Namjoons Pov

Two days had passed, and i was still over at Yoongis house. It was now december 4. I didn't want to leave, but i also couldn't dare myself to text Seokjin. I wanted to, but i couldn't.

I was cleaning the beer bottles on the floor from last night with Yoongi. We had talked a lot and ranted to each other about many things. Our parents, other friends, our thoughts, everything we felt like we couldn't keep in anymore.

Yoongi was making breakfast until we heard the bell ring. "Should i open it?" I offered, putting the beer bottles in the trash.

"I'm already done here, i'll open it." He blabbered out, still tired.

I began to clear the table to put the delicious breakfast down. It started to rain heavily, and i wondered why Yoongi was taking so long. I walked close to him and peaked out the door.

"This is the visit you said you had?" A freezing cold Seokjin said as he huddled in his hoodie.

"Namjoon are you okay with Seokjin staying for a while?" Yoongi whispered to me, in which i simply nodded, trying not to blush at the sight of Seokjin being there. He looked so cold, i just wanted to hug him eternally.

"Come on in!" Yoongi said with a smile. "Take any clothes from my room, you're completely wet." Yoongi whooshed him off and turned to me quickly.
"Are you sure you're okay Nam?"

I sighed. "Yes Yoongs, i'm okay don't worry." I patted his head sitting down at the table, attempting to eat.

Before i even took a bite of my food, Seokjin came out of the bathroom drying his completely wet hair. He looked so precious, Yoongi and him were basically the same size, so the clothes werent big or small on him, but he looked so pretty.

He had a white cuddly hoodie and light pink joggers with christmas socks. He's so cute i just want to squeeze him.

"Close your mouth!" Yoongi whispered to me as Seokjin whined about the pants being his and why Yoongi had them. Which started a funny argument between the two.

I looked at my plate as the two boys sat at the table with me. "Seokjin did you eat?" i impulsive asked.

He glanced at me in the cutest way possible. "Not yet, why?"

I smiled lightly and passed my plate of food to him. "Eat up!" My dimples showed.

Yoongi watched us both with an evil smile.

"Oh but..that's yours, isn't it?" He pouted.

"No no! I already ate!" I lied with a tender smile. "I served this just in case you hadn't eaten."

Seokjin smiled brightly and took my plate.

Yoongi mocked me while Jin wasn't looking, which i responded by crossing my arms and sticking my tounge at him.

"That's right!" Yoongi stood up after a few minutes of silence. "Seokjin it's your birthday today!" He exclaimed, I looked at Jin which looked completely confused. He checked his phone, probably for the date. "Oh would you look at that, it is." he dryly said and continued eating.

I stared at him for a while, and Yoongi frowned at him annoyedly. "Did you forget your birthday?" I asked while throwing myself in the seat and crossing my arms.

"I did." He said as he chewed. "I don't really like celebrating my birthday, it's just another day."

"It's not just another day we have to celebrate!" Yoongi screamed, startling us both. I laughed at him and Seokjin quietly joined me. "Yoongis right, we should celebrate!" I said with a bright smile, standing up and joining Yoongi.

"Agh...guys don't do this.." He looked at us with disgust, making me laugh quietly.

"We have to invite all of our friends! We're going to buy lots and lots of food and- Oh my god! should we rent a party house?!" Yoongi excitedly suggested, talking really fast. Me and Seokjin glanced at each other laughing at Yoongis dumb suggestions. Just looking at Seokjin made my heart speed up, i felt like i was going to pass out in any moment.

Seokjin jokingly groaned. "If you're throwing a party for me don't make it too big please, no more than ten people."

"You're no fun." Yoongi threw himself in the seat again crossing his arms. "Any ideas Namjoon?

I was too busy admiring Seokjins hands, but Yoongi woke me up and brought me back to reality. "A-Ah? Ideas for what..?"

"Ugh! For Seokjins birthday!" Yoongi yelled. Seokjin looked at me and laughed quietly, his cute eyes closing and his nose scrunching as he laughed. He's going to be the death of me.

