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S H I N  R Y U J I N

" what happened to your hair hyunjin?! "

with furrowed eyebrows, yeji made her way towards her twin. she sat at the chair i used to sit at as she examine her brother, who isn't even looking at her. she touched his brownish blonde hair, her eyes sparkling with annoyance and interest. and then she let go of his hair and pouted her lips.

" we don't look alike that much now " she rested her elbow on the table, using her palm to catch her cheek. " you should have told me that you'll dye your hair so that i can dye mine too "

hyunjin swallowed the ramen he's eating before speaking. i cooked that, i wonder if he like it or not. aish! ryujin focus! " that's why i didn't tell you, i don't want to look like you anymore it's starting to get annoying "

minho, felix and woojin started laughing while jisu stopped herself from laughing. yeji gasped at what hyunjin said and playfully pulled on his hair, making him groan.

" you motherfuc- "

" hey! i need to go home! my mom's freaking out right now " jeongin came in the dining room, his hair a bit messy.

chan stood up from his chair, taking a quick sip from his glass of water. " i'll drive you " jeongin smiled and thanked him then he started to bid goodbye to us.

" jeongin! " i called him and when he looked at me i pout my lips and opened my arms wide for a hug. we're the same age and among the whole group i'm closest to him.

he chuckled and speed walked towards me then he gave me a quick but warm embrace. " get home safely " i whispered and he nodded. he bid goodbye to everyone again and followed chan who's already outside.

i remember he used to be a shy dude back then. he was my classmate that time but i didn't speak to him since i have this habit where i don't speak to anyone who doesn't speak to me. kind of mean but i'm besties with him now so whatever.

he was introduced to us by felix and the twins. jeongin kind of helped them in the library and the three got so thankful that they invited him to eat with us. at first it was weird because i know him by face and i know that he's my classmate but i still didn't talked to him.

the next day after that he talked to me. well he told me that chan and woojin were looking for me, just that. then he walked me to where they are and he started a conversation which was awkward at first but i found him cute because he gets shy easily, back then, when i tease him. so yeah, that's how yang jeongin became my best friend.

seungmin and changbin came as well after a few minutes. seungmin was so hungry so he already has his own bowl and is now getting some ramen. it was weird and cute. seungmin is quiet... or i just don't talk to him a lot? i don't know. sometimes i see him joking around with the boys but when i'm there he's quiet. does he hate me or what.

now he's definitely showing his jokester side. he's smiling widely and laughing with the others. hmm, i wish he doesn't hate me.

" hi "

my eyes widen when changbin suddenly appeared in front of me. he's not smiling or anything. just standing there still looking sleepy. his hair is a mess. a mess in a good and attractive way. did he ruffle his hair in his sleep or did someone els-

" baby changbin your hair is a mess, so disgusting " minho said as he gave him a bowl of cereals.

changbin looked over at minho and he gave him a hurt look before sitting beside me and eating casually. " don't you want to eat ramen? it can help to take the headache away "

he tasted the cereal first, trying to know if it fits his taste, which seems like it since he took another bite before answering me. " i didn't even drink that much ryujin, my head doesn't hurt at all "

" good for you " minho said and drank the remaining milk in his bowl.

" so... " changbin started and swallowed the cereals he's eating. he turned to my side, facing me and minho. " did hyunjin help you to go to felix's room? i saw you wasted last night and i told him to help you out "

i was stunned. so he did saw me last night. but instead of him helping me, he told hyunjin to do so. so basically it happened because of him. if he didn't tell hyunjin to follow me i wouldn't thought that hyunjin is changbin.

but it is also my fault. i drank too much. but whatever, it already happened and i can't turn it back now. my thoughts were interrupted by minho's chuckle. i thank the one above because these two are speaking in hushed voices.

