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Caregiver : P1HARMONY
Little : Keeho

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Keeho really loves snow since he was a teenager, but no one ever know the reason why he loves it. There's a specific name for someone who loves something like him.

For example, nyctophile brings the meaning of loving the darkness and night.

Coulrophobe ; fear of clown.

But for Keeho, it's bring the other meaning for him.

Chionophile ; someone who loves cold weather and snow.

This is the perfect interpretation for him, born as half Canadian and half Korean, Keeho surely have the advantage of his own.

Keeho come to Korea few years ago to start his own dream, becoming the center of attention like he always want to be.

But little did he know, it's not gonna be an easy journey for him. No one really know the real story of Keeho except for himself.

But one day, the tightly folded story was told to others without he realize. And that was happen on the very first snow fall.

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Keeho stare at the snowflake that fall on his hand, and melt away with the warmth of his body. It's beautiful, white and pure.

An ethereal definition of life.

"First snow huh?  How I wish things will be just like before. If only I can turn back time, I'll do it again."

Keeho is falling deep by the beauty of snowflake, bit by bit the snowflakes create a field of white snow. White and pure but hide a darkest secret for Keeho.

Keeho can't stop himself for crying, he really want to have the last chance to say it again. Just once.

A sudden phone call make him startle, forgetting the unexpected ending for him.

"Eung.. Wae Seobbie?"

"Where are you Hyung? It's freaking first snow fall and you promised you'll be here for dinner!"

"Oh shoot!  I forgot about the dinner.. Wait for me, I'll just go grab something for you guys.."

Keeho runs to his car as fast as he can, and he drive through the cold night with a smile on his face. But does it the real one? Well, let's the story unfold it for you later. 

Half an hour later, he arrives at the youngest's house. Jungseob open the door once he heard the ring bell. 

"Hyungie!!"

Keeho ruffles the youngest's hair, "How are you huh?"

"Me? Since you were on o hiatus after that day? I'm doing great, but I don't know about them. Please Hyung, will you come to us again?"

Keeho let out a small smile, he didn't know how to react to be honest. 

"Let's go! It's getting cold outside!"

Jungseob sigh, Keeho will always avoid to talk about the day he decided to go for hiatus. It's already 6 months! Freaking 6 months!

The dinner turns out to be awkward for them, they just out of topic to have a small talk. Don't mention about joking around. 

Soul stare at Keeho, he's still the same.  Not changing even a bit, he still have the dread in his eyes. The silent pain and cries that he hold for a long time. 

Theo hold Keeho's hand, "Comeback to us when you're ready again. We won't force you, and your secret will stay with me and Soul."

Keeho just nod his head and he walks out from the house, didn't ready yet to cried once again in front of Theo and Soul. Both of them already did lots of thing to him. 

Keeho drive to the nearest lake, and he get out from his car. The white field in front of his eyes never can lie to him.

Keeho walks to the frozen lake, and he sits there. Alone, while watching the snow fall. 

If I said he want to die? Will you believe me?

He lay down on the frozen lake, and he cries. It is hard for him to lied to himself any longer. He's not okay! Not even a bit!

"ARGHHHHHHH!! WHY?! WHY?!! WHY?! WHY YOU NEED TO TAKE HER FROM ME THAT NIGHT?! WHY YOU WANT ME TO SUFFER ALONE HERE?! I JUST WANNA DIE!!"

The pain in his voice echoed through the lake, each words come from his mouth was slipped with pain and regret.

Keeho can't stop himself from crying, if only that night he listen to her and just go home, he won't lose her to the white snow. 

"I'm sorry.. I'm sorry.. Please.."

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Flashback

"Hye! What do you wanna do after this? Are you free?"

The shy girl just nod, she really loves the view in front of her right now. Keeho and white snow field just become her favourite view. 

Keeho jokes around with the love of his life, and he hold her hand. 

"I miss you love. Do you miss me?"

The beautiful girl chuckles and she ruffles Keeho's hair, "I will always miss you my little bouncy ball. But are you sure that it was okay for you to sneak out and met me?"

"Yes, I'm sure. Don't worry! My members will cover it for me, well I just wanna enjoy the night with you. Come on!"

Keeho and the girl ran across the white snow field while laughing, yes.

Keeho fall in love in secret and he don't want the company to know about this secret. That girl become the reason why he really loves snow.

They were having fun that night before a sasaeng discover him with the girl. 

"Eoh? Yoon Keeho right? Leader of P1Harmony?!"

Keeho shakes his head vigourously, denying the fact with all his might. But the sasaeng just way more crazy than he thought. 

She started chasing him and Keeho grab his girl's hand. 

"Hold on tight! Run as fast as you can! Come on!"

Both of them started to ran, they went through the crowd, making a few twist and turn but fate just said something different. 

Right when both of them ran  on the street, a car appeared out of nowhere resulting an accident happened. Keeho was thrown to the pedesterian walk and his lover was flew over the car. 

