𝗚𝗹𝗶𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗿
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"𝗘𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆𝗼𝗻𝗲 𝗲𝗹𝘀𝗲 𝗵𝗮𝘀 𝗹𝗲𝗳𝘁 𝗻𝗼𝘄"
"𝗜 𝗯𝗲𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀 𝗴𝗼𝘁 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗲𝘀𝘀𝗲𝗱 𝗼𝘂𝘁"
"𝗪𝗼𝗻𝗱𝗲𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴, 𝘄𝗵𝗮𝘁 𝗰𝗮𝗻 𝘄𝗲 𝗱𝗼 𝗻𝗼𝘄?"
"𝗠𝗮𝘆𝗯𝗲 𝗹𝗲𝘁 𝗶𝘁 𝗯𝘂𝗿𝗻 𝗼𝘂𝘁"
"𝗪𝗵𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝗰𝗮𝗻 𝗜 𝗰𝗮𝗻'𝘁 𝗳𝗲𝗲𝗹 𝗺𝘆 𝗳𝗮𝗰𝗲"
"𝗠𝗺, 𝗺𝗶𝗻𝗱𝘀 𝘁𝘄𝗶𝘀𝘁𝗲𝗱 𝘄𝗲𝗶𝗿𝗱 𝘄𝗮𝘆𝘀"

Last night was a roller coaster. I spent the night at john b's house because that's where jjs been staying these past couple of days. He made me feel safe and it felt amazing. We talked about his dad, Jake and what happened right before I ghosted Pogues.

It was nice.

I woke up to jj on his phone and playing with my hair.

"Thank you." I hug him before we j look into each others eyes for a bit.

"For?"

"Being there for me again. I need you and I shouldn't have let any of you guys go." I say as I start to get closer to his face.

"This can't happen." JJ says as our faces get closer.

"I know. But it already has so you can just accept it now." I smile as our lips meet, his hands go to my face and my fingers get wrapped up in his hair. I get on top of him.

"Okay," he laughs. "You can't tease me like that." He laughs.

"Fine." I get off of him and he groans. I roll over to check my phone and there's some texts from Rafe, Sarah, Wheezie, and Jake. I just text Sarah that I'm okay.

"I was being sarcastic I like when your on top of me."

"I'm just better top I guess."

"No, you're definitely my pillow princess, princess." He smirks setting my phone down for me and getting on top of me giving me a little kiss. I just lay there and giggle.

If this thing with JJ counts as cheating. I don't care at least I'm happier now then with jake. I don't know how to leave him I've tried. I mean Jake cheats on me all the time.

Things would've probably escalated between us but john b walks in and JJ throws a pair of shocks at him.

" yeah, I think that's my que to go." I say and JJ looks down at me with a smile. "See you later?"

"Maybe." I smile back and then give him another kiss.

♡︎♡︎♡︎

Me, Sarah, Topper and Jake are taking a ride on Topper's new Malibu 24-MXZ. I'm sitting on the back of the boat with Jake and his arm is gripped low around my waist. He's probably so mad at me but at least he can't do anything with people around.

Another boat comes past and I bring up my sunglasses squinting at them, I'm so judgmental. Sarah and Topper just stand at the front of the boat probably looking at them too. I make eye contact with JJ for a minute then put my sunglasses back on.

"You don't have to act like you don't see us, bitch." Kiara calls out.

I look her way but I don't need to waste my time doing or saying anything today.

♡︎♡︎♡︎

"You should've heard the way John B talked to me. That kids got a mouth on him!" Sarah says to Topper and I as were doing beach clean up.

"Well, he showed his true color, Sarah." Topper says.

"He was so rude!" I didn't really want to bring up the part about me running for my life with him and especially not with Topper. I'll just tell Sarah later, or never.

I don't know yet.

"We know! That's what we've been trying to tell you. Pogues aren't to be trusted." I state.

"I mean, he's lucky your dad didn't press charges." Jake says.

"I know! After stealing scuba from us? It's just... kind of ridiculous to me. After everything dad has done for him. Just so generous. You think he'd be more grateful. Then he yells at me like it's my fault!" Sarah says.

Topper stops and puts his hands on Sarah's shoulders and looks at her. "He's a Pogue, at the end of the day. I mean, you can say we're all just people but at the end of the day we're higher than them. Don't let it bother you that much or bring you down." He states.

Kelce runs up to us. "Yo. You look thirsty!" He says holding a water bottle with what looks like pee in it.

"Ew. Gross. What the fuck is that? Pee?" I laugh a little.

"Okay, what do we— what do we got here?" Jake says as Kelce hand him the bottle.

"Have some of that, baby." Kelce says and Jake smells it, definitely immediately regretting it.

"Oh, my god!" We all laugh at how Jake handled that. Then he drinks some before giving me a nasty look for laughing.

Ew.

"That's how we do it, baby!"