"U-Uh.." I thought for a while but nothing came to mind. "Gosh! Namjoons in space, he won't be invited cuz he's not helping at all." Yoongi blabbered. I looked at him with an angry expression which made him chuckle.

"Let's change the subject then.." He began, looking at us evily through his eyelashes. This isn't going to be good, i thought. "How was your guys meet up at the wedding?" He smiled as he rested his head ontop of his hands.

I side eyed Seokjin awkwardly, which he did too at the same time. I knew i was blushing like crazy, and i felt embarrassed.

"U-Uh— It wa-" We both began at the same time nervously, we looked at each other once more now chuckling a little. Yoongi continued staring at us with an evil evil smile.

"It was okay." Seokjin said as he played with his spoon. "Super cool!" I awkwardly gave Yoongi a thumbs up. Yoongi began to cackle out loud, almost spitting his food in our faces.

"You guys are so awkward holy shit!" He yelled with his eyes wide open, still laughing.

"I shouldn't have stayed here." Seokjin said, covering his face with his hands.

Authors Pov

Many hours had passed, it was almost 5pm already and it continued pouring heavily, in the news they announced it was a thunder storm, and shortly after it began to thunder loudly. Seokjin had a big fear of thunder, which no one but Yoongi knew. At the moment Yoongi had decided to take a bath quickly just in case the power went out. That left Namjoon and Seokjin completely alone.

They both sat awkwardly, watching the news. Neither of them knew why they were still so awkward, they had talked already about what happened, and everything was clear already..So why did it remain so uncomfortable?

Namjoon went to the kitchen, and he took a long time. Seokjin kept flinching everytime it thundered. At this point he was shaking completely, laying down in the sofa.

Rumbling could be heard from the kitchen, Namjoon suddenly appeared in Seokjins view.

He held a small muffin with a pink lit birthday candle. "I know this isn't much bu- Holy shit are you okay?" He worriedly placed the muffin on the table and ran closer to Jin. He crouched and met Seokjins eyes, his eyes were completely soaked.

"I-Is it to late to say i have a fear o-of thunder..?" He nervously said, shaking. It thundered again, and Seokjins hands held Namjoons, gripping him hard.

"Ah Seokjin..." Namjoon said as he stood up, still holding Seokjins hands. "Come."

Namjoon sat close to Jin, allowing him to throw himself on his chest. Namjoons heart was about to burst, but he reminded himself he was just helping Seokjin.  Everything it would thunder Seokjin huddled up closer to Namjoon flinching harshly while gripping Namjoons shirt.

The violet haired boy began to caress his head slowly, making Jin feel slightly more relaxed, but it kept thundering which didn't help at all. "I-Im sorry for this Namjoon.." Seokjin said as he gripped Namjoon harder after the thundering got louder.

"Seokjin no don't say sorry, it isn't your fault." He caressed him more.

Less than an hour passed and the thundering stopped, it was still pouring, but the thunder had stopped, and Namjoon was happy for that. Seokjin kept shaking still though.

Jin attempted to sit down straight now, but Namjoon laid him back down slowly. "You can stay."

The blondie hesitated for a few seconds, but right after, he laid on the boys lap. Namjoon continued caressing him and a few minutes later Seokjin calmly fell asleep.

"I haven't even showered yet-" Yoongi began as he came of his room, he witnessed the pair and widen his eyes completely. He began to point at both of them with his mouth wide open.

Namjoon motioned him to be quiet so the boy didn't wake up, and he for once looked at Seokjin who slept peacefully. He smiled cutely, dimples showing as he saw the gorgeous boy.

"Ew nevermind that was cheesy." Yoongi said with his thumbs down as he walked in the bathroom.

Seokjins Pov

That was hell. I had just embarassed myself infront of Namjoon with my childish phobia, and not only that, i fell asleep on his lap?

I woke up to Namjoon caressing my hair as he watched TV with Yoongi, who sat on the floor.

"Seokkie you're awake!" Yoongi exclaimed, making Namjoon face me. I awkwardly sat down looking at both of them tiredly. "What time is it?" I asked as i rubbed my eyes.

"It's 9pm, you've been sleeping for four hours." Namjoons raspy voice answered, sending chills through my body.