" did he not he- "

" i think hyunjin helped her in a different way " minho stopped changbin with a smirk on his lips. i rolled my eyes and glared at him. he just shrug and said " why? i'm just telling the truth "

" i haven't even told you that we kissed yet " i glared at him and regretted what i just said when he smirked. i murmured some cursed words and rolled my eyes turning to changbin who doesn't look shocked at all.

" i knew it " he said which made me confused. did he see us last night? " i really have this feeling that hyunjin is seeing someone, so it's you he's been seeing huh? " changbin said as he eat his cereals. again, i thank the one above since these two are talking in hushed voices.

" what? no i'm not seeing him and if he really is seeing someone, it's not me. definitely not me " i made my voice clear and hard so that they'll believe me.

" really? " i nod my head as i look at his eyes sincerely. " then why did you two kissed? "

" true, why did you two did it hmm? " minho added as he lean forward on the counter.

" uhm... " i chew on my lower lip as i look down at my almost empty bowl of ramen. " i thought he's you, changbin " i continued, my voice trailing off but they still heard me.

" what? " minho's eyes were wide and he looked surprised and as if he isn't buying it. i nod my head hesitantly.

" ryujin. hyunjin looks more good looking than the boy over there " minho pointed at changbin who's still not believing what i said. " and he's definitely taller than changbin "

" yah, hyung, i think you're being mean again " the other guy said with his lower lip a bit pursed.

" correction, i'm being honest, not mean "

" i think i did it because i was too drunk and stuff " i said in a low tone, i'm still embarrassed by this.

" what are you guys talking about? "

the three of us looked up and saw all of them looking at us curiously. everyone of them are looking at us. even hyunjin. and now that i saw him looking at me, my cheeks heated up.

i don't know what to say so i turned to the boys beside me. changbin awkwardly stirs on his cereals and minho smiles at them widely to hide his eyes which shows how nervous he is.

" just some story about me and some girl, i can't remember the name, and the thing that happened last night at one of the guest rooms " then minho gave them a perverted smirk.

" do y'all want to know too? " he teased earning disgusted groans from the others.

" how dare you lee minho! don't taint my ryujin's precious and innocent mind! " jisu pointed her spoon at him as a threat.

" well she's not as innocent as you think she is " he murmured, which only me and changbin were able to hear. i turned to him and glared at him. how dare this old man.

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it's sunday and i'm on my way to the park. on my hand is a banana ice cream, i just bought this so i have something to eat while i stay there. i decided to go there to have peace in my mind and clear everything up. yes, i am meeting up with him. we planned to talk yesterday and now i'm on my way there.

flashback

we decided to watch a movie so we are now forcing ourselves to fit in the long couch. we're in the climax of the movie when i felt the need to pee. so i stood up and earned groans from the others for blocking their view.

after my trip to the bathroom i went to the kitchen to get some water. right there standing in front of the counter with the pitcher and a glass of water in hand is none other than the person i've been avoiding the whole day. hwang hyunjin.

i gulped and took a deep breath to calm myself. ok act natural ryujin, act natural. i walked towards the cabinets to get myself a glass. i stared blankly at the empty cabinet. there's none left. what the hell.

" just use this " i quickly turned around with wide eyes. good thing he isn't looking at me and i was faced by his back. i nod my head even though i know that he can't see me.

i stood beside him and get the half empty glass of water he used to drink at. i naturally filled it up with the pitcher and drank it all.

" ryujin "

" hmm? "

why the hell am i responding so quick. i turned to face him and he's also facing me. just looking at his face made me heat up. aish, please don't turn red my cheeks!

" about last night " he said carefully as if he doesn't want to press me or something.

" i ah- your hair looks good by the way " i said, pointing at his hair. he hummed and nod his head then brushed his long fingers through his blondish hair.

" so... " he trailed off.

i stayed silent and just stood there. this is so awkward. i look down and fidget with my fingers as i wait for him to continue.

he was taking time so i tried to look up and he has his face scrunched up and he ruffles his hair. " ok ok, let's just talk some other time? "

i opened my mouth to say something but nothing comes out so i just nod my head.