"Oh, man. Come on, babe. Drink some." Jake says.

"What did you do to this?" I laugh and brings it up to my face. I smell it and immediately back away.

"Holy shit. That's not edible." I laugh and then I take a sip then hand it to Sarah to try some.

"Mm-mm. Mm-mm." Sarah and I mumbled trying to speak with the drink still in our mouth as Wheezie takes it from her. She takes a big sip before I take it from her.

"Since when did you start drinking?" I ask swallowing the drink that was in my mouth.

"Since today!" She replies wiping her mouth.

"Great going, Kelce." Sarah says and I hand the drink to Topper.

"You guys got it under control?" A man asks us a little bit away while walking.

"Yes, sir! It's looking good, sir!" Topper says back.

"Just clearing the stretch out!" Kelce says.

"Just taking a little break!" I say.

"Just hydrating! Almost finished!" Sarah says as Kelce puts the closed drink into the cooler bag.

"Great job. Keep it up." The man says.

♡︎♡︎♡︎

I get back to the house with Sarah after finishing the bottle of whatever that was. We were a little drunk. Just a little

Wheezie starts throwing up in the toilet in the bathroom luckily not mine.

"I got this." Sarah says holding Wheeies hair back. You don't have to tell me twice.

"I don't feel like you care." I hear dad say to I think Rafe outside as I walk down stairs.

"I said I do!"

"You said."

"What do you want me to say?"

"I don't want you to say anything! Take care of business. Where are the generators?" Dad yells as I stop to listen to the conversation Sarah walks up behind me.

"What are they talking about?" She mouths to me and I shrug.

"I gave you money for the generators. You said you would take care of it? Where are they?" Dad still asks.

"They're on back order." Rafe covers up. He didn't buy the generators.

"Yeah, of course they are." Dad says.

"There was a hurricane."

"I tell you what. You know that pogue I just fired? Way more reliable than you."

"Really?"

"Yeah, really! You need to get it together, Rafe, or you can go live on the cut." Dad states and Rafe laughs.

"That funny to you?" Dad's mad now.

"Wow." Rafe processes.

"You can go live on the damn cut, Rafe... as far as I'm concerned. Now get out of here. I'm sick of lookin' at you."

Rafe gets up fast and mad. "Make yourself useful somewhere, somehow."

"Syd and Sarah aren't working." Rafe says bringing us in and Sarah and I look at each other.

"This isn't about Sydney or Sarah, Rafe. You're almost 20. You don't just get to sit back and have everything handed to you."

"It does not seem you understand me." Dad states.

"Yes, sir." I can just tell Rafe rolled his eyes saying that.

"I'll take care of those generators, okay?" Rafe says.

"I'll believe it when I see it."

Rafe walks into the through the door we were hiding behind and he looks at us.

"Told you. Shouldn't have bought that motorcycle with the generator money. "I tell him

"Hm." He walks away and Sarah and I turn to each other.

"Hm."

♡︎♡︎♡︎

"Yo, Rafe. Where's Sarah?" I ask walking around people in our backyard to the room where people are doing drugs. This place is hella crowded but I guess that's what we get for having a pool party here.

"Yeah... I don't know." Rafe say and I nod turning around walking back outside then I see Topper, Sarah and Jake on the roof.

I laugh and run to my room on the 3rd floor climbing out one of the windows to get to them. Once I get out I feel jake's arms around my waist picking me up and spinning me around. I giggle a little not expecting it. Not roughly tho this is a nice moment for us. These are the memories I hold on too.

Topper then picks up Sarah then Jake picks me up. Both Sarah and I squeal. Jake and Topper share a smirky look and start to go to the edge of the roof where pool is under it.

A bunch of people are shouting and cheering for us to all jump. Sarah kept telling Topper to put her down but he kept moving closer and closer to the edge.

"Don't you dare drop me." I laugh one hand holding onto the back of jake's neck, the other gripping his hair. He just laughs. He's used to me gripping his hair anyways.

With one last look between the two guys they jump with us in their arms still. Sarah and I let out a scream before we hit the water.

"Woah!" Everyone yells around us.

"You guys ar— you guys are crazy." I laugh, hugging Jake around the neck.

We get out of the pool and dry off for a little then Jake leads me up to my room. He locks the door behind us and then closes the windows.

"I kind just wanna enjoy the party down stairs. Can we fuck later?" I ask with a little laugh and he walks up to me and slaps me, his ring cuts my lip. I know where this is going.

"No! I've tired to be nice to you all day but you've been nothing but a little bitch and a brat. Now I'm doing what I want." I just nodded not wanting to start an argument and get hit again I was already tearing up.

"Stop fucking crying you little bitch. I'm the best thing that's ever happened to you. No one would ever want someone like you so I had to be the only one."

I just want to be loved right.

~ 𝗪𝗼𝗿𝗱𝘀 𝟭𝟮𝟵𝟳 ~