"Seokjin we want to show you something." Yoongi suddenly said as he grabbed my hands and stood me up. "Namjoon cover his eyes!"

Namjoon made a shocked face for some reason, i then realized he'd be behind me, too close..

We haven't been so close since-

Shut up Seokjin.

Namjoon got behind, and before covering my eyes with his big hands, he whispered something close to my ear, literally almost my neck.

"This is definitely not going to be awkward at all." He chuckled embarrassedly as he covered my eyes Yoongi began to pull my hands.

"It'll only be awkward if you make it awkward Babe." I fired back, turning my head towards him slightly and then looking back at the front.

His hands began to heat up completely, which made me curious, i wanted to see his face. Is he seriously blushing? Does he blush with everything? Gosh..

We suddenly stopped, and i heard Namjoon giggle in my ear. Oh shit.

"Namjoon, you shall release  the beast!" Yoongi exclaimed, and Namjoon quickly took his burning hands off my face.

"Suprise!!" A bunch of people suddenly exclaimed.

Who the fuck are these people..

I only recognized Hoseok..but wait..

"What the hell is Jimin doing here?" I cockily responded, putting a hand on my hip.

"Aye don't be rude!" Jimin frowned like a child.

"Okey i did this for your birthday but it's more so you meet more people since you're antisocial as hell!" Yoongi exclaimed as he waddled over to everyone.

I nodded and jokingly rolled my eyes at him, Namjoon placed himself next to me crossing his hands. Yup, he's still blushing.

"This is Kim Taehyung, Namjoons cousin." Yoongi said as he backhugged a dark haired boy. "This is jungkook which you already met." Jungkook waved at me with a light smile. I smiled, remembering him, it was the guy that called me dog boy.

"Hobi which you already know." Yoongi giggled strangely as he squished Hoseoks cheeks. "And last but definetly not least.. your bestie Jimin!"

I rolled my eyes once again.

"He's taehyungs bestie, taehyung would've died if Jimin wasn't here." Namjoon spoke.

"Do they even go to the bathroom together?" I joked, but everyone stared at me as if that was normal between them. "No freaking way-"

"Anyways!" Jimin interrupted. "I hope we can get along." Said Jimin as he attempted to hug me. I hesitated for s moment but after a few seconds i hugged him.

"Taehyung is my boyfriend, he just doesn't know it yet." Jimin whispered in my ear, Namjoon definetly heard it, because as soon as Jimin backed away he looked at me and laughed cutely.

We spent loads of time together playing and goofing around, and i actually started to like Jimin for once. Everyone was really funny, and we got a long very well. At first, i guessed Jungkook was the most serious one, but he's the complete opposite. He is the youngest after all.

After a bit of thinking, i went into the conclusion that Namjoon is the most serious among us seven. He barely spoke, and just stared at everyone with genuine love. He really loved them.

Does he love m-

Seokjin what the fuck.

"Seokjins zoned out." Jimin giggled after drinking his 6th beer can. Taehyung tried making the wasted boy stand up so they could leave. "Let's goo mimiii."

"I'll take you guys since i didn't drink." Jungkook said as he took his car keys.

"Cuz you're a baby." Jimin giggled again. "In age and in brain."

"Times up shorty." Jungkook said as he helped Taehyung. Shortly after, they left.

I was really drunk too, i attempted to stand up and leave but i felt someone put their hands on my shoulders. "You can't go." His raspy voice said.

"Why not." I pouted like a child, crossing my arms.

"You're way too drunk Jinnie, you should go rest and tomorrow you can go home." He said, staring at me deeply.

"Jinnie?" I looked at him, he became red again. Why is he always blushing for fucks sake. I glanced at the couch, Yoongi had his head rested in Hoseoks shoulder adorably. "Do you ship them too?"

Namjoon tried to hide his smile miserable, he chuckled loudly and i joined him. "I mean..they don't look too bad together." We laughed again.

I received a call, and after seeing it was my mom i quickly excused myself. I went outside for some privacy even though Namjoon was yelling at me to be careful because it's dark.

