53 Ganymede

At first glance, nobody would be able to tell that Nathaniel Jean had a problem. Or second glance, or third, or fourth. After all, he had everything. He was a captain of his school's soccer team and one of the top players in the state. He had a big house and money to spend. He had family, he had friends, he had fun, he had faith. He never meant for it to happen. He never wanted to look at another man in the way he should have been looking at a woman. The idea had disgusted him for most of his life - living in a heavily Catholic town with heavily Catholic parents, homophobia was the only response he knew. That didn't change when he first realized that he didn't like girls. No, Nathaniel Jean was still homophobic. He hated the idea of a man sleeping with another man. He was raised on the notion that all gays went to hell, and he believed it. He despised them, and so he despised himself. Nathaniel Jean was more fortunate than most, because help did arrive for him. Help by the name of Lucas Morgan, they boy he'd always known but never known. The boy with big dreams and bigger talent. The boy that changed Nathaniel's life over the course of their thirty-six week long senior year.

[[Book 2 (FINAL book) of "One Lifetime is Never Enough"]]"I would have waited for you forever." The lament of a faraway voice that she had missed - that she had been longing to answer to - echoed in her mind."But, you are no longer here."The despairing sigh was a muted murmur - clawing at her, begging for her to respond.But she was there, here, wherever the voice was. But then again, she might as well was not. She could no longer see, could no longer reach him. The voice sounded so near, but it was also as far as another world she could no longer be in.Nevertheless, she could still feel, in the darkness that was cradling her non-existence; the agony she felt in her non-beating heart, in her dormant soul, it was all due to her longing.For the owner of the voice. For him.The voice kept begging in agony - tormenting her, tormenting himself. And she could not do anything."Please wait for me.""Please remember me.""Why... why can't I see you?""Won't you wait for me?"-----------------For you, I will wait for eternity. This time, I will wait.This time, it is my turn to wait.So please, please just let me find you. Please, be there when I find you.Please, tell me that you are still mine. That I still exist, perhaps not in your memory, but etched in your very soul.Like you have been deeply engraved in mine, lingering like a beautiful illness I will gladly bear and succumb to.Because, I will search to all corners of this world, and wait until the end of days. For you.Because, this world will always be wretched without you.And then, I will always, forever, bloom. For you.-----------------

"Little Valerie," said Kai, bending closer to me. "Are you blackmailing me into dating you?" He didn't seem particularly disturbed by the notion. In fact, he remained completely amused."Yes?"Kai grinned. "Very mafia of you. I'm weirdly kind of into it."***When Valerie Williams discovers that her long-term boyfriend is sleeping with her best friend, she devises a revenge plot to get back at them both. But when she asks bad boy Kai Delaney to pretend to date her, she never thought her heart would be on the line. ***Self-proclaimed pessimist Valerie Williams is definitely your glass-half-empty kind of girl. However, Valerie is surprisingly optimistic when her (ex) boyfriend cheats on her with her (also ex) best friend.Valerie doesn't believe in holding grudges; she believes in getting even. Which doesn't seem easy, until her boyfriend's least favourite person and her best friend's long-standing crush, the sarcastic, cocky and popular bad boy extraordinaire Kai Delaney crashes, quite literally, into her life. When Kai accidentally hits her car with what is practically a monster truck, and can barely afford to cover it, Valerie has an idea. If Kai agrees to pretend to date her, for long enough to make her boyfriend and best friend regret their actions, Valerie will give him the duration of their scam to pull together the money to pay her back. Revenge is a dish best served fake.[150,000-200,000 words]

"Look at me" He demanded. I flinched at the tone he used but lifted my head to look at him. I stared at the wall behind him. I couldn't look at him. "Into my eyes" He added in the same tone. I took a deep breath and landed my gaze on him. I saw a ghost of a smile form on his lips. He seemed happy but I could see his eyes watering, making his inky blue eye color appear lighter. "You never look at me" He whispered. I could hear a crack in his voice. "Before you I thought I was nothing-" He smiled bitterly, "-but when you look at me I feel like I'm worth something. Weird right?" My heart was beating loudly as he got closer. This is a spin off for Nate from 'Her Guardian'. It can be read as a stand alone but you canread the previous book if you want to get a better understanding of the story

Once you were my everything and once I was your everything. Later you were my everything and later I was your nothing.

Poems that hurt or heal the soul

Miss Perfect, Courtney Collins, has everything a teenage girl could ever wish for. She has the Pretty Face, Perfect Figure, Popularity, Fortune, Friends who follow her every command and a Super Hot Boyfriend who's madly in love with her.Ultimate Geek, Chad Treyson, is a typical teenage boy who only wish for a peaceful senior year. He is the Smart Guy with goofy eyeglasses, wears lousy shirts, grade conscious, living a normal lifestyle, a musician and a certified bookworm.Put the two together and set a game.A game of love. Who fell in love first will lose. If Miss Perfect falls for the Ultimate Geek, is she willing to leave her spotlight just to be with him? And if Chad falls for Courtney, is he ready to deal with lots of drama and attention?Who will win and who will lose? Is it the Beauty or the Geek?

Evelyn a 16 year old girl who lives in India with her nonna. Join her life with how she finds out about having a family not some ordinary but a huge mafia family. Also a certain grey eyed french men whom she catches the attention of.