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you don't think I notice
the way you harshly flinch at her touch
or notice the fake smile
plastered upon your face
taking in every subtle criticism
every pretentious act of affection
the reasoning for the internal seething rage
that sets your heart afire
burning flames of hurt, envy
and all that comes inbetween
yet not a single pleasant emotion
prevails inside that same heart
especially not for her.

the longing for the goodnight kisses
as a young child
far too young to acknowledge
when that was what you didn't receive
instead receiving
ceaseless slanders
harsh remarks
reprimanding you
of how much a failure you are
all you crave for is a presence
a mother's serenade
well, she's here
not emotionally now, is she ?

it's so damn obvious
because darling i've been there before
y'know, when she says
how your blood is the same
how you share the same strands of DNA
you know that's hardly the case
besides, you're both far too different to care.

- aki.