"Hey." I tiredly answered the call. "Why are you calling me at this time?"

"I've been texting you for a while but you didn't answer." My mom dryly spoke. "I was just texting you to let you know most of the wedding is planned already."

I widen my eyes. I'd completely forgotten about me and Yoongi being fiancé's. I was drunk, too drunk. So i decided to do the worst thing anything a son like me would think of.

"Mom you're so fucking annoying." I drunkly responded to her. I quickly became scared as the silence built up in the call.

"Excuse me?" She said, she was mad mad.

"I don't want to get married!!" I yelled, i knew i was going to regret this in the morning, but i didn't care.
I've been sick of being scared of the person that's supposed to love me and respect me the most.

"Seokjin you are getting married and that's final." Mom replied, raising her voice now. "It's going to be good for the company-"

"Have you even cared of me?" I fired back. "About what i want?" She stayed silent, of course not. "You've never even thought of what i want right? You only care about yourself and your dumb company!"I yelled, tears filling my eyes.

I walked inside quietly as my mom stayed silent, i grabbed another beer and began to walk outside. I didn't know where i was going, i was lost. But i needed to see what my mom really thought.

"Seokjin..You know i love you..bu-" She finally spoke after a while, i quickly interrupted her.

"But?! But what mom? You don't care about me!" I started sobbing loudly as i reached a lake, it was really dark, i almost fell in, but i quickly sat down, knees in my chin as i cried harder. "But what?!? You care about your stupid company more than your own son? I'm sick and tired of trying to do everything to impress you! for you to love me mom!"

I could hear her crying, but i wouldn't stop until she knew everything.

"I-I've gotten bullied my whole life! I used to get beaten up by literally just freaking breathing! Do you know that?! Of course not! You've never cared for me at all!" I cried louder now. "You've always manipulated me..but this time..i'm not letting you manipulate me."

"Seokjin listen to me-"

"Don't ever call me ever again." I said, and before i hanged up, i decided to make it better. "By the way, dad has been cheating on you with Yoongis mom for 13 years now." I hanged up.

I felt badass after saying that, but i couldn't help but cry as i realized what i just did. I just screamed at her, and for once told her everything i felt. I promised myself i would never tell her anything, but i did. I cried harder.

I buried my face in my knees, i felt out of breath because of my loud crying. I sipped some more beer as i started shaking.

She hates me now. My mother hates me. 

Authors Pov

An hour has passed, and even though Yoongi told Namjoon to chill, he couldn't relax. Seokjin had left an hour ago to sit in the porch, and he wasn't there. He called him multiple times but he never answered.

"Did i miss a chapter or something? are they dating?" Hoseok asked Yoongi and Namjoon fidgeted and zoned out in his seat. "Namjoons crushing on Seokjin reallll hard." Yoongi drunkly said.

After a bit of silence Namjoon suddenly stood up. "That's it, i'm going to look for him."

"Man just sit down he'll come soon stop being a baby." Yoongi whined. Hoseok patted his head so maybe he'd shut up.

"Yoongi, what do you think a crazy pervert is going to do once he sees a really pretty boy that looks young as fuck at 11pm in the night!?" Namjoon yelled. "He could be in danger right now!"

He slid his lilac flip flops and walked out the door. It was already dark out , but he still decided to go on his path, he wouldn't let anything happen to Jin. He walked everywhere and nowhere. not even knowing where he was, he found a bench near a lake, where he tiredly sat down. The cristally blue lake shined preciously in the night, Namjoon stared at it for a while, feeling the urge to cry.

Namjoon suddenly heard weird noises, kind of like snuffling. Is someone crying?

He glanced around the whole are not spotting anyone, until..

He faced infront of him, there he was, Seokjin with his pretty messed up hair.

He jogged to the other side where Seokjin was, he was crouching, looking at himself in the reflection as he cried.

Namjoons Pov

I crouched next to Seokjin, and i saw him glance at me through the waters reflection, he got slightly startled, so i began to caress his back. "Jinnie..What's wrong? Why are you out here?" I asked worriedly, i wouldn't want anything to happen to him, it was way to dark, i need to stay with him.

