A/N: I remember when I first started to write this a few years ago when I was fifteen this was supposed to be one of those shitty funny reverse harem fanfictions. You know, the kind that make you cringe because everyone is out of character and the reader is a mary sue. When I picked this back up, I realized that I needed to create an actual plot and character development to allow certain interactions and emotions to happen without anyone being out of character. I'm happy with the outcome, but the outline of this fanfiction has become very dark. Especially since it follows the games. So this is a warning. From here on out, there will be more character "deaths" and intensity. I kinda hate to do it, but you know what's going to happen. All I have to say is...good luck Sora and Riku. (I'm a huge Riku fangirl btw.)

And as always, comments help me to keep writing. I appreciate the hearts/likes/favorites and the amazing amount of reads I've been getting, but I value comments the most. They let me peer into the minds of my readers and allow me to see what little details I can adjust here and there to keep you reading.

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Xion laid in her bed motionless. Next to her pillow was a seashell, you wondered who could have put it there. You hadn't spent a whole lot of time with her, but she felt like a little sister to you. Sometimes you could vent to Xion without mentioning any names and she would take it in as if it were a story. She was very optimistic, but lately she has been a little distant.

You extended your hand towards her to touch her hair. You gave her a half hearted smile as you pulled your hand away.

"Wake up soon." You said. You began to stare at the seashell on her bed. It must have been Roxas.

"What a shame." You looked up to see Saix. He stood next to you at the edge of Xion's bed. "Useless puppet."

"Excuse me?" You said. You looked him in the eyes. "Xion isn't a puppet!" You sternly said.

"[Y/N], you're fourth in charge. There are things you must know by now." Saix said. He motioned for you to follow him out of Xion's room. The two of you walked towards the kitchen then sat down at the empty table.

"Is Xion...really a puppet?" You questioned. Saix nodded.

"She was created by Vexen in Castle Oblivion. She is here to duplicate Roxas' powers. But she keeps failing missions. She's become useless to us." Saix explained.

"What are we going to do with her? She's...important to some of us." You thought about Roxas and Axel and how much closer they were to Xion.

"If needed, she will be eliminated. We still have Roxas, of course. And now you."

"Is this all about the keyblade?" You raised an eyebrow.

"Precisely, it is what shall make us whole again." Saix seemed to be looking off into the distance.

"You want to be whole again? Will it help you find that girl?" You asked. You wondered what she looked like. What did she mean to Saix and Axel?

"I believe becoming whole will help with many things." Saix took a hold of your hand in his. "Sometimes, I forget how to love and I blame it on the absence of my heart."

"I don't know what I think about being whole again, but I know it means a lot to you and Axel. I'll help you two no matter what. I can't lose you too." You got up from the table. "Xigbar told Xemnas about Zexion. I think it's time that for the truth to come out."

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"So you hid Zexion at your old house, your heartless killed him, then you took back your keyblade?" Demyx summarized what you had just confessed. The two of you were in his room. You were sitting on his bed while he was sitting in his special music chair. It helped his with his posture as he played.

"Do you have to say the word kill?" You said. "I mean that is the story. He was my friend and he sacrificed himself for me. Now I have his number, so I need to do my best to honor him. Maybe I could bring him back if we collect enough hearts."

"How did your heartless even get a keyblade?" Demyx asked.

"I think my heart wasn't strong enough as a Somebody to wield it. I never would have thought that I could have either. I only ever met one keyblade wielder a long time ago. I think he's the reason why." You explained. Demyx scratched his head for a moment.

"So since your heartless is, well evil, does that mean your keyblade thought you were finally ready after your heart fell to darkness?" Demyx then swatted the air. "Probably not, I'm just spewing out dumb things."

"That...actually makes a lot of sense, Demyx." Demyx grew a huge smile on his face.

"See? I can be smart when I want to be!" You rolled your eyes and got up. You tasseled his hair before leaving his room.

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"Roxas, can I take you somewhere? It's not far." You extended a hand to him as he was sitting on a couch. He took it and pulled himself up.

"Like another date?" He asked. His face perked up.

"Sorta." You created a dark corridor and motioned for him to follow you in. The two of you stood in front of Memory's Skyscraper. "Have you ever been outside of the castle?" You asked.

"No, I haven't really explored our world before." Roxas was slowly spinning in a circle as he looked around the city. "I can't believe that all of this is right here."

"I guess it's a little cool." You said. Roxas continued to looked around in awe. "Come on, it's over here." You took his hand and guided him away from the skyscraper.

"What's over there?" Roxas questioned.

"It's a special place." You stood in front of the restaurant then opened the door. Inside was empty as you expected. You sat down at a table and told Roxas to sit down. "Zexion took me here once. It's a little wonder here on this world." You then summoned a few of your Nobodies to go into the kitchen.

"Whoa! What are they doing?" Roxas asked. You smiled at his reaction.

"They're going to make us food. I know we don't really have to eat, but sometimes it's fun to." Roxas looked amazed as a few of your Nobodies came out with glasses of water. "My heartless killed Zexion." You ran your fingers in circles around the rim of the glass. "I hid him at my old shop for a while. He saved my life."

"Xigbar told me he was a traitor." Roxas said.

"I don't know about that anymore. But he was my friend when I was a Somebody. And now you're my friend as a Nobody." You smiled and Roxas smiled back. Your Nobodies then come out of the kitchen with plates.

"Sea salt ice cream?" Roxas said. He took the ice cream off of the plate and began to eat it. You didn't think that your Nobodies would come out with desert and not actual food.

"I guess it'll do." You said as you grabbed the ice cream and began to eat.

"Do you think Xion will wake up soon?" Roxas asked as he finished his ice cream.

"I hope so..."

