Here I am again running away. It looks dejavu and the reason might be similar but this time. I'm running away not just from my mate, I am running away from everybody.

Maybe it's for the best because honestly I don't really know what is happening in me everything about me is chaos and I'll be lying if I said that I completely understand it all.

I nixed everyone's help caused I know and I have a great feeling that staying next beside me will make no good in them.

I lean in an oak tree bacause of exhaustion. I've been running for hours and the sun is starts brightening the sky. Ross, probably notice that I'm not in my room and he might be searching from now. I must not waste time.

The cold breeze hit my skin and I shiver from the coldness I felt looking at myself I completely forgot that I was wearing a white dress with a thin strap and I'm soaking wet bacause of the rain.

Thou I'm exhausted I can't find a reason to stop because I know that if I stop know Ross will find me and I won't let that happen so I start to run again.
After a few minutes I encounter a road which means that I'm near the city where as much as possible Vampires are prohibited to come because of the human blood is a big temptation.

My legs became feeble as I stand near the road and wave asking for a ride. Minutes past and a truck stop and offered me a ride. I lazily smile at the white hair man and sit to the passenger sit. Haven't notice that I fell asleep.
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I woke up hearing two voice talking about something that I can't completely hear maybe because their just far from me.

I roam my eyes at the unfamiliar room where I'm in. The place looks like a cabin with wooden walls and floor with one window. I can see the tall trees outside the window. Trees? Am I still in Ross place? Did he find me? But the scent of this house is different it smells carnation and lavenders.

I open the door to see a small sala with a wooden sala set and a nice fireplace. There's a picture of an old couple at the coffee table they are smiling from ear to ear and I can see the love in their eyes and then I realize that he is the one who offers me a ride to town.

That means Ross didn't find me.

"oh. You're awake" a lovely voice came from my back causing me to look back. I saw the old lady in the picture, she must be the wife. Having a grey hair and some white she have a welcoming smile. I smiled back.

What will I say?

"Umm. Hello? Forgive me for intruding your hou-" before I finished my words she cut it off.

"Intruding? You can stay here for a while. You must be hungry. Come let's go to the kitchen" without waiting for my reply she headed to the right where I suppose is where the kitchen is.

I followed her cause I don't want to be rude.

"Actually , I'm not planning on staying here." I said breaking our comfortable silence.She place a plate and utensils before she gaze upon me.

"oh? Right someone must be looking for you. Like a family relatives. By the way , what is your name? My husband said that he found you in the forest."
As she finish preparing the table for me she sit in front of me and assist me to get the rice.

"There is someone I want to meet.. Can I ask a question?" I hesitantly ask.

"Darling, I know you're a Vampire. You can't hide that with a unnatural pale skin." she said with a smile.

"You knew?!" I ask in disbelief

" for my 75th years in this forest I've seen enough." she said in a laughing tone with genuine smile.

"You're not scared? I might bit you?"

" You should had than that earlier it you want." she said in a meaningful tone. Like suggesting something.

"Look darling, I don't know what's the reason you're kind exist but you know everything happened for a reason."
She said in a matter of fact like she'd said it before. I mean lots of before.

Speechless I just nod in response.

"oh my bad" when she noticed that I haven't touch the food. "Go on. you can continue eating talking is later."

....

"having a mate is a blessing my dear." she explained to me.

We've been here in their sala for an hour or much. I don't know we talk about lot of things and I told her my stories while she just listen to me attentively.

"Am I wrong? I.. I know what I've done was terrible." I stop when realization hit me. "I just...... know" I half whispered hanging in the word 'just'.

What have I done? It was all my fault. Mine all along I chose to hide from him but he seeks me. I've hated him for the reason that his getting married but it was all because I left him.
Oh my God! I left him. I broke my promise to stay by his side and know what? I'm hiding again. Running away from him.

"You okay,darling" she ask worried seeing me shock at my own though. I don't know maybe I was talking out loud cause she simply knew or might know what I'm thinking.

I stagger backwards, words hanging and emotions started to show up. My tears started to fall. My feet starts to feel numb and I fell on the ground.

"Sebastian ...Im- I'm so sorry" those where the words I keep repeating thinking that he might hear me and forgive me for all the wrongs that I've made.

I screams his name hoping he'll show up and see me in pain maybe he'll forgive me. But no Sebastian came.

What will I do? I'm just a mate, a stupid mate who never had a chance to know him better. He didn't even mark me so it will be easy for him to reject me.

What will I do?. Sobbing and hugging my knees in the corner of a room while she comforts me. It worsen my feelings thinking that no one knows Sebastian's pain. And no one comforts him. If there is someone it should be me. But how can I do that. All I care about is myself. I'm such a selfish person.This might look a self pity but its not.

With a wobbly feet I stood up. My visions are blurry but I think I can manage.

"I need to see my Mate Sebastian"

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