In the Port Mafia building's dark, empty hallways, came the sound of footsteps, Dazai's slow, quiet footsteps. He knew what awaited him where he was heading, he wasn't impatient to get there.

His attention was on his right arm, considering whether he should wear his fake cast again until he was faced by two guards and soon by his own Boss after the guards let him inside Mori's office.

Mori was so lost in his papers that he didn't feel Dazai's presence until five minutes passed and Dazai let out a long sigh signaling that he wasn't a ghost.

"Dazai-kun- you were here ?"

"I wish i wasn't .."

"Why is Chuuya-kun not with you ?"

"He wasn't in his room and he left his phone there .."

"Now that i think of it, i did hear Elise-chan say something about a tea session with Kouyou-kun and Chuuya-kun .."

Mori drove his gaze down to his papers, he did need a break and now was his chance to take it.

"Dazai-kun, how about we switch jobs ?"

"No way- i'm already having a hard time with my missions, i don't even want to imagine myself being the Boss .."

"But as the Boss, Chuuya-kun would be all yours-"

Mori didn't miss the change in Dazai's expression but he gave him no time to talk as he stood to join him.

"Too late, you already rejected my suggestion~"

"I wasn't going to change my answer anyway !"

"Yes yes, i believe you~ let us go to Kouyou-kun's quarters, i am sure we will find Chuuya-kun there ."

Mori had his hand on Dazai's shoulder both heading out of the office, the two guards bowing as they walked past them.

"I don't understand what Chuuya keeps doing there anyway, i would get it if he was a girl but he is just a chibi-"

"He is a really kind and obedient boy unlike you ."

"You are the last person who should be talking about kindness, you never kept your promise about making the poison i need to suicide !"

"Oh- you still want to suicide ? I thought you gave up on dying .."

"Why would i-"

"Since you met Chuuya-kun, you seem to be really lively~"

"What- there is no such a thing !"

Dazai may be a genius but emotion-wise, he still was a fifteen years old teen. Mori could read him like an opened book.

As if Mori's teasing wasn't enough for Dazai's too messed feelings, they were now in Kouyou's quarters and soon found where she was having her tea session with Elise and Chuuya, all of them wearing proper kimonos or more like- proper feminine kimonos ...

Chuuya was facing them with his back and the back view was already enough to make a mess out of the teen brunet's mind and heart. His eyes went from beautifully combed hair to back covered by a blood red kimono to small waist wrapped in a lighter red obi to butt- then quickly up to the exposed nape, he wasn't sure his heart could bear seeing the front view.

He stood at the doorway like a statue while Mori wasted no time to pull out his phone, taking pictures of Elise from every angle.

"Elise-chan with a kimono is such a rare sight !! I need to take as many pictures of her as possible !!"

"Who would ever believe the Port Mafia Boss could have such twisted tastes .."

Kouyou sipped her tea calmly, wondering how Elise could make so many different poses for every picture Mori took. As for Chuuya who guessed both Kouyou and he would show in some of those pictures since they were sitting close to Elise, he thought of moving away but at the sight of his calm mentor, he chose to stay still.

Dazai was in the same place, not wanting to walk in so that he doesn't see the front view but Kouyou ruined his plans as she invited him in. He had to join them and was totally not ready to see his partner's face as Chuuya turned around to look at him, he didn't know Dazai was there.

To his surprise, Dazai averted his gaze and walked to the side taking a seat there, he had no idea what was going on inside Dazai's mind at that moment 'Red ... his lips are red ...' those words were on repeat in Dazai's brain.

Hazel eyes were focused on the ground then they shifted up when he heard Kouyou and Chuuya giggling at Mori which was a huge mistake. Here was Dazai's chest getting too tight, his fists clenching too hard, he could fathom anything except the beauty that is Chuuya, he was amazed, mesmerized, he had no idea the two adults in the room were seeing every little action and reaction coming from him.

"Could we now know why our Boss is honoring us with his visit ?"

Mori and Dazai did forget what they came there for until they heard Kouyou's words.

"Ah yes, i wanted Dazai-kun and Chuuya-kun to go on that mission-"

Mori couldn't finish his words at his phone ringing, he had to go to another room to respond to the call leaving Chuuya in confusion and of course, Chuuya had to address no other than his partner for details.

"What is this mission about ?"

"How would i know ?"

Dazai drove his gaze down to his own phone, acting like he was focused on it but if there was anything he wanted to do with that phone, it was to take a picture of his crush. Luckily yet at the same time sadly for him, Mori came back soon letting out a sigh of relief.

