K imma edit this cause it probs makes no sense.

This was written some time ago when I was going through a rough time in my life.

I took out some of the names for privacy reasons I replaced the names. (Sorry I lied everyone's real name is in here)

Straight out of Jemima's notebook.

I'm so sick of this
I've had the last straw
I'm sick of this bullcrap
I can't take it anymore

Serenity Grace Williams
The girl I met in 5th grade that became my "best friend" not knowing she wouldn't earn that title anymore.

She'd change not for the better, but the worse

The Serenity I knew took my advice and trusted me, we were priorities in each other's life. We were basically the same thing, like sisters or twins from cause we were that close.

We called each other and acted like twins, teachers often mistook us for the other person.

In 6th grade everything changed slowly she pushed me far away. She critiqued everything I did whether it was just me being me (being happy smiley joyful playful) to correcting her flaws or trying to comfort her. She treated me like shit and I literally became her slave. I couldn't feel the joy I once felt with her anymore.

Back in 5th grade, we were always texting, or video chatting. And when we did, it was usually for hours. I can't do that anymore.

Now she gossips about me, she talks behind my back
At the lockers or walking down the halls I could hear her say one of these:
She needs to die
She's a f###ing liar
She sucks
She's such a gossip
She's apart of the gossip gang
She needs to go to hell
Why is she always happy

All these hateful words made me feel empty and hollow inside not only hollow but it made me feel hated like nobody cared if I died or not, I soon developed self hatred for me. But the thing was I stayed thinking that this was just a phase, thinking I should cut her some slack cause her grandmother was suffering from breast and some other cancer I also stayed cause I was afraid. Serenity was more confident then I was, I was afraid if I let go she would turn the heads of all my friends. Including Jafreisy, one of my best friends.

I felt so sick I just wanted to end it

At church I met a friend named Aliyah, she opened my blind eyes to see I couldn't see.

"I don't have friends, I have associates. If I have a friend then we've been through crap, that means you were always there for me. When you become over friendly, you get hurt easily cause you let everyone in, that doesn't mean build yourself a wall to not let anyone in, just take it little by little. Friends are always there for you whether they're best friends or friends they always find a way to bring your mood up, real friends text you back right away,"  Unlike Serenity who I would text and she'd respond 3 weeks later "friends have your interests at heart, when the relationship is one-sided where she's a priority in your life and you're not hers... it's time to let go" with these words of wisdom I boosted my confidence and separated my friends from associates whereas I no longer had "friends"
All though Jafreisy, Anthony and Nicole remained my best friends cause I can always count on them. I completely cut Serenity from "friend" I was so done with her. Although I didn't tell her straight to her face right away since I was still gathering courage.

Finally I told her. I felt good. In the beginning I  decided not to forgive her cause why not? but in the end I did forgive her ♡70×7♡ i still kinda hold a grudge against her but I pray the Lord would help me forgive her entirely.