matches. At the end of everything, I just want to see that smile of hers.


"YASS! MOMMY WE DID IT!" Ryan too yelled with her.


I just shook my head.


"Okay it's just one game." I said trying to slow them down.


"But you lost." Both said in unison.


I rolled my eyes.


After the game, we had our dinner, then I went to our room, while Bella was with Ryan telling him story. I was doing my work, when my phone started ringing. I saw the caller id, it was Asher.


My eyebrows furrowed, why is he calling  at this time.


I stood in front of the window with one hand in my sweat pockets and answered "Yeah."


"Sir, we have a problem." He said breathing heavily.


"What problem?"


"Sir that man, Seth we were tracing him for many days."


"I know that. What is the problem?"


"Sir, he was out of the city for many days, after Mrs. Adams's death but now I don't know why so suddenly, he is back."


I felt my heart skip a beat.


What the fuck is he doing here?


"Did you trace his location here?" I asked.


"We are trying Sir but he switched off his phone."


"Listen to me clearly Asher, do something. I don't know what are you going to do and I don't care but find him. I want him. Do whatever it takes but I want him."


"Yes Sir."


With that I hung up.


Why the hell is he here now? No, I can't let him get close to Bella. I have to find him. He knows everything and if he tells Bella, then I am sure everything is going to be over between us and I can't let that happen. Everything is so perfect, I can't let him ruin this.


She has become too much for me, to lose now.


I felt hands wrapping around me from behind. A smile crept on my face. I knew who it was.


My Bella.


She leaned on my back and asked "Is there something wrong?"


I kissed her hands that were on my chest and shook my head. "Nothing is wrong."


She came forward and stood in font of me scanning my face. "You're lying."


I smiled "Just work."


She nodded.


I stared at her for sometime.


"Why are you staring at me?" she asked.


Without saying anything I cupped her face and pulled her into a kiss. She was shocked by my sudden action but I didn't want to pull away. I kissed her passionately, like my life depended on that kiss. She started kissing me back. When we were both out of breath I pulled away.


"I love you so fucking much Bella."


She smiled. "I love you too."


I think I should tell her everything, before it's too late.


"Bella, I wanted to talk to you." I said nervously.


She nodded. "What?"


I took a deep breath "T-That... I-I, actually-"


I was about to say when we heard the doorbell.


"It's late. Who can it be?" Bella asked.


"I'll go and check." I said.


"I'll come with you." She said.


I nodded.


I went downstairs, switching on the lights I went to the door, Bella was following me from behind. As soon as I opened the door, my eyes widened, the person who I least expected stood there.


"Seth?" I heard Bella's voice from behind.


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