~*~ August 11

It was far past midnight and I couldn't help thinking about the boys leaving for Hamburg tomorrow. Today was my last full day with them. I even planned on spending some time with Pete and Stu if they were available.

I flipped over in my bed trying to get a good sleeping position. My bed was almost unbearable, tonight of all nights. I saw sitting on my desk was the teddy bear George got me on our first date.

The teddy bear sent me back on that September day. The memories made me want to have George with me right now. That was the same day, I believe, that George joined the Quarrymen. It was quite an exciting day from what I remember.

Before I knew it tears slipped out my eye. I wiped them off and told myself I was silly for crying. I would see them in a few months right?

I closed my eyes trying to get some sleep. The last thing I wanted was to sleep in tomorrow morning.

~**~

I was sitting in George's living room sipping my tea. We were both quiet and enjoying each other's company. "Well," George said as he stood up from the couch, "I've got to finish packing."

"You haven't finished?" I asked, standing up with him.

He shrugged. "I've started, I just haven't finished."

I laughed. "Trying to be cheeky, I see." I smiled. It was almost painful to smile knowing he'd be long gone soon. Far away from me. "C'mon, I'll help."

We went up stairs and into his room. There were clothes everywhere, and epicenter of the huge mess was a black suitcase with only a few items of clothing inside.

"Are all these clothes clean?"

"Yeah, I was just going through everything I had last minute."

"I can tell," I laughed.

He smiled a genuine smile that has always made my heart skip a beat. I had always thought that he saved that smile just for me, maybe.

"So how long are you guys going to be gone for?" I asked hoping for a short number.

He scratched the back of his head. "Er, about 9 months."

"What?! Why so long? I'm going to miss you guys, a lot." I felt my heart sink lower than it already was.

"I'm gonna – I mean, we're miss ye  a lot, too, Julia." He smiled at me again with that same genuine smile.

I embraced him in my arms. He wrapped his arms around me and rested his head on top of mine. I wished that I could just freeze time and stay in this moment.

He kissed my forehead and petted my hair. "What am I supposed to do when you're all gone?"

"I dunno to be honest, but I promise to try and write as often as we can. Maybe send a few pictures of us on out trip."

I looked up at him. "Really?"

"Really."

~**~

Everyone was in the car. Paul, John, Stu, Pete, George, Kaithlyn, Veronica, Serena, Pete's current girlfriend who we've all just met, and I, were all in the car silently enjoying each other's company.

The taxi stopped at the station.  "Are ye sure ye don't want to drive to the port? I can pay for the extra miles," Veronica offered.

John shook his head. "No, it's fine. We've already got the arrangements figured out." Which obviously wasn't the case because John never planned anything out. He's always been a stubborn one.

We all piled out of the car. It was rather hard with all the luggage that wouldn't fit in the trunk. "Let me get that for ye," Kaithlyn said, taking John's bag.

"Thanks, love." He kissed the top of her head and she smiled and blushed.

Stu payed the driver and watched him drive away. "So what now?"

We all just stood there awkwardly staring at each other in the front of the station. The train doesn't leave for another ten or fifteen minutes. "Yeah, what now?"

"Why don't we all go inside and find the train platform?" Suggested Paul.

John patted Paul's back. "At a boy, Macca. Always the sensible one, ye are."

Paul just rolled his eyes and laughed.

"You know," I start, "I'm really going to miss you guys. What are we supposed to do while you're gone. Except go out and party, meet new people, and have the time of our lives?"

"Yeah, sure ye will," teased John. I smirked.

"I really am going to miss you, really, and I expect every one of you to write. You promise?"  I pointed my fingers at all of them showing them i meant it. The all simultaneously put their hands in their hearts and nodded. It almost looked rehearsed, but it was funny none the less.

"Five minutes to board!" Shouted the train conductor.

"Ye should probably start to board," Veronica said.

"Yeah," agreed Pete. They all got their bags and went on the train. The girls went to help them, but George stayed behind.

"Aren't you going to go?" I asked. He looked a little nervous, but I thought it was cute.

"Yeah, in a bit," he said, "but there was something I wanted to tell you before I left. I meant to tell ye earlier but I didn't know how. So I'm just going to stay it straight out. I love ye, okay? I've loved ye for a long time and I don't think there was a time I really ever stopped. I feel terrible for what I did to ye when we were together and I hope you're able to forgive some day. Ye are the most amazing, beautiful, and intelligent girl that I've ever had the pleasure to have known. You always made me smile somehow with all the little things you've done, and that I'm so happy I bumps into ye that day on the way to school. I just wanted to tell ye before I leave for several months that I love ye. Ye don't have to say a thing; I'll be happy that I was just able to finally tell ye."

I stood there speechless with tears welling in my eyes. He... loves me? After all that I've put him through and after all the stupid things I've done and he really loves me? I couldn't believe it.

He stood there staring at me with his intense, brown eyes, waiting for some kind of reaction.

I threw my arms around him, nearly knocking the both of us over. Tears of joy were streaming down my cheeks and soaking the collar of his jacket. "I love you, too. I love you so much. I don't know how you could love me. I'm such a terrible person, but I still love you. "

He set me down and looked at me with his puppy eyes. His hands caressed my cheek and stroked the outline of my jaw. "You could never be a terrible person," he whispered. He leaned down and kissed me. I become suddenly disoriented. The feelings from the night of our first kiss resurfaced. I think a few people told us to get a room, but I couldn't recall, I was too far in the moment.

Our lips parted and we both smiled. "I should probably get going," he said.

The conductor's bell was ringing throughout the platform. The train will be leaving very soon.

"I'll write to ye as soon as we get to our hotel," he says.

"I'll be counting the days until you lot get back."

He smiled and kissed me one last sweet time. He grabbed his bags and got on board. He turned around and said he loved me. I told him I loved him one last time as I cried a little bit more, embarrassing myself in front of everyone in the station.

The train whistle blew and the train lurched forward. George was putting his bag away and waved through the window. I waved back until the train was out of sight.

"Julia, are ye alright?" Asked Veronica.

I nodded with a tear coming down my face.

"I've never been better."

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OHGMYGODIHAVENTUPDATEDIN5EVER but yeah.  I hoped you guys liked it there was a little bit more cutsie stuff in it but aw they're so cute I can't wait to see what happens when they get reunited after they come back from hamburg ;-))))))))) I did this chapter today as a reminder that I love George and I know I always will. Rest in peace.