Trigger warning

Highschool AU

Gerard's pov

This sucks. I suck. I hate highschool, I hate this god forsaken place from the bottom of my heart. I really do, the only reason I haven't dropped out is because of my Boyfriend Frank Iero and my brother Mikey. Frank is my world, he knows everything about me. Aside from Mikey, Frank was the first and only person to know about the depression.

I remeber when he first found out, I was in the boys bathroom on the 3rd floor crying my heart out, the reason doesn't really matter. All that matters is that my Frankie was there, he didnt love me any less when i told him what I had been dealing with. He wasnt even upset that i didn't tell him! He just wants me to be okay.

Anyway, the reason I hate this place is because the people here are closed minded bullies that have no heart and can only feel Joy from stealing others. I can't even have a smile on my face for more than 3 minutes before someone shouts "Hey faggot!" I hate that word more than I hate this school. That word is so degrading that I feel like a literal pile of shit. This week though, it has been worse than normal. I tried so hard not to let their words get to me, but I felt so weak, my mind and heart couldnt deal with it anymore, i tried so hard not to break down again, i tried to think of frankie, but nothing was working! Before I could stop myself, I was watching the blood poor down the drain. I stayed in the shower for about an hour crying, feeling horrible about what I'd just done. I didn't want to do this shit anymore, i didn't want to feel like this anymore! I knew if Frank found out, he'd be devestated, so he wouldn't find out. I got out of the shower and bandaged my cuts as best I could and got ready for bed.

The next day seemed like it was gonna be better than yesterday, until lunch. Frank, Mikey, Pete, Brendon, Ryan, Ray, and I were sitting at our normal table in the cafeteria, laughing, joking about the things we'd seen today. "And then Bob stood up and slammed his peach pudding into her face-" Ryan said trying his hardest not to laugh, "I have never seen Samantha so angry! I swear on everything, the pudding started to melt off!" We all burst out into laughter. As the conversation continued, I felt a hand grab mine and a kiss on my cheek, i look over to frank to see his eyes were sad and teary. I looked at him with a confused look, he stood up with my hand still in his and he excused us frok the table. The guys gave suggesting eyebrow wiggles and hoots as we left the table.

As we got to the nearest bathroom, Frank hugged me. He hugged me like he thought he was going to lose me, when he pulled bag i saw tears start to stream down his face, "Frankie..." I began and whipped his tears a Way with my thumbs then placed both hands on his cheaks. "Why are you crying my love?" He leaned into my touch and grabbed my right wrist "Gee... Please be honest with me," he looked at me, silently pleading that what he was about tonask wasnt true, "did you cut?" I stiffened but nodded. I thought he would have let go, but he didn't. Frank hugged me again and kissed my lips softly, when he pulled back he placed his hand on my cheek and was about to say something when we heard laughter enter the bathroom, "well would you look at the love birds" Jackson chuckled as he walked him wiht his little gang of goons. Jackson Mcfreilds was the most popular kid in school, but also the worst part about this hell hole. He was my main tormentor, its like he was me one day and thought "im gonna make this kids life a living hell"

Jackson walked closer to where Frank and I were and continued to make fun of us. I dont know what came over me but I've had enough of this asshat, so i did what I though would be best. I stood up to him, that was probably the dumbest thing I've ever done. "You know what Jackson? Ive had enough of your shit." I let go of Frankie and walked toward Jackson, he looked surprised that I hadnt coward away for once. That surprise didn't last long, Jackson smirked and pumched me across the face. Frank yelped and tried to run to me but his dumb group of friends pinned him against the wall. I spit blood on the floor and looked at Jackson with the anger of 5 burning suns, he punched me in the sromach causing me to fall to the floor, groaning I clutched my stomach amd tried to get up again, only to be kicked in the ribs. I heard Frankie yell "STOP YOU FUCKING ASSHOLE!!!" Jackson chuckled and began to walk away, "let's go boys. Lunch is about to be over."

I stayed curled in a ball as I felt frankie put my head in his lap, "its okay baby" he cried "I'll get you cleaned up." He moved my hair from my face and kissed my temple. Frank called Mikey and explained the whole tbing to him amd told him to come to where we were. Soon i heard Mikey and Ray's voices coming close to us. "Hey big bro..." I heard Mikey say, his voice quivering "sup Mikey-" I began to cough violently. I hear Ray curse under his breath and say "we gotta get him home guys. He needs to rest, I brought my car today so we can get him home faster." Mikey and Frank agreed and picked helped me up, I helped them as best i could and tried to smile "thanks guys-" I coughed again and groaned leaning my head on Frank's shoulder.