"The problem is solved so you won't have to go on that mission ."

"I will take my leave then ."

Dazai surprised them as he stood to leave, he didn't want to spend even a second in there, being in Chuuya's presence made him feel more human than he was supposed to be and that ... scared him.

But of course- Of Course Chuuya had to feel the need to leave at that exact moment too ... he excused himself then stood up, giving one last smile to Elise who told him he could keep the clothes and accessories before he follows the brunet out.

If there was anything Dazai Osamu can not do, it was to talk with Chuuya face to face at that moment. He was too beautiful for Dazai's heart- or no, he was too beautiful for this whole world. 

Yet here they were, their shoulders inches away from one another, Dazai bit hard on his bottom lip to remain calm, he couldn't act out of his usual self.

"Why is Chibi following me ?!"

"Who is following you ?! My room is in this way, it's yours that is on the opposite way ."

"Who said i was going to my room ? And what's with that outfit anyway ?! Aren't you ashamed to walk around with such clothes ??"

Dazai couldn't keep it to himself, he was afraid they would meet other Port Mafia members and they would see how gorgeous Chuuya looks, in the worst case he would have to kill them-

"Why should i be ashamed ? The kimono is beautiful plus Anee-san and Elise were happy when i wore it so your opinion doesn't count ."

Dazai clenched his fists again, Chuuya was indeed too kind, he would do anything to make others happy yet Dazai wished only his happiness mattered to Chuuya.

"Are you coming in or not ?"

It was only at that moment that Dazai realized they reached Chuuya's room, he was glad they met no one but then .. 'I do .. want to go in but .. what if he starts undressing ?!!!' Dazai bit his lip, the choice was obvious, although it might be the death of him but then wasn't death what he always yearned for ?

He rested on Chuuya's bed as if it was his, analyzing every inch of him, from his eyeshadow to his geta which added few centimeters to his height but he soon took them off, about to undress from his other clothes, Dazai wasn't ready.

He couldn't believe he- Dazai was averting his gaze from a boy his age taking off his clothes, his cheeks colored in pink, he could not understand why his own body acted so weirdly, and only with this petite redhead.

"This kimono is expensive, i feel bad for keeping it just because i wore it once .. maybe Elise will take it back if i wash it .."

Chuuya's words cut through Dazai's thoughts, he instinctively looked up at him and here was Dazai's heart skipping a beat- multiple beats again, how could it stay still at the sight of Chuuya's bare skin ?

"Mori-san would buy her thousands of those if that was her wish so you can keep that one .."

'It looks better on you anyway ..' Dazai added in his thoughts, his eyes still on porcelain skin, it had no scars, not even a small scratch, unlike his own body full of cuts, ones he drew with his own hands.

Chuuya was out of his kimono, only his red underwear were left, Dazai was gulping at the sight, questioning his not so innocent thoughts but never putting an end to them, he couldn't- 'I want to touch his skin .. i want to kiss it .. i want to kiss him ...'

Chocolate eyes were on red lips the whole time, not even hearing the words coming out of that mouth until he saw Chuuya walk to the bathroom with clothes in his hand, he was probably going to shower 'I want to watch him bathe .. his body wet, his long orange hair falling over-' 

Dazai was back to his senses at the sound the door made when Chuuya shut it. He shook his head, letting out an exasperated sigh 'Out of all things i would want to do with this chibi, i choose to have my lips against his .. what is wrong with me ?!!'

He hated how his mind and body acted against his will, he let himself fall on the bed, adjusting his back against the pillow later on and pulling out his phone where he decided to google 'Why do i want to kiss someone's lips ?'

He got angry at the first sentence he read 'That's a lie ! There is no way i ... love that chibi !' Dazai was deathglaring his phone as if that would do it anything.

He slowly leaned down on the bed, repeating to himself that he doesn't love him, he couldn't love him, he couldn't love anyone, he doesn't have the right to love anyone- but then, that was only half of his mind, the other half was busy having it's own regrets 'I wish i at least took a picture of him in that kimono ...'

He was about to get angry at himself for having such thoughts until he felt his phone vibrate in his hand, he received two messages from Mori which were 'You had your eyes on him the whole time so i thought you would want this .' and a picture of Chuuya in that kimono.

After two minutes, five- Dazai couldn't tell how much time he spent looking at that picture, all he knew was that now, he had his forearm pressed against his eyes, maybe this way he would stop the tears from falling but it was in vain.

