TW: ed thoughts a bit (Slightly) Just negative thoughts that include a bit of ed thoughts

"We will leave you two alone," Pearl said smiling as the gems started heading towards home school.

Amethyst waved before going out the door and then Connie turned to look at Steven.

"Hey Steven it's been such a long time since we hung out, how have you been," Connie asked, smiling at Steven. Steven felt awkward talking to Connie especially since he knew she talked bad about him behind his back.

"I'm good, I have been busy hanging out with some new people," Steven said, looking sideways.

"New people?? You mean the new gems in homeschool?" Connie asked, confused.

"No Connie... Human friends. I'm half human so I wanted to meet more people," Steven said quietly.

"Oh-" Connie said a bit awkwardly. "Well you should introduce me to your new friends!!" Connie said.

Steven panicked. His friends were his comfort. He didn't want Connie in them and he didn't want her to talk bad about him to them. They were the only group of friends that did not know Connie or the gems that well. They made him feel safe because they didn't know that he saved the world his mom almost destroyed.

"Well they are busy today we should go out and eat some french fries or something," Steven said quickly heading towards the doors already

I CAN'T let her meet the gang...

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Steven and Connie walked on the sidewalk. Steven looked at Connie.

"You wanna eat anything?" Steven asked.

"How about some pizza??" Connie replied.

"Sure but I'm a vegetarian now so I wont eat the ones with meat," Steven said.

"Oh wow really? I did not know that," Connie stared in awe. She had always thought about being a vegetarian to preserve animals and help them. Soon the two of them had walked into the pizza place and ordered a pizza from Kiki and sat down. A couple of minutes passed with Steven looking out the window and Connie checking her phone when Connie. Their pizza finally came out and they dug in.

"Woah Steven you eat so well," Connie laughed looking at Steven.

"I do?" Steven questioned.

"Yeah like a cute pig haha it's really cute though," Connie said not thinking much of her words. Steven looked down.

I am getting a bit chubby

Maybe I should diet or something

Wait NO food is fine Im okay why am I thinking like this. I'm just gonna surfer if I diet.

But I deserve to suffer. I'm good for nothing...

Steven slowed down on eating and just picked on his food which Connie seemingly hadn't noticed.

Why am I so sensitive?

She was trying to joke around with me..

But doesnt she hate me? Maybe she meant what she said.

I mean who wouldn't hate me... I do nothing but bother people. That's why the gems said I'm a handful. Why was I so upset. Anyone would be annoyed to have to deal with me. I really am worthless...

steven...

Steven...

"STEVENN," Connie said.

"Huh what?" Steven snapped out of his thoughts

"You looked like you were daydreaming.. Anyways I was just talking about how-" Connie continued on about her school life and opinions. Steven turned them out and his head hurted. He turned his head and looked out the window.

Notes

I always thought I might be bad now Im sure thats true cause your so goo and Im nothing like you - Rebecca Sugar