【CHAPTER THIRTY NINE】
ˋrunning away ˊ

: jaesahi special chapter #4

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“Are you really sure of going? He might see you there” Beomgyu worriedly asked his bestfriend.

As the final touch of his outfit, he wore his cap and looked himself on the mirror. He almost couldn't recognize himself, he was too covered.

“I am sure of this, Gyu” he answered his friend.

It's been a couple of months since Jaehyuk left the agency, leaving his handled artist alone.

As much as he doesn't want to leave, he just don't have the courage to face him like before after what he did. He was embarrassed of himself. He was ashamed of what he did.

That night was a big mistake and he doesn't want to destroy his image. He was afraid that the years of his hard work will just go to waste just because of his stupid feelings for him.

And besides, he likes Mashiho. What's the use of staying if he'll just hurt himself. He doesn't want to be loved just because of sympathy, just because he was the only person beside him and left him no choice but to love him.

Inside the 4 months, his feelings never changed. He even made secret accounts to follow his account to somehow become updated of him.

That's a stupid thing to do but imagine, almost 7 years beside him, he can't just leave him like that. He loved him even though he was just a normal extra actor before.

And now, he still loved the famous version of him, nothing changed.

“What if he finds you?” Beomgyu asked again.

Jaehyuk just smiled at himself on the mirror.

“Then maybe running is a good way to avoid everything” he said and bid his goodbye to his bestfriend.

“That guy likes to run away from his problems. Dang. Well, hoping that the celebrity guy would come and find him eventually” Beomgyu said as he looked at his friend exited the door.

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Jaehyuk reached the movie premier and luckily he got his own tickets to the movie. He was on the spot where he could see the red carpet, where he could see him.

The time has come and the actors who played the movie was getting called at the red carpet.

“Let's welcome our best second lead, Asahi Hamada. Please give him a big round of applause” the announcer said as he felt his heart was almost bursting.

Asahi was waving and smiling at everyone.

“He looks well and good” he said to himself.

He was drawn of staring at the actor not to realize that the actor was already looking on his direction.

“Fuck” he cursed as he immediately lowered down his cap and ran away from the crowd. It feels like his system went blank and he couldn't think of anything to do other than running.

“God, I hope he didn't see me” he was panting when he said that.

He can't stay there anymore, it's enough for him to at least see the actor and how are him right now. He was satisfied of admiring him from a far.

He decided to walk on a park nearby to clear and refresh his whole system. He found the benches empty and so he didn't waste anymore time and sat on one of them.

“He was doing fine without me” the korean sadly said on himself. Thinking the actor will not need him anymore.

“His foundation isn't a mess anymore” it honestly makes him sad remembering how he took care of his handled artist.

There's no denying that he missed him so much, more particularly his lips. He could still feel his lips at his even though he was drunk that night.

It feels like everything just happened yesterday. But look at him now, he kept on hiding and running away from him.

“He doesn't mess up with his tie anymore” he bittersweet said remembering how he would often tie his necktie everytime because he doesn't know how.

He doesn't even know where he was already heading when he heard the loud thunder roars. He even forgot his umbrella on the way here. He was too excited to see him.

He was just lost on his thoughts when suddenly he heard someone behind him.

“Jae..” his face immediately lit up, eyes wide when he distinguished the owner of the voice.

No, he was just hearing things right? It was not him.

He was convincing himself that he was just missing the japanese actor as he walked more faster, ready to run on his way home.

“Jae, please let's talk”

Very convincing bait but no.

He was about to start running when he was stopped by someone grabbing his arms.

At that time, the rain starting pouring hard that it only took him a couple of seconds before he got soaked from the rain.

“I am just imagining things. I am just imagining things” he convinced himself.

He heard someone chuckled as the certain someone finally pulled him causing him to finally faced the so called 'imaginary thing' he was hearing.

“Am I still a part of your imagination?” the blonde actor asked the former personal assistant.

He could feel the beads of tears forming onto his eyes. No one knows how much he missed those flawlessly carved face of his.

Thankfully, the cap was covering his eyes preventing the actor from seeing him bawl his eyes on tears.

“You should be on the movie premier”

“Let's talk”

“Sorry, I still have a lot of things to do”

“Than why did you attended the movie premier? Am I not the reason why you came?”

Jaehyuk was hella confused. He was really talking nonsense at the moment. As much as he liked him, he doesn't want to assume things, he knows it'll hurt him a lot if he does that.

“N-no, I came for... J-junkyu” he lied.

Oh c'mon, the lies were really obvious when he avoided his gaze.

“So I am really assuming things”

“What?”

The actor's dimples waved at him as he smile.

“I know you will come for me”

“I-I didn't..”

Again doing the thing he was good at, the former personal assistant avoided his gaze to ease the pressuring surrounding. On the other hand, the actor took the chance to stop and look at his man.

“When the management told me you left, I don't know but it pains me” the korean male gulped as he heard those words from him.

He was in pain that time because they were friends, maybe because the actor will lose the only friend he had when he left, he wanted to keep it that way.

“You know you're the only friend I had, the only person I can lean on. The only person I can tell my own thoughts with without thinking it was weird”

He knew it.

“I thought that was because we're friends. I don't want to lose my only bestfriend after what happened that night”

He felt the familiar pain on his chest, he had enough of that anymore. He doesn't want to hear the more painful words from him.

“S-sahi, sorry. I really need to go. We can talk the other day when I am not busy anymore” he was about to leave when he heard the youngem actor mumbled again.

“You'll run away from me again”

It feels like he cannot breathe anymore. The pain he feels in his chest just getting more heavier and heavier.

“I have been longing for you for the past 4 months”

The young actor slowly took a few steps closer to the korean, facing his back as he talk.

“I miss you, Yoon Jaehyuk. Stop running away from me please”

His face immediately lit up when he heard the words as he felt a pair of arms wrapped around his hips.

What is he doing?

to be continued..