Your Disney Prince: Sorry

Lilian: Just sorry?
Lilian: What's wrong?

I sighed when I saw her message. Honestly, I wasn't in the mood. It's sweet that Lilian cares but she doesn't deserve me. If I spoke more to her, we both could be in danger. All thanks to that dick head Charles.

By the time I reached home and Thea opened the door, I went straight to my bedroom. Non of my siblings said anything so I guess they didn't care. Once I got changed into my casual clothes, I stepped inside the bathroom to wash my face several times.

My face looked up and I surveyed myself in the mirror. What was wrong with me? A beautiful, caring girl wanted to talk to me and here I am looking at myself while even feeling sorry for myself, ignoring her. The tables switched and now I felt like the dick head.

It has been thirty minutes since she sent the message and I felt guilty that I didn't reply. Counting to three, I opened up WhatsApp and typed in an honest reply.

Your Disney Prince: I wasn't in the mood. I'm sorry again.

I placed my phone underneath my pillow and walked out of my room as soon as that message was sent. I closed my door and walked downstairs. Peeking in the living room, it was only Alex watching some television. That child has nothing better to do.

Thea was alone at the dining table studying. Or so as it seems to be.
I caught her by surprise when behind her books, she was actually texting somebody. A dark blush heated her cheeks when our eyes met. Quickly, she put her phone away and pretended to be focusing on her book about the human body.
My hands had a hold on her book as I took it away from her. At first, it was a surprise for the both of us. But I needed a girl advice this moment. Since she was just reading a section about girls, she should be able to tell me more. Thea assumed, by the look of it, that I was going to say something about her texting someone. But I didn't care. It was probably that boy, Miguel.

Just a crush.

"I don't care who you're texting," I began, my voice so low that I didn't want Alex to hear. I knew he was just going to comment something about being a girl. "I need your advice."

Thea's smile widened and I knew where this was heading. "Is this about that Disney girl?"

I didn't know why but I felt my blush forming when she said that. Thea started to squeal and I couldn't find the words to shut her up. I just looked at her and smiled. I smiled because I was thinking about Lilian. "It is about her."

"I knew it!"

"You knew Simon was a girl?" Alex yelled from the other side of the room. I turned around and glared at him. He stuck his tongue out before smirking at his comment. That was when I got super sick of it. I stood up.

"You know what, Alex?" I yelled back so suddenly that it got everyone in the room off guard. I didn't know what was happening but I walked towards him, turned off the television or whatever that was distracting him and looked at him deadly in his frightened blue eyes. "I am sick of it!" My tone was loud and strong. "I'm sick of you calling me a girl. Yes, I know I'm short, I know I'm weak, I know I'm feminine and I know I'm soft and not manly enough for anything. But hearing every single day at that comment of yours hurts me, okay?"

Alex stared at me frozen and his mouth turned into an 'o' shape. There was fear in his eyes and from that reflection, I see myself becoming the monster to scare him. I was frightened myself that I didn't realise I was holding in the tears in my eyes for so long.

"Just stop it, Alex," I whispered but it was harsh. He blinked several times, trying to recognize me, but nothing escaped his mouth. I spun around and Thea was as shocked. I felt so embarrassed that I couldn't breathe. I couldn't face my siblings. With a puff and straight body gesture, I ran towards my room.

The familiar room surrounded me like a small closet closing in. I wiped my tears harshly away from my face and screamed. I was so frustrated with myself that I had to let somebody let me in. The pillow was the first thing I saw and I showed a weak smile as my legs moved towards my bed. With a hand underneath the pillow, I grabbed the cold object and waited for my instinct to tell me it was okay to read the message.

Lilian: Something is wrong (25 minutes ago)
Lilian: What's up? (15 minutes ago)
Lilian: Tell me (5 minutes ago)
Lilian: Please... (Just now)

I couldn't help it but smile.

Your Disney Prince: I don't wanna get into trouble...

Lilian: Why would you-?
Lilian: WAIT A MINUTE

At that point, when she was typing, Thea barged into my room. Quickly, I threw my phone away and stroked the most unusual pose ever, smiling at my sister. She looked at me as if she saw a dead rat. "What the hell is wrong with you today?"

"I- uh..." I didn't know how to answer that so I looked down. I fiddled with my fingers and kept quiet, hoping she would go away. But with a quickly glance up, she was staring drearily right at me. I sighed and tried to explain myself. "Blame the mood swings."

"Doesn't mean you have to blow it out on Alex like that." Thea uncrossed her arms and sighed while looking back at the door. "He's pretty upset."

"Shit." I got up but she stopped me on my tracks. I had to apologise to my brother.