" tomorrow, at the park after lunch, is that ok with you? " he asked as he look at me straight in the eyes. is it only me or his eyes are deep. just by staring at it makes my knees feels a bit jelly.

" ah yes, yes of course " i said, blinking multiple times to erase what i just thought about.

" great, see you "

then he left me there.

end of flashback

i arrived and looks like i got here first. there's a few people and that's great. i will not feel comfortable if there's someone i know here while we talk.

i sat on one of the benches and started eating my ice cream. i wonder what he'll tell me. i know we're going to talk about that night but what exactly about it.

i bet he's gonna apologize like those boys from the movies. i chuckled as i continue to eat my ice cream. then what will happen next... maybe he'll tell me to not misunderstood what happened because, because he likes someone else.

" no! "

i put my ice cream down and furrowed my eyebrows. i don't want that to happen. it'll be annoying if that happens. then what will happen instead? i put the ice cream back in my mouth and started to think of another better scenario.

" why are you eating that ice cream like that? " i turned to the owner of the voice and saw him standing there while looking at me weirdly.

" huh? "

" you look mad " he said and sit beside me, leaving a safe space between the two of us.

" i'm not " i said hardly. i glared at him and he shrugged. " whatever you say "

i let out a sigh and look away from him. now what? i choose to continue eating my ice cream as i wait for him to speak. he's the one with something to say anyway.

but if you think of it, i should apologize too. i mean yes i was drunk but i guess it's my fault, mostly, because i drink too much and stuff like that. do i apologize? i- i don't know.

i was shocked when he cleared his throat but i did all i can to just keep the flinch from showing. i look his way and he's already looking at me.

" so... " he trailed off. i raised my eyebrows as i wait for him to continue speaking. " the kiss, i'm sorry i was drunk too you know "

just by looking at his eyes, i can see his sincerity. i notice how he bite and release the side of his lower lip, probably because he's nervous.

" ryujin, don't misunderstood that ok? and please don't tell anyone " this time, he looks really desperate.

" don't worry i won't. but we both know that doesn't mean anything, so why can't we tell the others? it's basically just like what changbin oppa and jisu did " i asked as i lightly pout my lips, acting it cool. why do i feel like this will go not the way i want it to go.

" actually... " he smiled shyly, he looks adorable why? " there's someone else i like and i don't want her to know about it " hyunjin rub the side of his neck. a light shade of red covers his cheeks as he smile shyly at me.

" huh? "

i gulped as i let it all register in my head. he likes someone else. i felt the ice cream melting and dripping down, covering my fingers. it was sticky and annoying but i didn't feel anything. what i feel instead is that feeling of emptiness.

he hissed in a nervous way, avoiding my eyes at first. he then sighed and faced me once again. " i like someone ryujin and if you tell the others about what happened, well they might tell her " he tilted his head slightly to the side. " i mean, those few who know who she is " he added.

he do like someone, changbin oppa was right. i stared at him blankly. i was too blank that i don't feel like i was staring at him, instead i feel like staring at nothing. why am i even so affected with this anyway?

" ryujin? "

hearing his voice saying my name nearly woke me up in my trance. the way he has his head slightly tilted to the side, his brownish blonde hair flowing to that side as well. the way he leaned forward and furrowed his eyebrows gently as he waited for me to speak.

but that wasn't the one that woke me up, it was the sticky feeling in my bare thighs that did. i look down my tighs and saw the ice cream dripping down making a small sticky pool of melted ice cream on my bare thighs. i gasped and, good thing there's a trash bin beside our bench, threw the ice cream in the trash bin.

" shit shit shit! "

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how was that? i still can't believe it's 2020 already! 😩 and yet i'm still nothing sksksksk anyways, don't forget to give love to this story!!

~ Bae Rose⚘