You were supposed to tell him about it.

The headaches.

But you being you, the stubborn person you are, the one who didn't like making people worry, you kept it to yourself.

It started with the dizziness— it happened in that day when he went to your place without a warning, sobbing his eyes out and hugging you for dear life. He lost a match that time, but you didn't go to watch him since you told him you were supposed to do some paperwork.

Way before he barged in to your place, you did nothing but groan in pain and rub your temples as you felt a sensation in your head. You were lying down the living room couch and you couldn't even get up. How puny.

Of course, you first shrugged it off, that was you. You don't take those kinds of moments too seriously. They were only headaches, after all.

Then he was there, doing what you wanted to do— sobbing his eyes out. Apparently he had lost a match because of him not being able to spike properly. So you practically embraced him all night, while he was releasing sadness from his eyes. It made your head feel worse, but you knew how to make things not obvious.

And so here you were, in a restroom cubicle, while he was in the court playing for a championship. He'd looked forward to this day, since if his team won, he would be able to fight for the nationals. (I know nothing about these things please don't attack me)

"Not now," You muttered to yourself, taking deep breaths and running your fingers down your hair. You were sweating, but you were cold at the same time.

And it hurts.

Damn it hurts.

It felt like your head was under a hell lot of pressure— like every cell being compressed together that even the farthest parts from your brain couldn't function properly and your eyelids were burning like oil set on fire, and you couldn't feel the oxygen you were taking in even though your breaths were deeper than oceans of far away places— and it hurts, it hurts— it hurts.

"S-Stop," You were shaking, hands on your head, still.

You felt nothing but pain.

Like every word you remembered from your whole life faded away,

"I love you! Get enough rest, okay?"

Every moment,

"I'll always protect you, you hear? I won't let any douche get near you."

Every mile you've traveled,

"I'll drive you to anywhere you want, even if it meant spending too much for gas. I just really want to be with you!"

Every single thing,

"Before we first met, I felt like.. I felt I was a desert— empty, you know? Like, I longed for something.. something that will make me feel.. something, I guess? Like a cold sensation to make sure I wasn't numb, t-then.. then you were there.

You were my rain."

Was gone.

And your head was empty, like.. like him before he met you.

And you couldn't even explain.

And for a split second, you asked yourself,

Who is he?

And you remembered after, and it felt like a vehicle just ran over you, so then you fell to your knees, your whole body still trembling, your hands against your head and your head against the tiled wall.

And everything started fading away once more, but the pain.

And you didn't want anything but to have him hold you.

But you couldn't call him, you couldn't even reach the door to open it— you couldn't even stand.

"Koutarou," You yelped, clutching your head. "Please help me,"

You wanted to scream, but you couldn't.

I will stand, I will stand.

So you did, with your legs were still shaking, you successfully opened the cubicle door, attempting to take steps that will fortunately support your body.

Then everything disappeared.

Bokuto raised his fist triumphantly, panting slightly.

We won.

He kept those words repeated in his mind.

He heard screams from audiences— both from frustration and euphoria.

And he couldn't help but grin, and laugh, and.. and just.. be happy.

The stadium was filled with screams, but there was one that caught his attention the most.

"Bokuto-san!" He heard someone call.

And the person said something he never wanted to hear ever again.

And everything dropped.

-:-:-:-

Yo!! Ice is back to say th—

*gets shot on the ass*

*readers fly away to jupiter bc I suck*

*gets my house burned*

oKAY IM SORrY

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Everything was blurry.

You weren't even sure if you were awake.

You weren't even sure if you were alive.

Your eyes weren't completely opened.

"Don't leave,"

There were syllables that echoed through your mind, but you couldn't make it.

"I need you,"

It felt like you were underwater, and you were lost.

"You promised me, right?"

You couldn't hear anything but the humming of the ocean.

"We're never gonna leave each other, right?"

And bubbles colliding and disappearing.

"Why didn't you tell me?"

You were afloat, but you were drowning.

"Did you not trust me?"

And you searched for a hint of the sun.

"Were you afraid I'd leave you?"

But you couldn't see anything.

"Were you?"

And you couldn't breathe.

"I'm the one who's afraid you'll leave me,"

And you didn't know what to do anymore.

Your lungs longed for air, but you couldn't breathe.

Your eyes wanted sight, but you couldn't open them.

Your head longed for rest, but you couldn't sleep because of it.

Your skin longed for his,

But you knew you wouldn't be able to touch him again.

You exhaled.

There was a flat line.

And you told yourself,

They were supposed to be just headaches.

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*comes out from under the table* t-tada!! *sweats*
943 words!! y-y-yay!
I hope none of you attack me hahaha *sweats even more*
Okay but seriously thank you so so much for the 1k reads (and 69 followers lmao) like I still cant believe dhdndbeh cause like it's my first time /actually/ publishing my work(s)??? And then it goes this far??? I just
Wow
Thank you guys so much yall are making me cryヽ(；▽；)ノ
Also to clear it the match Bokuto had lost is kind of like for another championship???? And like the game he played like the time you kind yeah is different from it bc Ik you cant continue once you lose once BDGSHEBDE I hope some of you understand me somehow

All the love as always,
Ice

PS. I didn't read this again after I finished it.. again. Oops. Please tell me if there are mistakes, thanks!!

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