i wish you were the villain

you'd be easier to blame

for all stress, pain, and anxiety

maybe then i could stay sane

you've called me some words

that you thought i would disregard

because underneath a mask of indifference

are a lot of emotions  i guard

you say im mentally strong but im really not

im weak and bruised and broken and just really not

not at all okay, not at all fine

even when i say i am, its my biggest lie

the harmful words you throw at me attack me from all sides

then later you pretend that everythings just fine

you highlight my mistakes

always bring them up

you ignore my pains

pretending im insane

you tell me youre proud

unable to see im all fucked up

but youre not all responsible

most of its me when i cant handle the blame

ive come to multiple conclusions 

but only one is true

maybe we're all villains on the inside

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𝙰𝚞𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚛'𝚜 𝚗𝚘𝚝𝚎

hi yall

hows it going

𝚒𝚏 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚛 𝚗𝚎𝚎𝚍 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚘𝚗𝚎 𝚝𝚘 𝚝𝚊𝚕𝚔 𝚝𝚘, 𝚖𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚊𝚐𝚎 𝚖𝚎, im always here

(169 words)

"𝚕𝚒𝚏𝚎'𝚜 𝚐𝚘𝚗𝚗𝚊 𝚜𝚞𝚌𝚔 𝚜𝚘𝚖𝚎𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎𝚜. 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚕𝚕𝚢 𝚌𝚊𝚗'𝚝 𝚍𝚘 𝚊𝚗𝚢𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚎𝚡𝚌𝚎𝚙𝚝 𝚔𝚎𝚎𝚙 𝚐𝚘𝚒𝚗𝚐"