The worst feeling I ever had is when I don't find you near me.

Weiwei was sat on her bed with a solemn expression. Renjun was out digging out some of the rival gang's information.

Her left leg was constantly bouncing, because of how nervous she was. Her hands already balled up in fist. She was also biting her bottom lips, a habit of her whenever she was in deep thoughts.

From her posture anyone could say she was tensed. Exactly what was she tensed about??

It was always about Haechan now a days.

Because Weiwei thinks Haechan is possessed. He isn't normal anymore. Before whenever they met, they would always fight in normal situation, but now, he simply avoids her as if she is a plague.

Even if Weiwei tried to converse, he would brush it off and go away, not giving her a chance to ask what was the problem.

The last time she had a good chat with him was at the rooftop, when she hugged him and said he was her gaurdian angel.

3 consecutive days have passed and it was eating her up, not able to talk with him.

She hadn't realised it yet, but now as she thinks, she fells lonely without him.

There was surely something that was making her feel so enchanted. She was falling way too deeper and way too fast for him.

Was it even healthy to go this fast??

It had been only 2 months since she came here, and she had already fallen so hard. Would she look like a fool if she shares her feeling with someone.

Different questions had corrupted her mind. Why was he not talking with her, like he did usually? Why was he ignoring her? Did she made a mistake? Why?

She was very anxious, even if she had feelings, she was okay with him. Because he was there, although bickering at least she had a peace in mind.

But now, nothing is same... Not talking with him, everytime seeing him looking at her and leaving the place, made her feel terrible.

Should she go talk with him?

Weiwei heaved a frustrating sigh. Her hands moving from her lap to her side, clasping the bedsheets under her hold.

"Like why?? Did I do something wrong? Why would you suddenly behave like that Haechan? You're making me fucking crazy!!" Weiwei muttered as she got up from the bed, ready to go out and interogate him.

She was confident she would clear the misunderstanding but when she saw Haechan, she  forgot everything.

Haechan was leaning on the wall, panting heavily, as if he came back from a heavy job. He was still in shorts, maybe he came from the gym.

His back pressed against the wall, sweat running down from his forehead, jaw and lastly traveling to his chest.

Weiwei gulped a huge bile of saliva, before coming forward. Her heart was thundering inside her ribcage, making her conscious of the situation she was in.

Her small fists already clutching the material of her shorts in nervousness. Weiwei took a deep breathe calming her inside before walking forward.

But as she was only a step away, his eyes snapped open. His eyes started at her.

She felt he was looking through her soul.

Because of the look he was giving made her  breathing became more ragged, she felt the air in her airways was restricted. The oxygen suddenly decreasing.

She felt choked. Her hands coming up to her chest, she was about to fall down but a hand came stabilizing her.

Haechan forgot every thing he planned to stay away from her at that moment.

He held her up, as she desperately tried to breathe. Quickly hosting her up, with his one arm around her shoulder and and the other one under her knees.

He carried her back to her room, practically running to reach there.

As he reached there, he kicked the door open, and went further inside making her lay on the bed.

Haechan tried to remember where he saw the inhaler, last time when he visited Renjun's room.

Yeah the drawer beside the bed, he quickly opened it and dug his fingers between the different things kept there.

"A small blue bottle like thing!" Haechan mumbled as he searched the whole drawer, finally finding the inhaler, he went to Weiwei.

Weiwei was still clutching her chest and taking in large amount of air, to stop the restriction. Her eyes were already tearful, as she had closed it tightly.

Haechan held the inhaler in front of her mouth as his mind started ringing seeing her condition. "Weiwei, baby look at me."

Weiwei opened her eyes, her eyes red as she had applied too much pressure, tears still evident. She opened her mouth and took the inhaler, breathing as much as she could.

Finally when she calmed down, she looked at Haechan who stood there with concern written all over his face.

He truly warmed her heart, it felt so nice inside now. A smile immediately making its way on her lips.

"You were worried?" Weiwei asked softly, as she was yet to regain her same strength and voice.

"Of course I was worried you idiot. Why would you suddenly start chocking huh?? I was so fucking scared, what if I didn't find the inhaler in time???" Haechan was really very worried, he was almost on the verge of tears.

Weiwei had a big smile on her face as if she won a lottery. "I wanted to see that concern. It's all thanks to my asthama, that I saw it!"

Haechan narrowed his eyes at her. He tilted his face, his chiseled jawline on display, as he stood up from his place. "But you scared me!"

"Sorry, but you were ignoring me and I really don't know what I did. So please enlighten me with the mistake I made." Weiwei spoke as her was snobby.

She held out her hand and held his wrist, swinging it. She looked like a lost child at that time. "Please!"

Haechan looked at the tight hold on his wrist and then his gaze travelled to her face. He would soften at it, but it wasn't good.

"You made a very big mistake when you came into my life. You shouldn't have fucking done that. And  you shouldn't try to get close to me, even if it's just friendly. You would regret it at the end. I'm already fucked up, so please don't mess my life more!!!" By the time Haechan finished he was fuming in rage.

But the rage wasn't directed towards Weiwei, it was for him. He was angry at himself, for making her cry.

With that he shrugged off her hand and left the room, leaving a disoriented Weiwei alone in the room.

She felt as if her heart broke into several pieces and she could even hear it breaking. Everything was being torn apart inside of her.  The gut wrenching, felt too much.

"I'm already fucked up ,so please don't mess my life more!!"

It echoed inside her mind.

Was all that she was feeling a lie. Maybe only she was the one who suddenly started having feelings for him. While he doesn't. It's all her fault.

But nothing felt wrong accept for the sudden calmness inside her. And the feeling of something missing, an empty space inside her heart.