Feel So Close

It's been an eventful return home, finally back home from that stupid hospital that I've honestly seen the inside of too many times for my liking. I didn't press charges, I feel bad for him. Why? No idea. Maybe I really am crazy. I can't get any sleep as yet because I haven't gotten the okay from my doctor. Ya know, might have a concussion. Tyler was with me to keep me up but had a family emergency. Speaking of, where's my sister? I text her, questioning her whereabouts. Of course, she's with Na'kel. I can't complain honestly, I told her to have fun. This time up has given me a lot of thinking time. I ended up talking to Aiden, finding out he sort of had someone back home and got caught up when I showed up, I felt used but I understood because I pretty much did the same. The main person on my mind was Owen. What turned him into such a twisted person, why did I have to cross paths with him in the first place? Why me? It troubled me so I decided to leave it alone. My doctor calls and gives me the okay to get some shut eye and I don't waste anytime. I glance at the clock, 6:01. I dress myself for slumber and snuggle up under my covers finding no problems reaching dreamland.


I'm waken up by being shaken. It's Frank, the hell? "Tyler told me to check on you, you're not supposed to sleep!" I grouchily rub my face and cut my eyes at him. "I got the okay to do so." He blankly stares at me. "Shit my bad." I just slide over, giving him more room to sit on my bed. I look over at my clock, 10:59. Four, almost five hours... it'll have to do. Doesn't seem like I'll be getting rid of him anytime to soon. "I guess I'll get going." I stare at him oddly, did I say that out loud. No, I'm sure I didn't. "Lonny stay, it's late, and I know you're exhausted; I can hear it in your voice." I suggest getting up to fetch him some blankets. I lead him the guest room and toss him his old pajamas that I had. It was awkward, but he couldn't say much. I leave him to settle and return to my room. I still haven't forgiven him. Yeah, I'm over it, but there's just some things you just don't say. "Lynn, I'm sorry." Scared half to death, I clench my shirt over my heart. "I know I've said it a million times but-" "I'm over it." He chuckles. "No, you aren't." I scoff. "And what makes you so sure?" He takes a seat next to me and scoots in close. "Because you're still thinking about it." My eyes widen. He got so close to me. He's right but he can't have that power, knowing how easily his words get to me; how easily he always got to me. I feel so vulnerable for some odd reason. He's staring right at me. I turn my head away to break the eye contact. "Frank, I'm gonna get some sleep." I croak. He grabs my wrist. "Not until you stop crying and talk to me." Shit, he knows. I just stare at the wall. No chance of me looking at him. "Lynn, say something." I don't, I just continue to stare around. He lets out a heavy sigh and let's go of my hand, letting it fall on my bed. I pull in close and turn to lay on my bed. I hear the door close and don't bother to see if he's still here. My phone vibrates and it's a call from Aiden.


"Hey Panda, how's every- are you crying?"


"No . . ."


"Yeah you are, want me to come over? I'm at Tyler's place."


"Frank's here. He's in the guest room."


"Oh, I can stay on the floor."


"Uhh Aiden-"


"It won't be awkward. I promise."


"Ok."


"See you soon."


About thirty minutes later, Aiden pulls up and I let him in. We're up in my room when Ashlyn returns home with Nak and it's obvious what they're gonna do. To avoid the sounds of my sister having intercourse, Aiden and I reside in the basement. I lay on one couch and he rests in a recliner, watching Regular Show. Soon, Family Guy is on and we've both seen this episode an decide to talk. We chat and joke about little things till about 12 AM. We go to my room and settle in there, making a fort on my bed like school children instead of "adults". Ashlyn walks Na'kel out before coming to my room and joining us in a Skins UK marathon via Netflix. During our British drama, I find time to formally introduce them. After that it returns to intense watching accompanied by gasps, laughs, and tears. We finish watching it around 6 in morning when we all fall asleep on my bed. Aiden in the middle, arms around each of us. He probably felt like a king, I slightly chuckled at the mere thought of it before closing my eyes and falling into a comfortable slumber.


