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i walked towards nayeong's locker to put my possibly last letter and last milk for her. my steps felt so heavy. i can't believe this is probably my last letter to her, and she doesn't even know me yet.

why am i such a loser at this?

i stopped and stood in front of her locker, letting out a heavy sigh. "god damn, i'm such a dumbass."

i should've made plans with her, so she can know who i am, so she can know my feelings and maybe, i can know hers. but i didn't. i fucking didn't.

i slowly opened her locker and was about to put the paper bag inside her locker. but i stopped
as soon as i saw a purple piece of paper on top of her stacked books.

purple is nayeong's favorite colour.
i have never wrote a letter on a purple paper.
did someone beat me to it?

i know i shouldn't open it, but
i can't help it.
i'm not ready.
i don't wanna see her go with
another person yet.

eventually, curiosity got me and
i opened the folded purple paper.

then i realized,
i wasn't ready for
what's inside.