"What advice to do you need?" Thea looked at me with concern in her eyes. "I can see that something is bothering you and it has to do with Lilian."

Ignoring the buzz from my phone, I told Thea everything about what Charles had said to me. I told her that I was scared and how I thought Lilian told him. But I also told her what Lilian had said to me today. "I don't know what to do."

"Well." Thea bit her lip. She was thinking about what to say. "I don't know, this never happened before..." Finally, after an awkward silence, she whispered softly, "I think you should tell her the truth and if she truly cares, she'll help you out." She noticed the frown I had on my face so with her small hands, she held my face to look at her. I forced myself to did and she gave me cheerful smile. "Don't be scared, Simon. You're stronger than you think."

She was right. I hate to admit it but she was right. I was a wuss because of Charles but in reality, I'm stronger than him. I held on to the hope and love for Lilian, something Charles can never do. I had to show her that. I mouthed a 'thank you' to my sister and smiled at her. She left me in my room alone for the privacy I needed.

I looked back at my phone.

Lilian: Was it something to do with 'he who should not be said'?

Your Disney Prince: Your ex? Yep. He told me that if I ever spoke to you again, he'll kill me.

Lilian: He said WHAT?

Your Disney Prince: I don't want either of us to get into trouble, okay? So please stop talking to me...

My hands were shaking as I wrote that. I was letting fear take over me and that was not okay. Lilian didn't reply after that and I knew I messed up. So I had to slap myself for that.

Your Disney Prince: No, Lilian. Don't go. I'm sorry.

Lilian: You should stop saying you're sorry because there's nothing to feel sorry about :)
Lilian: Charles sucks and we both can agree on that. Though, I can't believe he said that. I swear I didn't tell anyone about this yet.

My smile widened at that text. That specific text.

Your Disney Prince: I wonder how he could find out about us. I mean, it's not like we're... You know...

Lilian: Haha don't worry. He probably saw it when I was in class since he sits behind me in form.
Lilian: BTW I don't care if he catches us. I'll make sure he will never lay his hands on you because you're worth it and would make a WAY better boyfriend that he could ever be.

My jaw dropped. There's no way she could have ever said that. I knew I was being tricked but this was definitely unbelievable. I scratched my head and I realised that my cheeks hurt from smiling so much. I bit my finger nail and lied in bed.

Your Disney Prince: I smile whenever I get a message from you.

Lilian: That makes me feel like I don't want anything right now but your lips on mine.

Fuck. Fuck. Fuck. I didn't know what was happening but something about what she said made me feel so different. So different that I wasn't afraid anymore. She was a different person too.

Lilian liked me and that's the only thing that matters to me right now.

Your Disney Prince: I could totally go for you.

Lilian: I'm not horny all the time okay. IT IS YOU WHO IS MAKING ME FEEL SO DIFFERENT.

I didn't know if I read that right but I couldn't stop enjoying every moment of it.

Your Disney Prince: Stop trying to turn me on.

Lilian: Well nothing is sexier than someone who wants you as much as you want them.

That's it. I'm done here.

Your Disney Prince: For someone innocent looking, you're pretty naughty this moment. So if we ever kissed, your kisses will be like drugs to me.

Lilian: If you kissed me like I'm a drug, then I am not responsible for whatever that is gonna happen next.

Your Disney Prince: I'm not afraid anymore, I'll take the risk.

When I woke up that next morning, the first thing I did was barged into Alex's room. He was already awake and he stared at me like nothing before looking out of the window. He didn't say a word when I approached next to him.

"Hey," I said, looking at the window with him.

"Go away, Simon." His tone was soft but it was also harsh. I swallowed and kept quiet. Alex still didn't move away from me so I was guessing he expected me to do something. Probably like walking away and leaving him alone. But I'm a stubborn brother.

"I'm sorry about yesterday," I began. I was nervous but I knew that what I did was wrong and I had to pay for it. "I didn't mean to let it out on you. It's just-"

"I'm sorry too." When his voice interrupted mine, I stopped, surprised, and looked at the smiling face next to me. "I miss you." That's when I tackled him to give him some of that bromance. Today, was going to a good start.

But it was only past noon when I grabbed my phone and stepped into Mum's car. We were going out for a family lunch before Nick arrives and I didn't want anything to spoil the day. Though, Lilian sent a message. I read it. I think that spoilt the day and fear has returned back to me.

Lilian: Can I see what you look like?

That's the first scary message.

Lilian: No I got a better idea! How about we meet in person?

That's the last scary message. After what we had last night, I don't think I'll be able to control myself again. I had to reject that and I had to stop talking to her.