Once we had gotten to the car, mikey and frank put me in the back seat, Ray got into the drivers seat, Mikey got in the passenger seat, and Frankie sat in the back with me. The drive was silent, but not awkward. Frank played with my hair and hummed quietly to me as Ray drove. Once we pulled up to Mikey and I's house, Mikey gave him the key and helped frank get me out. I tried as best as i could to help, but that motherfucker has one mean kick. Once we got into the house, frank and i headed for the bathroom, when we got in there i took my shirt off and let Frank look over my wounds. I heard him sniffle and cry as he looked me over, i smiled weakly and kissed his lips softly. When i pulled back i said "don't you dare feel bad about this. It was not your fault my love." He nodded and grabbed a wash cloth and turned on the faucet letting the water heat up. I sat down on the toilet so his short self could reach me. Once the water heated up, Frank gentally cleaned my face and my back. He tried to keep his sad expression as low key as he could, but I could tell that he felt that this was his fault, despite me saying different. When he was done, we walked down the hall to my bedroom so i could put on comfortable clothes. Frankie laid against my headboard watching me as I put on a pair of grey sweat pants and a white tee shirt with a black jacket. "Are you okay?" "Relatively..." Frankie sighed as I waslked over to the bed and laid down next to him, laying my head on his chest. "Are you gonna go to the Principle?" There was a bit of hope in his voice, as if going to Mrs. J would help, "I don't think so Frankie... It'll only make matters worse." I heard Frank sigh frustrated as he began to play with my hair. We stayed like that for a while in comfortable silence before I leaned up to kiss his lips, i rolled over to straddle his lap, being careful not to put any strain on my ribs, and whispered against his lips, "can you stay over tonight? I-I-" Frankie. put his finger to my lips and nodded , replying "Yes baby, I'll stay the night."

We spent the rest of the night cuddling and watching netflix in my room, Mikey and the rest of the guys came over to check up on me and Frank. We all knew he didn't get hurt physically, but having to watch someone you love getting beaten while you struggle to get to them is damaging in a whole different way. During the night, I kept trying to not let the event of today get to me. Jackson, the beating, the watching as Frankie cried, all of it made me feel so... down. I hoped that if I had gone to sleep, it would help me feel better. But here I am at 3 am standing and looking into the mirror of my bathroom, wondering why I'm so weak. None of this would have happened if I had been strong! GOD! I slammed my fist into the mirror causing it to shatter. A moment later I heard footsteps running down the hall way, "Gerard?!" "Gee??!" I heard Frank and Mikey's voice enter the bathroom, but I refused to look at them. "Gee your hand!! Its bleeding really bad!" I felt a hand grab my face gentally and move it towards the owner of the hand, which happened to be my beloved Frankie. "Gee... What happened? Why-" Frank was cut off as Mikey held up a first aid kit "I found this, come on gee, sit on the toilet and I'll get ya cleaned up." I did as Mikey asked and thanked him, I then directed my attention to Frank. "I-I just... I don't know... I felt weak and i was sad and angry about what happened today and I just lost control I guess..." Frank nodded and grabbed my other hand, " its okay baby. I'm here, amd so is Mikey." "Yeah, don't stress big brother. We got your back like you got ours" Mikey tried to grin a happy grin, but i could tell both him and Frank were scarred and sad. Not scarred of me, but of what else could happen. After Mikey finished wrapping my hand, we all went back to bed.

The next morning went fine, waking up next to Frank probably played a role in my good mood. But as soon as we arrived at the hell hole, things changed for the worse. Word had gotten around about Jackson kicking my ass and apperently Jackson had heard Frank ask about my cuts, so now people werent just calling me faggot, they were also calling me "deressed freak" how fun. The whispering, the staring, and the name calling were getting to me. I was trying so hard not to let franky down but, I just.... I cant deal woth it anymore!  Frank doesnt deserve the harassment he's getting either. I knew what had to be done.

Frank's pov

I hadnt seen Gerard since homeroom and it was starting to scare me, when i didnt see him at lunch, I started to freak out. I grabbed my phone and called Gee, thinking maybe he wasnt feeling up to school today. There was no answer, my stomach dropped. I had a really bad feeling that wasnt going away and I knew it had to do with Gerard. I texted Mikey so that I could tell him what was going on.

(A/N Bold is Frank Bold italics is Mikey)

Mikey im worried about Gee. I havent seen him since homeroom and i have a bad feeling. Have you seen him sincr this morning?

yeah I saw him crying walking out of the school, I tried to run after him but Mrs. J stopped me...

Mikey he's been acting really weird... Have you noticed it?

Yeah... Tbh im scared he might do something bad.

oh shit... Mikey I think he's gonna try something. FUCK!!!

I put my phone in my pocket and sprinted out of the class room and ran as fast as I could to Gerard house. Frantically I banged on the door, when I got no answer I busted it open, not caring about the damage to my arm or the door. I loomed around the living room and saw nothing, so I ran upstairs to the bathroom where I hear a loud thud. "GERARD!!!!!" I screamed hitting the door "GERARD PLEASE!!"  I felt my self start to cry as I slammed the door open. I wish I had never opened that door.

To be continued

Hello loves! Its Emy here! I hope y'all liked the edited version better hehe. I'll be working on part two soon! Comment what y'all thought!!