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S H I N  R Y U J I N

i let out a groan as i open my eyes. argh, my head hurts. i massage my temples and sit up on the bed. i look beside me and saw jisu and yeji sleeping peacefully. my eyes hurts too, it feels swollen as if i cried...

" don't worry, you're wonderful ryujin-ah. and i think changbin hyung will like you "

i felt my eyes widening. it hurts but the memory... did it really happen? i raised my hand up to touch my lips. it wasn't changbin. i didn't kiss him. i kissed someone, and he is younger than changbin oppa. all i remember is his black shirt, the fact that he is younger than changbin and his scent.

what the hell did i do? i covered my face with my hands and pressed my lips together. i am such an idiot! what the hell did i do? what will happen now? aish.

i put my hands down and tried to stand up but another headache came so i fell back down the bed. i grab onto my head and closed my eyes. i will never drink again. i promise to obey my parents and be a good kid.

once the headache is gone i stand up and look around the room. woojin is sleeping on the sofa, not wearing black and older than changbin. on the floor there is felix, seungmin, jeongin, and minho. none of them are wearing black. ok.

i carefully made my way to the door, wincing everytime my head hurts. i walk down the stairs and stopped when i arrived at the first floor. i blink to myself as i look around. wow? it's not as messy as i expected. there are red cups around but good thing there is no dead body, hoo.

i walk towards the couch and saw chan. he's wearing black and has broad shoulders. but he's older than changbin, so safe. and he's down here all the time dj-ing. definitely not him. i look around and saw changbin sleeping on the floor, peacefully.

i made my way towards him and bend down to examine his sleeping face. he looks so peaceful. but sleeping on the ground is very uncomfortable though.

i felt my face leaning closer and closer towards his. but i leaned away when i heard rustling. i look over and saw hyunjin and jisung hugging each other while sleeping on the floor.

i gulped as i stare at their black shirts. they're younger than changbin. they also have wide shoulders. jisung's hair is brown and hyunjin's is a lighter shade of brown. i squint as i try to remember what was the guy's hair color.

i bit my lower lip as i sigh. how much i try to remember but all i remember is black. i only remember black hair. black like changbin's. only one way to find out now.

i walked towards them and bend down to be even closer. i need to smell them. right now i can smell sweat and liquor. now the only thing left is the perfume. i gulped as i leaned closer towards jisung's neck. before i could even come closer, i heard someone groaning.

" argh, my head hurts "

i leaned away from jisung and look at the owner of the voice. chan just woke up and he sit up and grab onto his head. when he opened his eyes he saw me and his eyes grew wide. before he could speak, i raised my index finger over my mouth to shut him up.

i stand up from the floor and made my way towards him and sat down beside him, releasing a long sigh.

" my head hurts ryujin-ah, get me some water " chan groaned and scoot closer to me.

" my head hurts too " i said and massage the bridge of my nose. aish, between jisung and hyunjin, who could it be? chan chuckled so i look at him.

" you should have seen jisung last night " he said and chuckled again. i am so curious so i asked him. " why? "

" i don't know what happened but he went down from upstairs then started kissing this random girl. the girl pushed him away so he transfered to some other girl and started kissing her. " my mouth was hanging open as i listen to his story. " i was so shocked that i raised the volume of the song so that they won't notice jisung "

i look over at jisung and mentally slapped myself. is it him? did i... argh, i hate myself. " oh, also hyunjin " chan bursted laughing i think he can't breathe anymore.

" why? why? why? " i asked as i look back at him.

" he went down from upstairs and i was really shocked because his hair is suddenly blonde-ish brown! i asked him why he changed his hair color and he said he was hiding from someone so he changed his hair color! what the hell was that? he was so drunk! " chan bursted laughing again and i almost choke at... i don't know!

" he changed his hair c-color? " i asked with wide eyes. " yup, he has black hair and look! now he's a blonde boy! " chan said and pointed at hyunjin. when he saw hyunjin and jisung hugging each other, he bursted laughing again.

it's hyunjin. it's definitely hwang hyunjin! i pressed my lips together as i groaned like a mad man. i guess it startled chan since he stopped laughing.

" i hate myself, i hate myself so much " i said and pulled at my hair.