* * * * *


I open my eyes to blinding midday sunshine. 2:30. Aiden jumps awake and it wakes Ashlyn too. We glance at one another before Ashlyn and I laugh at Aiden's "morning wood". He gets up and walks to the bathroom to pee. "If you didn't know any better, you'd think the craziest things went down last night." Ashlyn observes on a count of us being in bras and shorts, and Aiden being in just his boxers. It was a hot night, temperature wise, that's my sister .. gross. Aiden runs back in a gets in between us, arms around us once again. "Twins." He says with a smirk. "Might not have done anything, but it's still a great moment." We all laugh again before going downstairs for breakfast. Ashlyn invites Frank down for something to eat, he comes down shirtless as well. We sit at the table and eat in peace.


My mom comes in a laughs at our condition. "Morning kids, how is every-" She stops when her eyes reach mine. She draws closer examining my state. Fuck, I forgot about all the scars. Her eyes grow watery. "What happened?" I blink blankly. "Skate accident." Her tears stop and her expression hardens.


"So a skate accident gave you a cut on your back?"


"Yup."


"And your head?"


"Yup."


"And hand-shaped bruises around your neck and wrists?"


Fuck.


"It was Owen, wasn't it?"


"N-n-"


"Pandora Lynn Night, don't you lie to me. Was it Owen?"


"Y-yes."


"I'll have the firm fax me the papers to file for a case."


"*mumbles* I'm not pressing charges."


"What was that?"


"I'm not pressing charges."


My mom shakes her head and smirks.


"All that kindness is gonna fuck you up."


With that she leaves. All of us are in shock. My mom never curses, the most she's ever said was damn or hell. We finish our food in somewhat peace before deciding to head the beach. Frank calls the wolves and we all get dressed, Frank and Aiden leave to go buy swimming trunks. I call Azealia, Michelle, and Ellie to join also, ready for them to meet the wolves anyways. I bathe and pull my hair into a moist, dark brown bun. I dress myself in a blue and black, tribal print swim top with black boy short bottoms. Ashlyn slips in to a timeless white one piece that gives you a vintage, Marilyn Monroe feel. She looks gorgeous. We put on acid wash shorts and concert tees over it. We found it amusing to dress alike, since we were in fact twins and didn't have the chance to during our childhood. We wait for Frank and Aiden before packing food, towels, etc and jumping in the jeep and driving off to the beach.


When we arrive, we pick out a great spot, not too crowded anyways, it's Wednesday. Tyler, the wolves, their girls, and my girls show up about ten minutes after we finish setting up. They all drop their shoes and run to the water. Na'kel stops to pick up Ashyln, hoist her on his back ,and take off to the crystal clear waves. I smile at her red face as he runs off with her. So glad he makes her happy. I stay back on the beach and get out of my shorts and top. After pulling out my sunglasses and a book, I lay out on a blanket, letting the warm sun rays dance on my skin. "You usually swim, what's the problem?" I glance up from my mystery novel to see a Frank standing over me, completely dry. Could've sworn he went in. "Nothing's wrong." He nods in disbelief. "Mind if I sit with you then?" I shrug and pat the space beside me. He lays on the blanket propping himself on his elbows. I put down my book and mock his pose. "So Aiden's back." I nod. "Guess he is." He copies my nod, squinting at the sun before grabbing his shades. "You and him a thing." I freeze slightly. "No." He gives off a small 'mmm'. "Do you want to be a thing with him?" I glance over at him then look at Aiden. "He has someone." He laughs. "I didn't ask that, I asked if you wanted to." I smirk. "Nope." Frank smiles to himself after that answer graces his ears. "So what do you want?" I take a moment to think. "To be happy instead of being constantly paranoid. To smile for a while and not have something interrupt it." "Then take my hand." I glance up and Frank is standing over me with a hand out towards me. I take it and he helps me off of the sand. "What now?" Frank doesn't answer me, he does however grab me and carry my wedding-style towards the deep blue sea. We join everyone and splash around until sunset.


Prune and tired, we all climb into our cars and head off to Fatburger where we grab a quick meal and head to my house for a impromptu sleepover at my house.

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