It's been a few hours since Dylan kissed me and I haven't seen him anywhere. I told him I wouldn't tell anyone but he needs to. I'm anxious to see him. Although we have a couple classes together I didn't see him. Where the hell is he. I go to my locker and take everything I need out and out the things I don't need in. I turn over and catch a glimpse of a couple making out. I shut my locket and turn again. It's Dylan and his "girlfriend " wow and I thought he'd come out for me. I just sit there and think but I didn't realize I was crying or staring straight at them. I come back to my senses and Dylan looks at me. I turn and walk away leaving school even though there's two more classes I need to go to.

I approach my house and run up to my room, but my mom is home, sh*t I don't wanna talk to her.

"Jackson, are you okay?" she says concern filled her voice.

"I'm fine mom,I don't wanna talk about it" my voice filled with sadness she knew I wasn't fine.

"okay well Dylan's here he wants to talk to you and we're going to talk about this later"

"mom tell Dylan to go away I don't wanna see him"

"Jackson please talk to me" Dylan yells.

"fine" I yell back. I wipe the tears and sit up on my bed.

"Jackson look at me " my eyes are trained on the floor and I'm not planning on looking at this douche.

"No Dylan you kissed me and said heartwarming things then you go and make out with your beard so f*ck you"

"Jackson that meant nothing I just can't come out yet"

"leave me the hell alone until you're ready to f*cking come out okay?" I yell getting angrier "I'm done with you you're a f*cking douche bag leave"

He walks out the door but I really don't want him too want him to come out and be with me. I softly cry all night dreading this weekend because I sure as hell known in gonna cry the whole weekend. Well unless Dylan Comes To his senses. Time to binge watch Netflix and cry until it hurts.

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Please don't hate me :(

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Love youuuuuu