" yah! stop! " he grab my hands and made me face him. " why so sudden? and why are your eyes swollen? did you cry? " he asked with furrowed eyebrows as he examine my eyes. i fake cried and nod my head.

chan sighed and shake his head as he let go of my hands. did he think i was joking? " let's go and get ice for you, let's also drink coffee and cook something " he said as pulled me up to stand up.

" i don't want to cook bang chan " i whined as he pulls me with him towards the kitchen.

" you have no choice kid, we're the only ones awake "

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i took another sip of the hot coffee and adjusted my hands since the ice is so cold, i can't feel my eyes anymore. chan, who is sitting beside me, took a long sip and put his cup down on the counter, no more coffee left.

" what will we cook? " he asked as he stood up from the stool and walk towards the refrigerator.

" i want something with hot soup " i said and took another sip from my cup. the coffee is making my head feel lighter, the pain is slowly and slowly going away.

chan hummed and closed the refrigerator. he walked towards the cabinets and opened it to look for something to eat. we always hang out here at felix's house. we almost know every corner and secret of this house. just then, chan gasped and i heard plastic rustling.

" we're definitely eating ramen " he turn around and in his hands are two huge packs of ramen. i think one pack has ten ramen in it. i gasped as well and that made bang chan chuckle.

" finish that quick and let's cook some hot food " he walked towards the sink and started looking for a pot. i let out a groan and finished my cup of coffee.

" and take that ice off of your eyes "

i let out another groan and grab my cup together with chan's and walked towards the sink. i put the cup in and go back to the refrigerator to put the ice back.

" what do i do now chef bang? "

he turned and faced me with a little unsureness on his face. " you know how to cook ramen right? "

i facepalmed and rolled my eyes at him. " i know, i'm not a dumbo "

" hmm 'kay, go and cook then while i prepare the side dishes and stuff "

i did as he says and started heating water for the ramen. it was easy but i am lazy so it kind of feels hard. chan kept on asking me to help him chop something but i pretend to be busy with the ramen and ignoring him. this made him laugh, no lie, his laugh is precious.

" hoo " chan let out a breath and wipe his sweaty forehead. " now go and call the others "

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i didn't really wake everyone up. i just shouted at the room and at the living room and whoever woke up gets to eat first. i sat at the chair in front of the table in the dining room. minho sits beside me and jisu on my other side.

not everyone were awaken by my beautiful and loud voice. the twins, seungmin, jeongin and changbin oppa were still asleep. i saw seungmin, yeji and jeongin went down but they just sat at the couch at the living room and slept again.

all of us are busy eating the ramen i made, which is a lot. it took me two big pots to cook all those ramen for us all. well we're a lot, nine boys and three girls.

" so jisung " chan swallowed his food and looked at the innocent eating  squirrel. " what happened last night? "

the topic seems to interest everyone in the table. seems like everyone saw what happened to him last night. jisung on the other hand hummed and seems like he's clueless.

" i don't know... did i do somehing stupid? " he asked innocently after he swallowed his food.

" yes " woojin, who is beside him, answered the question for him. jisung covered his mouth with wide eyes as he gasped.

" what did i do? "

" you basically kissed everyone " jisu said with a teasing tone and laughing afterwards.

jisung became red and he looks very embarrassed. seems like he can't remember how and why he did that last night. poor thing. he pursed his lips and pulled on his hair.

" yah, don't do that just eat up " chan told him, slapping his hands away from his hair.

jisung obeyed but he still looked defeated and a hundred percent embarrassed. minho oppa laughed as he pointed at jisung.

" my head hurts " we all turned to who is the owner of the voice and saw the blonde dude.

i quickly looked away even before he can look at me. my feet silently tap on the floor under the table. i'm, i don't know what to do. i picked my chopsticks up and just continue on eating.

" is your hair- when did you dye that? " jisu asks. looks like she's so intrigued by his hair, and i don't really care.

i can feel beads of sweat starting to form on my nape. i used the hair tie wrapped around my wrist and tie my hair in a messy bun, making myself as preoccupied as i can be.

" last night, i saw one at the bathroom in yongbok's room and used it " i saw him shrug as he made his way towards the table.

i can hear felix whining about hyunjin not telling him about it. but all i can think about is the fact that motherfreaking lee minho just stood up from his seat with his bowl in his hands.

