WARNINGS: 

Talk of suicide 

Hitoshi shakes from nerves as he stands in front of everyone, ready for the big moment. He tries to clear his mind, smiling slightly at the memories as he thinks back on them.

He met Izuku in sixth grade. Shinsou was new to the school (his papa got a job there) and didn't have any friends. He was terrified and didn't know what to do. Though that wasn't his fault, the person who was supposed to show him around did a shit job at it, and he didn't even know where his first class was.

Then his beacon of light came in: Midoriya Izuku. He had asked him if Hitoshi needed help and showed him around the school well, coming to the realization that they had first and fifth period together. From that point on, Shinsou was majorly whipped.

He was whipped for many years before he finally got the courage in ninth grade to say something to Izuku and reveal his own feelings towards the much smaller boy. He was beyond surprised when Izuku reciprocated his feelings. So over joyed in fact that he didn't stop smiling for two days, and it took his best friend, Mina, slapping him across the face to do so.

Over the next four years of them being together, they experienced new feelings, people, and warmth. Their love for each other never wavered, and it hasn't to this day.

"What are you doing, dumb dumb?" Izuku sleepily smiles at him, touching his face as the other smiles even wider.

"I'm looking at you, my love."

"Why would you wanna do that?" He laughs, covering his boyfriend's eyes.

Shinsou laughs as he grabs ahold of Izuku's wrists and moves them quickly from his face. "Peekaboo!"

The other boy lets out an amused huff and puts his head down. "You're such a dork."

"Yeah, I am. I thought we confirmed this yesterday after spelled 'homo' with my spaghetti yesterday?"

"Oh yeah, and you're a dumbass too." Hitoshi nods in agreement. "Aren't you supposed to say 'but I'm your dumbass'?"

He scoffs. "Absolutely not. What do you think this is? A fanfic?"

Izuku pouts. "What if it is?"

"Then we just broke the fourth wall."

He laughs as he snuggles up closer to the weirdly warm boy. "I guess we did, huh?"

Shinsou never realized how dear each and every moment he's had with Izuku would be- how much he treasures all the memories that are running through his head as he stands at the altar.

"Hitoshi, I'm scared!"

"It's just a rollercoaster, love. It won't hurt you."

The smaller glares at the bigger. "And how do you know that?! I refuse to go on that death machine!"

"Then what was the point in coming to an amusement park then? Hm?"

"For cotton candy, the merry-go-round, and the funnel cake! Not death!"

Shinsou laughs as he shakes his head, moving towards the tall ride again. "If you don't want to go on, I won't make you, but I am going to go on with or without you."

Izuku whines. "Stop making me feel guilty."

"I'm not trying to. I'm just telling you I'm going on the ride no matter what." The broccoli whines again as he grabs onto Shinsou's arm. "Here, why don't you try this one ride, and if you don't like it, we won't go on anymore rides... But I will go on the biggest one I can find, because Mina dared me to eat two funnel cakes and then go on it, and I don't back down from a dare."

He snorts at his boyfriend and his boyfriend's best friend's antics. "Okay, deal."

Let's just say that Izuku did not go on anymore rides, and Shinsou had to go home to change his clothes.

"I'm going to love you until I die."

Shinsou quirks a brow at him, facing fully towards him from his position on the couch. "I'll love you forever too." Izuku smiles up at him as his boyfriend puts his long arm around his tinier shoulders. "Yup, you're stuck with me now. When we're fresh out of college and getting a house and dressing up in scary costumes on Halloween to scare the neighborhood kids to when we're both old and wrinkly, and I'm cranky as hell. You're stuck with me through it all."

Izuku pushes himself up and kisses Shinsou on the lips, putting all his emotions into it. When they pull away from each other, Izuku smiles at him lovingly as his lip quivers.

"I love you so much, and I will until the end of me."

What Shinsou didn't see in that loving smile was the sadness behind it as well.

As Hitoshi fully comes up to the altar, he clears his throat and gets everyone's full attention. "Hello, everyone, I'm Shinsou Hitoshi. I'm Izuku's boyfriend. I never expected this day to come so soon. I always expected to be older- way older, but things don't always go to plan." He sighs out as he feels tears sting his eyes. "I adored Izuku with everything in me, but I guess I never really knew him. I never understood what he was going through or the severity of it. If I had known, I would have done so so so much more. I know he's in a better place now, at least for him. I don't know what else to say, but thank you all for coming. I don't think he ever expected this many people to actually love and care about him." Shinsou gave one more weak smile and nod before he left the podium and collapsed in his dad's arms, silent sobs wracking his body as the realization of it all fully dawned on him.

Izuku was gone.

And he couldn't do anything about it.

He was alone.

Again.

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Hey, guys. This one was a little more somber, but I've been in a more somber mood lately. Happy endings just haven't been in my life lately... so it feels harder and harder to write them lol. I hope you liked this one though!

Thank you @Nekokid69 for recommending ShinDeku! If you guys have anymore ships you want, then please comment them on the first page. I have more oneshots coming out as soon as possible as well. Bye!