"I want to die ..."

"What did you say ?"

Dazai almost jumped off the bed at Chuuya's voice as he walked out of the bathroom, he quickly dried his tears, pulling out his book that he always keeps with him, using it to cover his face.

"Chibi is hearing imaginary voices now ?"

"No, i'm sure you said something- besides, why are you still in my room ??"

Chuuya walked on the bed, his hand on the towel to dry his hair while he pushed Dazai with his leg until the latter moved aside, his eyes still on the book.

Chuuya gave up and laid down, finding himself caged between Dazai's back and the wall. He didn't know that Dazai's heart was racing and had no idea what he did to him when he rested his hand on Dazai's shoulder, his chest against Dazai's back, their cheeks almost touching.

"Are you still reading that stupid book ?"

"You think it's stupid ? Well, i never expected a chibi with a microscopic brain like you to see the beauty in death ."

"Here you go spouting your nonsense again .."

"How about you take your wet hair off my face now ?"

Dazai suddenly turned on his back forcing Chuuya to pull away. No, he wasn't going to admit that he was intoxicated by Chuuya's sweet scent, not even to himself.

If anything, he was enraged that Chuuya could be so comfortable around him yet he- his heart just won't stay still ! And Chuuya being Chuuya, he had to make it all worse by not pulling away, keeping his balance with his right forearm as he was on top of Dazai, their faces inches away from one another.

"You are the one who is on my bed in case you forgot !"

Dazai's mind was going crazy, here were his not so innocent thoughts back at the sight of Chuuya's long, wet hair, ocean eyes staring only at him, water droplets running over soft skin, pinkish lips he wanted to taste more than anything, he could feel himself drooling at the view, this was not good.

"If ..."

'I could at least touch it ..' Dazai couldn't keep his hands to himself anymore, the hand holding the book was directed beside Chuuya's face, the other hand resting on Chuuya's cheek, confusing him.

"If i had to choose between reading this book or looking at your face ..."

His thumb slowly headed to those lips he craved to kiss, he almost forgot Chuuya was actually there looking at him, listening to his words but mostly, feeling his touch.

".. i would rather kiss your lips and die ..."

"What are you talking about, you weirdo ?"

Chuuya finally decided to move away, laying back on his bed, their shoulders still touching, it was too late though- Dazai already decided to kiss him even if it meant he would die, his death being by Chuuya or by his own heart didn't matter to him.

"It's a new suicide tip i read about, apparently kissing the person you dislike the most can make your heart stop ."

"That makes no sense .. of course it won't work !"

"We can't know unless we try .."

"Go find someone else, i'm not helping you with this ."

"Eeh ? I thought Chuuya wanted me to die or is it that you suddenly care about me now ?"

Dazai wasn't backing away, he even turned on his left, getting on top of Chuuya, he knew the latter had no escape with the wall on their left.

"Who cares about you ?! I'm just using some logic, there is no way kissing someone would kill you !"

"It isn't just anyone, it has to be the person you hate the most and Chuuya happens to be the person i hate the most so if i kiss you i'm sure i will die right away-"

"Are you even listening to yourself ?! I thought you were smart and- get off me !"

Dazai had no mind left in him to think of anything other than kissing those small lips, the more they moved as Chuuya talked the more he wanted to shut them, with his own lips that is. He was even leaning down at this point, forcing himself on Chuuya who pushed him away.

"Just let me kiss you and you will see how i will die !"

"Don't include me in your stupid suicide attempts and stop-"

"Give me that kiss-"

"I said stop-"

"I just want to kiss-"

"Leave me alone !"

Dazai stopped when Chuuya pushed his face away, he bit hard on his bottom lip as he watched Chuuya turn to face him with his back, shouting at him to leave his room.

"Do i have to say that i love you to get that goddamn kiss ?!"

Dazai didn't process his words until he blurted them and here came Chuuya's response that never fails to cut through his heart like a knife, his disgusted tone like salt poured on the wound.

"The hell- that's gross !"

If there were any other words Dazai planned to say he already forgot them. He fell back on the bed again, regretting every word- every action he made in the last five minutes, this already happened to him and here he was repeating the same mistake .. he felt like crying.

Silence reigned in the room, Chuuya still processing what happened while Dazai slowly died inside. A long moment passed till Chuuya decided to get off his bed, taking his console and sitting on the floor, his back rested on the bed.