" sit here hyunjin, i'll eat at the counter "

i looked up at minho and right at that time our eyes met. i glared at him. i made my eyes look as scary as i can. he looked confused so i mouthed " don't leave me or i'll cut your- " i stopped and pointed at his manhood.

he gulped and looked up to the others who didn't seem to witness our little moment. " uh, r-ryujin join me there i don't want to be a loner "

i beamed and hopped out of my chair. " sure! " i said in an excited way following minho to the counter with my bowl of ramen in my hands.

i watched everyone, especially hyunjin, and they all acted natural. great! my eyes followed hyunjin, from how he accepted the clean bowl from woojin to how he said thank you to jisu who helped him getting ramen. i stare at him waiting for him to stare back. for some reason i want him to look my way but also, i am nervous and i don't know what to do if he does look.

" lil' monster " i snap back and looked beside me. minho just finished his ramen and now is eating cereals. at first i scrunched my nose in disgust because i thought he used the same bowl but then i saw the empty bowl with ramen stains near the sink.

" yeah? " i turned back down to my food and slurped on my noodles.

" what happened with you and hyunjin? "

first of all, i am grateful he only whispered. but still, i was caught off guard and i started coughing making him alert. he quickly went to the fridge to fetch me some water.  once my fingers touched the glass, i quickly gulped it.

i put the now empty glass and wiped the tears that nearly fell from my eyes. i turned towards minho and glared at him. " stop eating like a pig ryujin, be careful ok? " jisu said in the background but i didn't looked at her and still glared at minho who is quite apologetic.

" yep, sorry i'm just too hungry " i finally break the eye contact and gave jisu a small smile, then they all went back to eating. and i? i faced minho again with creased forehead.

" what made you think that something happened to us? i don't even talk to him a lot. we never had an only us moment. i don't even touch him! " i whispered as i stared at him. he raised both his hands, an attempt to calm me down.

" ok kid, chill. i just figured that you were avoiding to sit beside him. also, you were watching his every move the moment we came here " he explained and then a playful smirk is evident on his lips. " you also sound so defensive, now i'm curious "

i silently groaned and pushed his face away from me. i don't want to see his freaking face. i pursed my lower lip as i look back at the others. they are talking about something that i don't know. then i looked at him. he's silent and just focusing on eating.

i don't know how i even thought he's changbin oppa. everything about him is so far away from everything about changbin oppa. is that how alcohol mess with my senses? if that is, then i will never ever drink again.

i turned towards minho who is still patiently waiting for me to spill some tea. do i tell him? i mean, he's trustworthy but i don't know what he'll think of me when i tell him what happened. i gulped and look down on my ramen.

" hey " he lightly pinched the side of my waist making me flinch and look up to him. " it's ok if you don't tell me, don't feel presu- "

" no " i stopped him and gave him a small smile. " i think i need to tell one of you at least " i added. his eyes grew wide and he gasped silently as he covered his mouth.

" did you guys drunkenly bang last ni- aww " before he could finish his disgusting question i pinched his arm.

" that's so disgusting, of course no! " i whispered.

he massaged the part on his arm that i pinch as he think of something. " what would make you want to avoid him? you guys could have at least kissed "

after i heard what he said, i felt the warm feeling starting to creep up to my cheeks. my eyes wandered away from his and i made the mistake of looking at hyunjin. i quickly turned away from him as all the hazy memories came back.

minho's silent chuckle filled my ears as he playfully laughed right beside my ear. " oppa, stop it " i weakly muttered and pushed him away from me.

what i did just made him smile even bigger. " you called me oppa. you only do that when you get shy or nervous " he teased again with that wide grin. i huffed my cheeks and rolled my eyes at him.

" so... " he scooted closer to me and it just made me more annoyed. " are you guys dating behind our backs? "

" no! " i glared at him and he gave me the i-don't-buy-that look. " i swear, we aren't! i'm not into nerds " i said and made an exaggerated disgusted sound. minho's eyebrows perks up and then he shake his head.

" hyunjin is a quiet and smart kid but he's so far away from the word 'nerd' " minho explained. i rolled my eyes and went back to eating. i want this conversation to stop now.

just then, we heard hwang yeji's dramatic gasp.

" what happened to your hair hyunjin?! "

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done! nothing that big, and also advanced merry christmas to everyone! 🎅 hope y'all love this chapter! 💞

~ Bae Rose⚘