The white snow covered with blood, he stand up and ran to her. 

"Please! Don't go yet! I need you to stay here with me!" Keeho was crying badly, he can't process the accident. It happen way too fast. 

The girl smiled to Keeho, she wiped his tears.

"Are you okay? Keep your dream high.. I love you sunshine.."

"Please! No!! You need to stay awake! Come on!!"

The beautiful girl coughed blood, she passed away before the ambulance arrived. 

And Keeho still remembers how warm the her blood on his hand. 

He just want to say this to her at that night. 

"Will you be my wife and live with me forever?"

End of flashback

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Meanwhile the members can't staying still after Keeho left earlier. Something didn't feel right and the heavy snow make it hurt more than ever. 

"That's it! I'll go out and look for him! It almost two hour and we heard nothing from him!"

Intak and Jiung drive to the busy city life, only to look for Keeho. After 5 minutes, the found a hidden lake. 

"Keeho Hyung!! Hyung!!!!" 

Intak is running through the heavy snow fall, he can't get hold of Keeho after he said he will call the members when he reach home.

It has been almost two hours, but Keeho didn't call any of them. 

Jiung eyes stuck at one place, he recognize that car!

"He's here! Palli Intak ahh!"

They run as fast as they can to the lake, and Keeho almost freeze to death. His face  covered with snow flake, and he's shivering. 

"Yaa! Are you crazy?! Jebal Hyung!!"

Intak carry him on his back, and they go to the nearest hospital right away. Luckily he wear a thick padded coat, and after several hours in hospital they go home. 

Keeho stare at the window, he don't wanna talk with any of them. 

Soul opens the door and he calls for Keeho. Keeho turn his head, and he tremble.

He is afraid, he don't want to be here. He don't want to live any longer. He don't want to live his dream again. 

Theo hug him and pat his back, "Please Keeho Hyung.. Don't do this again.. You promised her.."

Keeho falls to the floor and cry loudly, it's hurt to stay. 

"I don't want to be here!"

Theo hug the oldest tighter, "It's okay to feel hurt. It's okay to be not okay, but I want you to talk with us. You almost died last night, and now you catch a cold."

Keeho can't lift his head, and he only mumbles inaudible words. 

"He's here Soul ahh.. Stephen is here.." 

Theo lift the baby's head, and kiss him. "We meet again little one.."

"Theo!!"

The little hug Theo tightly and cry. 

"You're okay with us little one. We miss you baby.."

Jungseob pats the baby's head, "I miss you little one.."

Stephen take a look at each one of them and he giggles. 

Jiung pick the baby and kiss him, "See! You've a red nose, and now who needs to take a bath?"

"Phen need it!"

"Aigoo.. Let's go baby!!"

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Currently, Stephen is having fun with the members and he can't stop giggling. 

Jungseob is busy spoonfeeding him while Intak is distracting his attention from the snow. Stephen really hates snow and he kinda have trauma for it.

This is why Keeho fall into a littlespace, he can't hold the pain of breaking up on his own. Breaking up with someone by died in front of him.

I can't handle that. To make it worse, it was all over the news on the next morning.

Jiung and Soul literally at the back watching three of them playing together. They can't believe that Stephen will come out after a long time.

"Stephen ahh! Come here! Jiungie buy you something tho! You wanna it?"

Stephen turn his head around, and he see a big size plushie beside Jiung. 

"Wanna!!!!!! Phen!!"

Stephen crawls to Jiung while giggles, and he just throw himself on top of the plushie!

"Thish is smeww nice! Wike Ungie!"

Jiung laugh, and he ruffles the baby's hair. "Aniya, you smell much better than me bub. See, you're beautiful and didn't look like a mess."

Jungseob cleans the baby's eating cutleries and join them right away.

"Nuh! Nuh tiwckwe "m!", Stephen is trying his best to break free from all of them. But it's not gonna be easy since they just love to sit on top of Stephen.

"Ughh!! Wet "m go! Theo ughhh!!"

"Yaaa! Let him go..", once four of them let go of Stephen, the little crawl to his favourite caregiver. 

"Theo! Dey awe baddie! Meanie!!"

The little's head stuck on the carpet, "No.. They're not meanie baby. They just want you to be happy with your family.. Us, until forever.."

Stephen's lift his head, and he looks into the eyes of Theo. Those eyes promised him better life, and won't ever let him go. 

It's the same with the other's eyes, he knows the members won't leave him just because of this. Stephen giggles and notice the small mistake.  " "m not awone!"

"Phen wove chu alls!!" 

Their first morning after snowfall starts way earlier than before. And they just gonna enjoyed it as how it always happen to them. 

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FOR THE NEXT CHAPTERS AHEAD, I WILL BE FOCUSING ON TBZ! IT MIGHT BE STRAIGHT UPDATE OF TBZ's LITTLES! 

Please wait for me! I'm trying my best!!

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