Hazel orbs followed every movement he made, they analyzed his too short white shorts, his pinkish top, his fingers pressing the console's buttons, even his soft breaths- Dazai grabbed hard on the sheets as he took a deep breath, acting like what happened never happened was the only thing he could do.

He sat up, not hesitating to pull on Chuuya's long hair, startling him.

"Aren't you going to cut that ugly hair ? And what's up with the sweet smell of your shampoo ? Are you a girl ?"

"Let go of my hair ! Do you have nothing better to do than annoying me ?!"

"Annoying you is my favorite hobby ."

"That isn't something to be proud of !"

Chuuya went back to his console not to lose the game, he ignored Dazai's hands still on his hair or Dazai having his legs open making sure Chuuya was sitting right between them.

Dazai's fingers were entangled with ginger locks, they felt soft, they weren't too silky, nor too curly, they were just- perfect. Chuuya was perfect. Dazai didn't speak again until he noticed the game ended.

"Let's play against each other and if i win i get to braid your hair ."

"So you pull on my hair when you want yet you indirectly ask for permission to braid it ? I'm not playing against you. Do whatever you want ."

Chuuya's words weren't what Dazai focused on, his attention was on Chuuya's head tilting back to look up at him as he talked, though now it was back to it's previous position.

Long, slender fingers were braiding orange hair while there was only one thought in a too messed up mind.

"Chuuya .."

"What ?"

Chuuya thought he would quickly look up at him then go back to his game, he didn't expect Dazai to use both hands to hold his face then do what he craved for in this whole evening- he finally got to feel those tender lips against his.

Chuuya couldn't let out a proper yelp at his sealed lips, he kept moving urging the brunet to pull away but he wouldn't, he had to use a lot of strength to free himself, lightly hitting Dazai's face in the way.

To Chuuya's surprise after he moved away and stood up, Dazai sat still, his hands still as if they were holding Chuuya's head, his face still leaning down, hell- he didn't even seem like he was breathing.

"Oy- Dazai .. what's wrong with you ?!!"

Chuuya wasn't sure if he should approach him but he still did so, touching his shoulder but Dazai seemed like a statue.

"Oy- what's with you ?? I didn't even punch you that hard or- don't tell me you actually died ?!! Oy Dazai say something !!"

He had both hands on Dazai's shoulders moving him and urging him to talk, worry and panick were obvious on his tone.

"Dazai, talk to me !! You can't die on me like this what the hell ?!! Dazai ! Dazai !!"

Chuuya was frightened, he kept moving him but Dazai wouldn't respond, he quickly headed to the door, trying to look for help.

"Anee-san might know what to do-"

"I am not dead, chibi .."

Dazai's words came out in a whisper that Chuuya wasn't sure if he really said them, he still stopped beside the door, looking at the brunet who was now looking up at him, they spent over a minute like this until Dazai spoke the only thing he could think of.

"I ... took your first kiss ..."

"Who cares about that ?!"

Chuuya let himself fall down on the floor, breathing heavily with his hand on his chest.

"I thought you died, you idiot ! You almost gave me a heart attack !"

"I .. will leave ..."

"What- you will just leave after what you did to me ?!"

Dazai didn't listen to any word his crush said, his brain still processed what happened between them, he even had his hand covering his mouth 'I kissed him- i kissed Chuuya !!'

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Their rest didn't last long, in the next day, they were both summoned to Mori's office and as they headed there, they ran into each other but didn't share a word, Chuuya was angry while Dazai's heart was jumping inside his chest at the sight of his crush, one he got to kiss !

Kouyou was also in Mori's office having her tea as the two teens joined them. Mori noticed that something was unusual the moment his eyes laid on them, though the only thing he pointed out was the compress on Dazai's cheek, one he didn't have the previous day.

"What happened to your face, Dazai-kun ?"

"Chuuya punched me ."

"What- it wasn't even a real punch-"

Chuuya didn't wait to retort while Mori let out a sigh, he could never deal with these teens.

"Didn't i say that you two shouldn't fight ? Why did you punch him, Chuuya-kun ?"

"Because i kissed him ."

Dazai said that as if it was the most common thing to say ... Chuuya couldn't get more embarrassed, Kouyou almost choked on her tea while Mori- Mori was actually happy .. he just took note to teach Dazai how to be more subtle from now on. 

Well, that is .. if Dazai survives Kouyou's anger ... 

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*Don't be angry at Chuu, he will say yes when Dazai learns to ask for it like a normal person ;;

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