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You sat by the entrance of the castle looking out towards the city. You wondered how it got here and where this world came from. You held an old note from Zexion and crumpled it in your hand. Walking to the ledge, you extended your arm out and opened your hand with your palm facing up. The crumpled note sat upon your hand for a moment until you blew it away. You lowered your arm as you watched it fall into the abyss of whatever was under the castle.

"Time to study!" You jumped up and almost fell off of the edge. Xigbar used his teleportation to quickly move behind you to prevent you from falling. "Whatcha doing here?" He asked.

You looked behind your shoulder towards the ledge then back to his face. "Letting go."

"Huh? Anyways, now that you're fourth in charge you need to know a few things. Man, are there stacks and stacks of reports and research for you to read." Xigbar scratched his head then created a dark corridor. "Follow me." He walked in and disappeared. You followed a few seconds after. You ended up in a library that was well lit and had a few windows. It was nothing like Zexion's library.

"I've never been in here." You said. You looked at a table with a few chairs that had a few stacks of paper and journals on it.

"I've set up what you need to read over there." He pulled back a chair for you. You sat down and he pushed it closer to the table. "There's still some restricted stuff, so unless you want to be turned into a dusk I'd keep with what's on the table." Xigbar created a dark corridor.

"Wait, where are you going?" You questioned.

"I'll be back later. You should be done by then." He smirked then walked into the portal.

"But this could take all day!" You complained. You extended your arms for emphasis at the piles of paper.

"Better hop to it." You heard his voice say as the portal closed.

You looked at the materials in front of you. There are reports on heartless, nobodies, vessels, and the heart. A lot of them were studies over time. You looked to the few journals you also had to read. They were about Kingdom Hearts, the Keyblade Wars, and time travel.

This would take a while...

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You were sleeping with your head on the table. Papers were scattered everywhere as you snoozed away. A dark corridor formed in the room and Xigbar walked out of it. He looked at your sleeping figure and shook his head. He walked over to you and shook you awake.

"Did you sleep this whole time?" He asked. You rubbed your eyes before answering him.

"No, I read everything. I just got bored of waiting." You explained.

"You could have just left when you were done." He said.

"But there isn't a door." You said as you looked around. There were windows in the room but that was it.

Xigbar shook his head and created a dark corridor. "What about these?" He extended his arms to the portal. You sighed.

"I guess I forgot..." You admitted. Xigbar tasseled your hair. You pushed away his hand. He pretended to act hurt before walking into the portal. You created your own that would lead somewhere else. You walked through.

"Saix? You asked. His room seemed to be empty. You then noticed the heart shaped moon outside. You walked up to the huge windows in his room and put your hands against the glass.

"It's beautiful, isn't it?" You turned around to see Saix walking up to you.

"What is it?" You asked.

"Didn't you just finished your reading?" Saix asked. "It's Kingdom Hearts." You looked back to the moon.

"That will make us whole again." You said.

"It's still far from complete. You and Roxas have more work to do. Are you ready to go back into the field?" Saix asked. You felt his breath against your hair.

"It's been a while, but I've never really had to fight heartless before. Except for the missions I've had with Roxas or Xion." You felt Saix's nose touch the top of your head. Was he smelling you? You felt him back away from you.

"You'll be fine, Number VI." You turned to see him giving you a small smile. It went away when your eyes met his.

"What's wrong?" You asked. His eyes suddenly looked sad. You knew he had something on his mind. Lately it had been crazy to adjust to so many new things. You wondered why the keyblade was so powerful in everyone's eyes. You didn't feel any different.

"It's nothing." He said as he turned away from you. You felt as if you've seen this side of Saix before.

"Isa." You said. He stopped walking and turned back towards you. "Something is making you feel jealous. You would always act like this when people called me Lea's little girlfriend."

"I did no such thing." Saix said.

"Of course you would. You'd run away and when I would ask what was wrong you'd say nothing. I didn't know back then, but now I'm not as dense as before." You explained. "So what is it?"

"Was it everything you ever wanted?" Saix sternly said. You raised an eyebrow.

"What are you talking about?" You were slightly afraid at his sudden change of character.

"You've finally kissed Lea." Saix scoffed. You forgot about that date.

"It didn't mean anything." You said. You thought back to the kisses of your life. As a Somebody you only ever kissed Isa and Lea's cheek. As a Nobody you shared your first kiss with Zexion. Kissing Axel didn't feel right. He wasn't exactly the same.

"He thinks it did!" Saix shouted. You shook your head for a second. A sudden wave of adrenaline rushed through you. You thought back to when Saix found out that you remembered. He frightened you at that time as well. This time would be different. Maybe it was the cockiness of being fourth in charge, but you weren't going to take it this time.

"He's changed." You said. "It didn't mean anything to me. He's not Lea anymore, he's Axel." You summoned your keyblade and pointed it at Saix. "You're not Isa anymore. You're Saix. You've changed. The Isa I knew would never get angry at anything. You would think before you did anything. If you have a problem then we can talk about it like civilized Nobodies." You inched closer with every word until the end of your keyblade was almost touching Saix. You summoned it back as Saix looked to you with sorrow on his face.

"You've changed, [Y/N]."

"I waited for you two. Everyday. I never knew when you would next visit me. But you never did. We can't be kids anymore. Beings friends now is going to be different than it was in the past. And maybe I have changed. All of a sudden this keyblade was thrown at me and now I'm not a zero. I have a purpose that means life or death to my friends." You walked towards Saix and held onto him. He wrapped his arms around you.

"Can I trust you with my life?" He asked. He looked down into your eyes as you felt as if someone tugged a string inside of your heart. His face was so close to yours. You could see dark specks of brown in his yellow-orange eyes.

"We're already dead." You smiled and he closed the space between your lips.