⠀MINI ❤️⠀

me  •⠀ 17:13
im coming over to yours in a couple minutes
i wanna talk to you :3

17:18⠀•  MINI
oh, ok!
see you in a bit then!

Soobin sighed as he got off the bus. Something was off with Minjae. He'd seemed so out of it for a while now, distracted by something. 

But that wasn't what had made Soobin suspicious - because, hey, everyone has bad days and bad weeks, it's normal! 

It was the rumors at campus that had spawned the suspicious thoughts. And the small things in Minjae's actions just added to the mess. 

Soon he'd reached the door to the others' apartment and he knocked on the door. 

"Hi! Can I come in?"

Minjae looked kind of anxious and he quickly shook his head. "We can talk here! I'm kind of in a hurry, so if we could make this quick that'd be great!"

"Oh... uh, yeah, sure..." Soobin replied as he looked over the others shoulder.

Was that... a flannel? On the couch?

"So? What did you want to talk about?"

"Ah... well, is there something going on with you, Minie?" Soobin said, lightly chewing on his lower lip as he searched for a reaction in Minjae's face. He looked troubled.  "What..? No?"

That reply came just a little bit too quickly. 

"You can tell me anything, if I'm doing something wrong or if you're going through something, just tell me. I want to be here for you and I just want you to be honest.."

"Baby what are you even talking about?" Minjae carefully put his hands on Soobin's shoulders, and the taller reluctantly let them stay there.

"You've been so... so off for such a long time and I just... I just feel so lost, I never know what's going on with you but right now, I know that something's wrong. Can you please just tell me what's going on?"

This time, the reply took longer. Which gave Soobin time to properly look around in the apartment behind Minjae. 

There were two glasses and two plates on the kitchen island, and there was a flannel that definitely wasn't Minjae's on the couch. Just as Soobin's eyes had made their way to another set of sneakers standing by the door Minjae replied. 

"Soobin, baby, I honestly don't know what you're talking about! I've been trying to think of what it could be, but I don't know. Of course I'd tell you everything, but there's just n-" 

Soobin interrupted him. 

"Then just tell me the truth Minjae-ssi. You're... you're seeing someone else, right?"

"No, Soobinnie, how did you even get that idea? I'd never in a million years cheat on you!"

"Then who's shoes are that? And who's flannel is that? And why do you have two plates out?" 

"Soobin, baby..." 

Minjae tried grabbing Soobin's cheeks, but this time he pushed his hands away. He didnt want the other to touch him. 

"I should've known... I didn't want to believe it, but of course it's actually true. Fuck, Minjae, I actually thought you were the one for me..."

"Soobin, for real, I'd never do something like that. Especially not to you. You're my one too, okay? I love you!"

"Oh for fucks sake Minjae! Just admit it already, you've been seeing someone else right? You know exactly what I'm talking about, so please just stop playing dumb. Just tell me the truth, everything they've said is true, isn't it?"

He was silent for a moment, for just a little too many seconds. "No, no, of course it's not!"

"Who is the black-haired hottie everyone keeps saying they've seen you with out in town? Just tell me."

"I... Okay, okay, shit... I'm sorry!"

Soobin could feel the tears coming, but he blinked them away. He couldn't cry, not right now and not right here. 

"Yes, I've... I've been seeing another guy. But he doesn't matter to me! He's a nobody, he doesn't matt-" 

"I should've known that you were just... too good to be true. A relationship lasting for two fucking years and still working out is just way too good to actually be a reality, isn't it?"

"No, I can explain! I'm sorry Soobinnie, I still love you! I just... we can still stay the same, I'll still be your perfect guy! I still love y-" 

Soobin couldnt bear to hear more. It was too much. 

He slammed the door shut and started sprinting down the stairs and towards his apartment. The tears finally made their way out as he reached the pavement outside Minjae's apartment complex. 

Even though Soobin lived a couple of blocks away, he ran all the way there, this whilst on and off crying. 

After what felt like a few minutes but probably was way longer, he reached his apartments door. With shaking hands he unlocked it and went inside.

He threw off his shoes, grabbed a trash bag from a kitchen drawer and started going around in his apartment, throwing everything that belonged to Minjae into it. 

He'd burn it, yeah, that was good. He'd set his things on fire, throw them away... give them away? Yes, that was even better. Minjae had some good things, he could give it to a second hand shop. 

Soobin tried drying his tears as he stuffed everything into the bag, but it was helpless. They just kept coming back, so eventually he gave up on it. 

He could cry, it was okay. 

"Fuck you... you- you massive idiot... I hate you..." he mumbled to himself as he walked through his apartment, searching for things given to him by that asshole or for things that actually was just the others. 

Soon enough, he got back to the kitchen - thinking he'd gotten everything even slightly connected to Minjae out of his way, but that was when he noticed a picture he'd put on his fridge. 

It was of him and Minjae, on a date at an amusement park. It was from last year. 

He quickly took it down from the fridge and just as he was about to rip it in half he remembered that day. And every other good memory they'd shared. And it all just hit him again. 

How long had Minjae been cheating on him? Was this unknown flannel owner the only other guy? Why did Minjae cheat on him? What had he done? Was it his own fault?

He slid down in front of the fridge and started sobbing, holding the picture to his chest. 

"I still love you..."