(A/N: yep a certain part is inspired by this Gorillaz song :)

Y/N's POV:

It's been 3 days since I got here, my ribs had begun to pop out with ever look I took in the mirror. I hadn't eaten since the morning of the incident. I felt weak and fragile but I always just slept my sorrow away in Stuarts bed. His scent was the only thing helping me sleep, the only thing giving me hope to keep going. 

I hold onto stuarts pillow squeezing it to my chest as a couple tears slipped from my eyes. Whenever I'd talk to Russel, Noodle, and Stuart I would just pretend to be okay, I'd lie that I ate, I'd lie that I was alright. I didn't want them to worry about me. I feel so drained and tired of pretending that everything is okay. At the end of the day I'd always end up laying in stuarts bed holding onto his pillow just hoping that he will pop out of no where waiting for me to jump into his arms.

Stuart hadn't talked to me in some hours...actually the whole day.. the whole night he was gone. I started to think he had forgotten about me already. 

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I got myself up from stuarts bed and headed towards the elevator to go talk to russel for a bit, the loneliness was really getting to me now.

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"h-hey russ.."

"oh! Hey (nickname)! How are you? Everything okay?" Russel kindly asked

"oh...uhm, yea im doing fine.." I lied 

"That's great! Hang in there doll! I know you are strong enough." He said 

"yea..got it."

"Russ?" I questioned

"yes doll?" 

"Is Stuart around? Just thought it was a little weird how he hasn't talked to me.." I said looking down

"oh he hasn't talked to you?? He is actually in his room right now talking to Paula." Russels words made my heart sink. Stuart was there all along but he didn't want to talk to me. INSTEAD HE WAS TALKING TO PAULA?!

"oh. Is he sick or something?" I said trying to boost my mood.

"nope, he just got home from the corner store nearby." Russel said. My face dropped, I felt like my heart had broken into a million pieces. Stuart had forgotten about me already?! He's probably now fuckin Paula because he is bored. What the fuck is wrong with him?! I shake my head...I can't let negative thoughts flow in.

"oh-" Is all that came out of my mouth

"so he hasn't talked to you?" Russel questioned

"no..uhm, that's fine though. I'm fine! I need to go now Russ..talk to you tomorrow." I didn't even let russel talk back. I left the room instantly. I walked back with my head down. My breathing increased and my eyes began to water. 

"HE DOESN'T GIVE A SHIT ABOUT ME ANYMORE! I'M STUCK IS THIS FUCKIN BEACH WITH NO ONE. I AM GOING TO DIE HERE ALONE. I HATE MYSELF." I screamed as I ran towards the small hill with he manatee on it. I plopped my self next to the manatee and dug my head into my knees. 

"WHY STUART?! WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE LIKE THIS?! WHY DO YOU ALWAYS HAVE TO BREAK ME?! WHY DO YOU HAVE TO FORGET ABOUT ME SO QUICKLY?!" I throw a rock at the ocean as my legs dangle above the shining waters. The manatee stared at me with a melancholy look. I sniffed and cried again.

2D's POV:

"PAULA! I already told yew ta leave me alone!" I said while packing a small bag. She wouldn't leave me alone!

"Stu! Listen ta me!! I know what I did was wrong but can you please forgive me please!" Paula said almost crying.

"get out." I said while I packed the small bag ignoring her.

"STUART!" She said.

"I SAID GET OUT!" I gently shove her out of my room.

"STUART WAIT!" Paula throws herself on top of me and roughly kisses me on the lips and neck . I grunt and push her off me.

"P-PAULA! WHA' THA' FOCK?! Yew are so fockin' mental! Yew are mad! J-JUST GET OUT OF MY LIFE ALREADY! I-I-I HATE Y-YEW!" I yelled as I slammed the door. I didn't want to cry again. I was so sick of everyone. The lump in my throat began to form. I picked myself up from the floor and threw my backpack over my shoulder. I stood in front of my mirror and then sat back down on my bed.

I look at the floor.

"don't cry don't cry don't cry." I said to myself but my eyes began to water.

"dammit WHY AM I LIKE F-FHIS?!" I fall onto my pillow to wipe my faint tears. I clear my throat and pick myself up adjusting my small bag. I take a deep breath and head out my door. I was met with russel coming out of his room.

"so you really just forgot about her? She genuinely cares for you and you just leave her?" Russel said. At first I thought he was talking about Paula and I was about to cuss him out

"Y/n" He cleared his throat. My anger lowered. 

"w-wot are yew talkin' about?!" I said. That's where it hit me. I hadn't talked to Y/n this whole day. I run to the broken portal passing a crying Paula but I really didn't give a single fuck.

"y/n?? Luv? Are you there???" I question in a hurry.

silence.

"y/n???? Hello?? You okay luv??" I said

silence

"shit." I grab my head tangling my hands in my hair.

"Wow looks like I'm not the only one that disappointed her huh? You are just as "useless as me" Murdoc said chuckling.

"sod off! I-i-i-'m not." I said

"YOU ARE USELESS YOU PIECE OF SHIT! YOU ARE NOTHING BUT A WORKING VOICE BOX! THATS THE ONLY REASON SHE LIKES YOU! YOU ARE UGLY AND USELESS!" Murdoc yelled. I guess this was his way of "revenge" from last time. His words still hurt me though.

"YA ARE USELESS STUART!" Paula yelled from the couch with her makeup running down her cheeks. 

I couldnt handle it anymore, I ran out of the studio holding on my bag and got in the geep. 

"AY! COME BACK ERE! WHERE YOU GOING YOU TWAT?!" Murdoc yelled as I started the engine.

"I'm g-going to Y/n. I'm n-not useless." I said trying not to cry

"YOU ARE SO BLOODY STUPID!"

"YOU ARE GOING TO GET HURT D!"

I ignored everyone and drove off with tears in my eyes almost making it impossible to see the road. I speed my way down the freeway towards the end rear of London. That's where Plastic beach heads too. Nothing but a single lonely dark road. My shaky hand wiped my tears. Why do I even exist? I always just hurt people. Why am I like this?

(Song: 'Meanwhile' by Gorilazz🤍)

(Time stamps if you want: 1:22 and 2:02 )

"Yeah, it's just the same as I thought it would be~

When I was in carnival~
I followed your principal~"

I softly sang to myself thinking about Y/n. Singing always made me feel better.

"Do you really think I'd leave you?~
Meanwhile~"

Y/N's POV:

"So he really did forget me?" I talked to the ocean with puffy eyes.

2D's POV:

"Yeah, it's just the same as I thought it would be~
When I was in carnival~
Dancing on protocol~

Y/N's POV:

"stuart forgot about me."

2D's POV:

"Do you really think I'd forget you?~
Meanwhile~"

"Meanwhile."

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1,205 WORDS!! Ahhh this chapter was so touching🥲 I couldn't wait for tomorrow so I wrote another chapter today because I had so much motivation HAHA! New chapter again tomorrow!! I hope you luvs are doing okay! You guys can always talk to me! No judgement what's so ever!! Stay tuned!💙