Jess's pov.

A/N- this chapter is going to be pretty long, but I'm using it to introduce Jess's dad better, and some new characters ;) Enjoy the story! 

I watched as Billie and her family drifted away when the car took off. I sunk into the seat and stared out of the window. My sight broke away when my dad's hand landed on my knee.

"It's going to be hard kiddo, but you're like me, you're strong. You'll get through it." He said, glancing at me then back at the road. I smiled at his ego and sent Billie a message.

To: Bil<3

Me: You're so beautiful Billie. I'll be back soon. I love you.

"So when were you going to tell me about you and Billie?" My dad questioned.

"Well, I didn't want to tell you over the phone. I was waiting until I saw you in person." I explained. 

"You look happy, Jess. I'm glad you've found a good person."

"Yeah, I was. I don't think we're anything right now. I can't do long-distance and it was so sudden, I just needed a break."

"Did Billie want to try the long-distance thing?" My dad asked.

"She was the one who initiated it."

"I think you should've at least tried, Jessie. You love her, right? I think you should talk to her about it." He proposed. 

I'll admit, I wanted to try with Billie. I mean, I did go months without talking to her, but it was different. Billie was worried about me so she felt like she needed to talk to me. I don't think she would've talked to me as much if she actually wanted to. 

I looked down at my phone, checking for Billie's name, but she left me on open instead of responding. What a mood dropper.

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My dad interrupted my thoughts when he started talking again.

"So, when we get there, there are a couple of people I'd like for you to meet!" He said, sounding overly hopeful and excited.

"Oh let me guess," I said sarcastically, earning an angered look from him.

"Erm... well, there's Lainey," He started, pausing slightly. "And then there's Adelaide." He said.

"Aw, you already have a new family?" I said, making sure he knew that I was pissed.

He already had a new fucking family and life in New York, and he wanted me to see them? And like it? Hell no.

"Jessica, no. I met Lainey at work and I really liked being around her. And when I found out about Addy, I liked her even more. I've missed having my little girl, and Addy fit the mold perfectly." 

Addy? He already called her a nickname?

"So I'm that replaceable? She fits the mold so well, right? Is she everything you've ever wished I was dad?" I bitched.

"Jessica, stop! Your mother-" I stopped him from talking.

"She was never my mother! She only stayed because she didn't want to be in jail! And when I was eighteen, she couldn't get in trouble! I'm an adult, I can legally live away from her and she would get away with it!" I yelled.

He stayed quiet, as the tension kept building up. He's already pissed me off. This was going to be fun. So. Fucking. Fun.

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After our one-stop flight, which took eight hours to complete, we were finally in New York. My dad didn't bring up his new female love interest or her offspring. I was glad. I liked it like that. Screw them for coming into his life. He needed me and I needed him, and I already fucking hated Lainey. Weird ass bitch. 

We picked up my dad's car after unloading from the airport and drove to his elegant villa-style home.

~The house:

When we pulled in a smile crept onto my face. This is where I'm going to be living? I could be chill with that. I just needed to ignore the new bitch and her (most likely) annoying ass fucking kid.

My dad stepped out of the car, me following when he was greeted with a short blonde child running to him.

"Daddy!" She yelled as he picked her up.

"Hi, Addy!" He grunted, easily lowering her.

Adelaide shied away from me, walking backward to her mother. I traced my eyes up and down Lainey's body, judging everything she had to offer.

"Hey, babe!" Lainey spoke, kissing my dad. I made a disgusted face that caught Adelaide's eye. She started laughing and made her way back, closer to me.

My dad glared at me, forcing me to come to introduce myself to his new family. I felt too out of place there. They knew nothing about me, didn't know what I do, or who I talk to, it was just weird and it didn't feel right.

"I'm Jess," I mumbled. Lainey's eyebrows frowned quickly, after realizing that I had to be her new daughter. I hate me too bitch, get in line.

"Well, aren't you something!" She said. I could hear the slightest bit of country twang in her voice, making me nearly laugh.

"Oh, just wait. You haven't seen who I really am, give it a couple of days, you'll want me out of this shithole in no time!" I said. My dad shot me a look of disappointment and annoyance.

"Jessica, we do NOT speak like that in this house. You aren't in L.A. anymore, you respect our rules now." My dad insisted. I snickered and nodded my head. Lainey stood in front of me, shocked. She quickly ripped Adelaide away from me. 

"Where's my room? I'm exhausted and I just want to be by myself?" I requested.

"Up the stairs, two doors down on the left," Lainey answered.

"Great meeting your family, dad. Sorry I don't like fit in or whatever. In case you don't remember, the only reason I'm even here is that your ex-wife killed herself, and you wanted me to be with you. I'll gladly go when you say the word. Goodnight." I spoke sternly. 

I didn't pay attention to anything else and went to my room. When I reached the proper place, I opened the door and flicked on the light. The room was a decent size, it was slightly bigger than the one I had in L.A. which pleased me. I loved big rooms. The walls were bald, making me feel unsettled. There was a huge window-wall in the front of my room, leaving me with a beautiful view. I pulled the curtains and flopped on the bed. I kept looking around and found a door that lead me to my own bathroom. Thank God.

The room threw me off. There was something not right about it. Whether it was the way the bed was sitting, or where the door was placed, I didn't know.

I laid down and stared at the ceiling. This was my new life. I was no longer the only child. I was the oldest. The one with all of the issues and responsibilities. My dad walked in and tossed my bags on my bed.

"What the hell was that?" He asked.

"Dad, I'm fucking tired! Mom is DEAD! I'm in New York instead of L.A. and I hate it! You have a new family, and I feel so out of place here! I want to be with Billie, and I want to be with Maggie! They were my real family!" I cried. My dad began to look mad. I rolled my eyes when he shook his head.

"Just sleep. Wash up in the morning and try to be respectful tomorrow." He said, exiting my room.

I changed into sweats and a sports bra. Then I realized it was the bed that was throwing me off. I shoved it to the side of my room where the window was. So every morning I could open the blinds and maybe fall in love with life again. 

To: Bil<3

Me: Hey, me again. Got to NY a little while ago and he has a girl and she has a kid. Adelaide. I cussed in front of all of them, so my reputation is already ruined. I like my bedroom, I have a window instead of a regular wall. I have my own bathroom too. And we have a pool. I hate it here. No matter what I have here, it's not the same. I fucking miss you guys. 

A little while later Billie answered.

Billie: My god, bro. Just come back, what the fuck am I going to do alone?

Me: I was thinking a little. Long-distance? Please?

Billie: What?

Me: I want to be with you. I don't want a break, I don't want to break up, I just want you.

Billie: You have me, Jess. Always will.

Me: I love you, Billie. I'm gonna sleep, I don't know if it's going to work but I'm going to try.

Billie: What time is it there bro? It's only like 6 here.

Me: Fucking nine

Billie: Jesus, okay, sleep well Jessie. Talk to me whenever you wake up <3

After Billie texted me, I dialed her number and facetimed her. 

"Whatttt?" She shouted, sounding annoyed.

"You're falling asleep with me, I just require you!" I justified.

"Fine!" She laughed. She was beautiful, but I could tell she had been crying. Her eyes were bloodshot and puffy. She beamed at me as I revealed my room, and eventually sat her down on my nightstand.

Maybe New York wasn't going to be so bad after all.

(How are we feeling about Will and Lainey?? Also Adelaideee;))