"You must think i'm really pathetic now huh." He falsely laughed through sobs.

"Jin, of course not..tell me what's wrong! Maybe i can try helping..!"

He stayed silent for a while, until he threw himself completely in the ground, crying harder now. It broke my heart completely seeing Seokjin like this, i felt the urge to cry with him. I sat next to him and threw my arm around him, hugging him tightly. He got closer to him and laid his bad on my shoulder crying even more.

"H-Have you ever felt like..No matter what you do..you're just not good enough?" He suddenly spoke, and i wanted to cry even more. He didn't deserve anything that was happening to him.

"Unfortunately, it happens to me a lot..especially with my mom." I muttered as i looked up at the pretty stars.

Seokjin suddenly turned to me, face only a few inches from mine. He widen his eyes, and his hit breath entered mine, it reminded me of the wedding night.. I decided to ignore it.

"You have mommy issues too?" He wiped his tears, staring directly at me. I nodded with a fake smile and looked at the stars again.

"I guess we're the same." He laid on my shoulder again, this time wrapping his arms around my arm. It was cold, understood why he did it, i laid my hair on top of his. "Why does life have to be so hard Namjoon?"

I thought for a moment, wondering the same thing. "Pain brings growth Jinnie.." Was the only thing i said, it was from something i wrote a few years back, and i remembered it in the best moment. "We might not understand what happens now..but everything in life has a purpose."

Jim huddled up closer to me. "My favorite writer once wrote something like that."

I widen my eyes for a moment, could it be?
"W-What writer?" I asked, trying to act as normal as possible.

"He goes by the name RM." Seokjin said with a big smile as he stared at the lake. "He's never really showed himself or said his true name..but i truly admire him." I felt myself blushing harshly. "I've been his fan since a little after he started, when i was in my last year of university. I was going through a lot at that time, and i found that rkive account..and it completely changed me. It's like he gets me, i relate to him a lot, and his writing makes me feel safe."

My eyes started to water, i couldn't tell him i was RM, he'd be disappointed.

"I know him..his writings..Okay i guess." I said, hiding my smile.

Seokjin looked at me and playfully hit my shoulder. "How could you say his writing is okay!" He yelled, making me chuckle. "His writings beyond okay! It's...perfect!" He expressed, making my heart flutter.

After we both laughed for a while, i felt him staring at me. I glanced at him and there he was, staring lazily at me as he sipped a bit more of beer and throwing it back on the ground.

He just looked so precious..

He threw his head back and groaned loudly, and he suddenly stopped to look at me. I couldn't hold it in anymore.

I pulled him slightly to me and kissed him. The kiss was sloppy due to the amount of beer on Seokjins lips, but it made it even more perfect. He placed himself on top of me and kissed me back roughly. I moaned with every kiss.

I felt our breathing getting heavier each time. I dragged my hand inside his shirt, stroking his back slowly, my other hand remained in his neck.

He kept purposely jumping lightly on top of me, making me whimper, i've never felt anything like this in my whole life. I stopped for a moment, i could see his disappointed look. I smirked and began to kiss his neck rushedly, making him moan lightly, he threw his head slightly to back, allowing me to kiss his neck completely.

I rushed to his lips once again, our tongues playing together.

After a while..we stopped. He remained sitting on top of me, face still inches away from me.

"W-Why does this always happen to us..?" Seokjin said, more like a whisper.

I could tell he was still very drunk, i wouldn't do anything else, just incase he regretted anything in the morning. I wouldn't like to make him feel uncomfortable in any way. "Let's take you home, you're drunk.."

He got off me and stood up, i did the same.

We began to walked in an awkward silence. Jin broke it. "Are you gonna take me to Yoongis house or mine..?"

"I'll take you to Yoongi's, he drinks a lot so he probably has something  for your hangover tomorrow." I said.

We continued walking in silence.

When we arrived we both parted ways in the house, Hoseok stayed the night, he was in a sofa and Yoongi in the other. Me and Seokjin completely ignored each other and went to bed, without even speaking once.

I had never had such a good time while i comforted someone.