It's 2 o'clock in the morning I still haven't closed an eye . After a rather uncomfortable conversation with Xander . I suggested we get dinner brought to my room and ate in awkward silence . I can't stop thinking of that picture ... I might go crazy , so I yank the sheets from my body and I get goosebumps as the cold air hits my skin . I crawl out of my bed , sheets rustling in the process . I take flash from my dresser and shine it into my mini trash can . I take the two pieces of paper and put them together . I take the two pieces and jump back into bed accidentally stepping on Xander in the process . He coughs as he sits up wheezing .
" Sorry " I whisper
" What were you doing woman ! " he whispers back
" None of your business , goodnight " I turn over to my side and wait for Xander to fall asleep . As his breathing starts to change I take the pieces of paper and tape it back together and stare at it for what seems like an eternity .

(Flashback)

" Clara come on were taking a photo ! " Aaron moans trying to pick me up
Anderson comes to me and Aaron
" Come on my girl " Anderson says picking me up , mommy picks Aaron up and aunt Evie counts to three as we take the picture .
" Such a beautiful picture " Aunt Evie says looking at her camera .

Evie ... that name gives me a headache . I instantly regret taping this picture back together . I sigh and fall backwards onto my bed rubbing my eyes . I open my eyes and stare into two brown eyes . I stratle and don't think twice to throw a punch and hit Xander right in the nose . " Oww " he cries backing up holding his nose . I sit up straight " Oh my goodness , I'm so sorry ! " . Xander was leaning over me , Xander was leaning over me , Xander was leaning over me . I see him swipe a finger under his nose as blood drips onto his mouth and on his hands . I rush to the bathroom to get toilet paper.  I run over to him and lead him to my bed to sit down . I put the toilet paper under his nose and he holds it . I take my index and thumb and apply pressure to his nose . To help with the bleeding . I shush him scratching his back . " I'm so sorry " I try to suppress a laugh . He chuckles , " No it's fine " . He swipes the tissue under his nose and sniffles " It stopped bleeding " he says looking into his tissue . I nodd taking a stray curly strand of hair out of his face . He looks to me and I only realise what I've done . We stare at a each other for a second as a corner from this mouth shoots up into a smile  . I clear my throat and get up to go get some wipes . I sit back down crossing my leg underneath my bottom and gently wipe the blood from his mouth and nose . I smile a shy smile back at him . I hate that I'm shy and awkward around him . It's like I'm forgot to speak English , or I've gone completely mute .

" Clara "
" Yes ? " I ask lifting an eyebrow
" Are you okay ? "
" Yes " I say narrowing my eyes " Why ? "
" You were whimpering in your sleep and you tossed and turned last night , did you have a nightmare ?  "
" You watched me while I was sleeping , that's a bit creepy " I say jokingly
He playfully pushes me to the side " You know what I mean "
" Yeah , yeah . I have a tendency to talk in my sleep "
" Oh okay " he shrugs and gets up " Well it's chow time for me , will you be okay in your room . "
I nodd and Xander leaves

My back hurts and it's going to hurt more when I replace the bandage . Hope is a strange thing , and I can't help but wonder if my brother might not be back , or he escaped ...
"Clara "
I almost fall backwards off of my bed . It's Anderson