Shangyu, Zhanxinjia!

    I guess you may have a bored expression on your face right now.

    "Why is this person still here." I can read the most emotions on your face these years, although you don't say it.

    I personally think that I should be the person who can understand you best in this world. Although it seems that my sense of existence has always been low, let me be a little proud. After all, we have been together for so long.

    Don't close the document yet!

    I promise, it will be the last time to disturb your life.

    In fact, I'm not sure whether you will see this letter in the end, but if you do, I think I should be gone.

    I put this letter together with the important documents of Shang's company, so now you also know that I am Jiang Yu. I really can't think of any other reason for you to read this letter than to sort out the relics. You have never set foot in my room, and you have never shown any interest in my life.

    Sorry, I didn't mean to accuse you, I swear I just wanted to state a fact that everyone knows.

    In fact, the one who is really sorry is me. I trapped you with glands and laws for ten years, and I often feel guilty, especially when I see you smiling less and coming home less and less over the years.

    To put it quite annoyingly, although I felt guilty and blamed myself, I never really regretted it, even if the final ending was so bad.

    Since I don't regret it, I want to help you and accompany you as much as possible, whether you care about this trivial matter or not.

    I can't help you in life.

    Then, at work, "Jiang Yu" appeared.

    His existence is also to satisfy my selfishness. I'd really like to see more of you, even if it's a video from the weekly meeting.

    about him.

    When I am alone, I often think about a problem. If I don't exist and you are free and single, what kind of person will you end up with?

    I mean, the kind of marriage, rather than being together right now—maybe it’s more of a cage for you? The kind of being together I am talking about is a natural love. Two people can make a pious promise in the church and are willing to stay together for a lifetime.

    Pause for a while, it's so difficult, just think about it, I feel so jealous when I really type it out, it's hard to breathe.

    Alas, it would be better if I didn't exist.

    OK, I'm going to continue.

    That person must be an Omega first. Before we got to where we are today, you once praised my pheromone taste, you may have forgotten it, it was really too long ago.

    So...even if you later said that I smell cheap and bad, I have never forgotten that compliment until now.

    Then I assume that Omega's pheromone is also a light red wine flavor, it doesn't have to be too strong, but it must be your favorite flavor.

    Looks, I'm actually not sure what looks you like. But I remember that the Omega you dated in the past were basically all delicate and fair, with round eyes. Let's just assume it's the type you like.

    You must like the strong Omega of the career type, not the family type. Because you take your work too seriously. I know you don't like me, and we're not really married, not protected by the federal marriage law, but you've never messed around outside. You really put all your energy into your work, and I often worry about whether your body will be overwhelmed. Unfortunately, before Jiang Yu appeared, before I could join Shang with another identity, I didn't know anything.

    It would be nice to have someone to share your worries with.

    Before Jiang Yu appeared, I was jealous of the person you would love in the future in your fantasy.

    After Jiang Yu appeared, I was jealous of...Jiang Yu.

    The sense of substitution is too strong, especially the admiring look you occasionally gave me at the regular meeting, I was so ecstatic, as if I had risen into the clouds-if I was really him, it would be great.

    Unfortunately, only in the next life.

    Okay, I'll talk about it. I know that you probably don't want to see me anymore. You have suffered too much in this life, and in your next life you will probably keep me at a respectful distance from the very beginning.

    So, not seeing it would be the best result.

    I'm really good at chattering and talking so much, if you can see this, I'm really flattered, haha.

    If there is really a next life, I think I won't bother you anymore, let me let go, and let you go.

    My only little wish is to have someone love me.

    No, as long as someone is willing to save me. I have lived in the dark for too long, and I feel afraid when I see bright and beautiful things. If someone can pull me out of the quagmire, I think I am satisfied.

    Just not in this life. I'm really tired. Just being alive makes me feel miserable.

    Let you see my negative energy.

    To be honest, I have been thinking about setting you free for the past few years.

    I know that you are serious about finding a reliable doctor who can remove the glands and mark them, and I also know that this will be the best result between us-everything will return to the beginning. You are still that proud Alpha, and I have become the ordinary Alpha from before.

    However, I can't go back.

    Now I can't even imagine what would happen to me without you.

    Every day and every night, I am thankful that you are at least my only partner in your current life. I barely fell asleep on this comfort, repeating it day after day and year after year.

    Even as long as I think that you in the future may find true love—after all, there are so many people who like you—I feel so painful that my eyes turn black and I can’t sleep.

    So, I can't.

    well.

    So, forgive me for the last choice I made. This will be the best ending between us. I let myself go, you are free again, and I can't see everything about you in the future.

    I arranged for everything that might happen next, and the AI ​​in the house would eliminate all traces of my dead body, including the bad smell. I have already handed over Jiang Yu's work. Even the living room and the bedroom where you usually live, I have cleaned up all my things.

    I hope you don't hate me so much in the end.

    If you can’t say the false words of wishing you happiness, then I sincerely wish your career success. I hope that you will not be so tired in the future. Although you are a high-level Alpha, your body will gradually be overwhelmed... that's all for now.

  I'm  sorry.     

    from Shiwen

    Federation Empire,
December 20, 405