Why am I such an unlikeable person? One minute I think I have a "best friend" and the next they hate my fucking guts. I annoy everyone I talk to and I can't even build strong, long lasting relationships. I wish just for once this curse will be broken and I get a friend who actually likes me and won't use me.

Maybe one day my wall of trust issues will be taken down and I can trust people again.

I just wish I can feel happy and normal without being high or fucked up. One day I hope I can open Up to someone without them turning on me. I know deep down this curse will be over and I can call myself a human being.

One of these days I will find out what's wrong with me. I will find out the reason why no one likes me and I will not be bothered by fucking bitches again.

--Amber