No one's pov:

When katsuki, inko and mitsuki and arrived at the Bakugou's, Inko helped out mitsuki in the kitchen while katsuki went up to his room.

He took of his clothes and changed into a black tanktop with grey sweatpants, katsuki loves to wear comfy clothes instead of wearing anything else.
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Katsuki's pov:

I decided to take a quick shower before changing into my comfy clothes. I'm so tired and just not in the mood to think about everything happening with deku.
Although im scared of his friend's reactions.

I mean theyre his bestest of friends and i dont think they'll let me go after they realize i want to take some distance from deku. Listen, its not a problem that deku is gay but, me? what the fuck. I treated him as if he was a punching bag and that still made him like me? Did he get fucking turned on by me punching him? If so. It's just another reason to take some distance from him.

Besides, its not a long time ago that shitty hair and i broke up, it would be kinda shitty to just move on anyway. I know shitty hair basically cheated on me, but thats no excuse. I'm not fully over him anyway. I really liked him.. He was the first person that understood me and supported me. He was the first person i was able to come out to. I miss him. But im also pissed at him. I know i told him i forgave him.. But i just didnt want to lose him, that would only hurt me more and more, im so in love with him. Man maybe i just shouldnt date at all. Im not that kind of person who would set up a romantic date, i just wanted to finally feel loved and understood. I never realized i didnt even actually put effort into our relationship. Maybe i should take a break from dating till i figure out myself.

I then heard someone knock on my door
"come in."
It was inko.

"Hey katsuki.. are u alright? it looks like u cried a bit."
"Im totally fine. Nothing to worry about.
There a reason why you're here?"

"Oh yeah sorry, just wanted to say dinner is ready, so u should come down and eat."
To be honest, i dont think im hungry. I mean i didnt eat the whole day, and even if i did it might've been something small. I just had too much on my mind. I didnt even think about eating.

"Thank u for telling me, but im not hungry."
I told Inko as she looked at me with sympathizing eyes.

"But Katsuki, did u even eat anything"
No answer.

"Katsuki.. U should eat! I know you probably have a lot on ur mind right now, but its only better if u just eat something."

"I know. I'll probably just get something later today. Dont worry about me. Thank u but u should just go eat."

"Well if u say so katsuki.."
I just hummed in response and laid on my bed as she left my room.
Im so fucking tired and so ugh. I just dont feel like doing anything right now. I was in such great moods some days ago!!

I even apologized to deku.. Why did i? Im so fucked up, i was just desperate for attention cause shitty hair broke up with me and deku was the one giving me attention when no one else did. I fucked up real bad.. I mightve led him on way too much. I'm scared that he'll think I like him back. It would be really shitty if he did think that. But i dont like him. And i wont ever. I just want this all to end.

I probably sound so fucking selfish right now, but ive never been good at expressing my feelings and this all happening right now, doesnt make it any better.

What if I just visit him one last time tomorrow, and then never come back there. It all just fucks more with my mind. Im so confused and stressed its insane. I cant imagine what deku is going through to be honest.

I put on my headphones and put on cigarettes after sex. Their songs are so good, it relieves all my anxiety and makes me feel so good somehow. I'm obsessed with their songs.
(That was the author talking to be honest 🤭)

As i was listening to CAS i fell asleep.

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End of this chapter lol. While writing this i was actually listening to CAS 😊
Btw guys im sorry my styles are different in the new chapters, i just dont like how the other chapters were. I decided to put in some big plottwists so ill have u guys hooked :)
I love u so much and i hope you guys like this story.