I dragged my luggage back into Planet Camp with Gyuvin following behind. "welcome back" Seunghwan said as he pointed his drink at us.

we're going to have the elimination today which is honestly so scary. many fear that they'll have to go back so they don't even bother unpacking their bags. ( I was one of the many ).

honestly, it's unpredictable, except for Sung Hanbin he's always the no.1, untouchable. 

slowly more trainees entered the front door. "keitaa hyung" I called as soon as I saw his frame, then I went to hug him. "you missed me?" he asked. "no" I said, it was a lie, obviously. 

[ tonight is the last survivor announcement ]

everyone introduced themselves and the screen lit up. " STAR MASTER " it read, we're going to have a new star master. it's a sign that things have started for real, making trainees anxious.

then the star master appeared, showing her back profile. she has long blonde hair. "sunmi?" they asked. "ehhh, isn't that jeon somi!?" I asked. at this point, we're just randomly guessing.

I'm friends with Somi, but I haven't seen her in so long. I danced with her before, that's how I knew her. we also got closer because we spoke English.

maybe also because we shared gossips but still!

then she turned around, I swore hair stood from every pore of my body. "Somi!" oh my gosh. no way it's actually here. it is.

in the flesh, somi sunbaenim is the new star master. "hello" she greeted and everyone immediately greeted back.

then she made eye contact with me and gave her a questioning look. I was talking to her on FaceTime the other day, she spilled her tea and I spilled some Planet World tea.

Ms girl told me nothing about her coming to Planet World. nothing, not even a hint. then now she's here right and front of me.

she smiled and shrugged innocently before continuing while I scrunched my nose at her.

then she said that people in 182 countries voted a total of 31,750,293 votes and that trainees ranked 1 through 19 will survive. We also find out that during the first phase of the announcement, they’ll only be announcing trainees from 12 through 18 inclusive, which is only seven people, so this is really silly

then they announced the ranking. they were announcing 12th placing first. " 12th placing is born in the year 05 " so that's either me or Gunwook.

I shifted my head out and looked at Gunwook. "I'll beat you this time," he says and I smirked. alright, gunwook alright.

"the trainee is... " ma'am is pausing a little too long, I stared at her and she stared back at me. "faster" I mouthed and she chuckled and continued. "jiaqi trainee" she said and I don't know if I was relieved or well, worried.

for now, I'm glad I get to perform another stage, but my ranking dropped. from debut team to non-debut team. then I was asked to share my thoughts.

I was shaken out of my thoughts by my teammates hugging me. "it's okay, you'll come back up" Keita told me and gave me a tight hug.

then I gave my team a group hug. before heading to the front. "thank you for voting for me, I'm glad I can still perform on another stage. I know my ranking has dropped, so I'll do my best and get back into the debut team" I said ending with another thank you and a bow. the boys clapped as I made my way the the clear chair with no cushion for the first time.

Then Park Gunwook came up next sitting at 13th place, I went to dab him up. "debut team next yeah" I told him and he nodded. "that's right"

Then Junhyeon was still not coming up, Park Hanbin wasn't either. that's weird, they're either lower or top 11.

"junhyeon hyung and phanbin hyung top 11?" I asked Gunwook and he looked at them and thought about it. "hopefully" he said.

junhyeon ended up getting place 16th, his rank dropped too. so, jongwoo, junhyeon, gunwook and I took up 4 seats. then she announced that there were no more survivors apart from the top 11 and rank 19.

then the ranking went on, after a while it was revealed that phanbin ranked 11. ranking continued.

Keita rank increased, he now placed 6. Then zhang hao and Hanbin were contestants for 1st place. Sung Hanbin protected his spot, which meant Zhanghao placed second.

the two centres of K group and G group. legendary.

then came the part we were all dreading. announcement of last rank, then afterwards whoever wasn't called gets eliminated.

then the 4 contestants for rank 19 showed on the screen, it was wang zihao, kamden, woongki and Hiroto. this automatically means the others were eliminated. 

they slowly announced it starting with 22nd, hiroto. 21st woongki. then rank 19, kamden.

I'm happy for kamden, I really am. while I'm happy for him, im sad for the eliminated trainees as well. they all gave their speechwhich brought tears to many eyes.

wang zihao gave his speech in Chinese, I don't know something about it really hit me as tears started rolling down my face. 

somi then announced that voting has begun. which signalled that we can get off the stage soon.

when told we can leave, we slowly got up and went down. somi signalled for me to go to her and I did. the taller girl squashed my cheeks together before hugging me.

then she pulled away, squeezing my shoulders. "I couldn't tell you okay. also you did well you know." she told me wiping the falling tears off my face.

I nodded, the other trainees started to leave the studio and go to their rooms. some were following their friends to pack their bags, some were going to pack their bags.

" fighting ! " somi told me. "fighting" I replied then she signalled me to go with keita and phanbin who were waiting for me. I nodded and she kissed my cheeks before bidding goodbye.

☆

I went to seunghwan room first. he had his bag packed already as he sat on his bed. I leaned on the wall looking at him. " I didn't unpack " he told me smiling.

"mm" I hummed before walking forward and hugging him. "I'll miss you so much" I told him. "I'll miss you too, just text me hm" he said and I nodded.

☆

then I went to find all the other eliminated trainees, today is the day i think im going to cry the most after an elimination. apart from the last elimination.

everyone spent the remaining of the night with the eliminated trainees. " it's crazy how closed we've grown. we're like a family now" seungeon said to the group of boys.

I couldn't say a word, just wave. if I spoke my voice would crack and tears would come flooding out. I've cried enough earlier, I can save my crying for after they left.

" bye jiaqi, I'll be watching you on the TV " ollie came and told me. I nodded giving him a hug not wanting to let him go. "bye" I said voice breaking. they waved goodbye to us with a soft smile while they boarded the bus.

as the bus slowly left the boys pop their head out, and waved. slowly the bus was out of sight and its left with us, in our big jacket outside of planet camp.

"you okay?" keita asked me and my lips wobbled. "aigoo" keita said before pulling me into a hug, my head on his shoulder while i cried. he rubbed my back. "it's okay" he repeated multiple times. the boys came and rub my back. comforting me. I love them so much.

" 没事的 ( it's okay ) " zhanghao said, is it though? I don't know. I don't know anything anymore, I promised to make all my team members shine but shuaibo didn't make the line up.

I told seunghwan I want to perform the last stage with him but he's not even top 22. ollie... woongki... all of them. I miss them so much even though they just left. they made a huge impact on my life, they're apart of my teenage life.

I tried to stop the tears, but it just couldn't stop flowing down, so I just continued hugging keita. then, I slowly stopped crying once I got tired. "tired?" keita aspked and I nodded sniffling.

" lets go back shall we?" he asked and i nodded.