02. BUCKET LIST

The keys fell from Ran's hand as he aggressively pinned you on the wall the moment the door allowed the both of you to come inside Ran's condominium.  

Using his feet, he kicked the door close and with his hand, he lifted your chin and made your lips touch. Soft skin grazing each other and small flickers of tongue made you close your eyes, grabbing on to his shoulder for support.

He deprived you of both space and oxygen, explored the inside of your mouth, kissing you until he knew what you taste like. He lifted one of your legs and circled it across his waist, moving his body closer to yours. Chest and crotch touching.

"Wait..." you finally said as he released your lips, swollen and wet. "Let me breathe for a second."

He did listen, but he was just there, holding you with his strong arms, a pair of eyes focusing at your face, as if counting your sighs. 

It wasn't uncomfortable, it was just a bit embarrassing having his beautiful eyes lingering on your face. 

It hasn't been a whole minute since he started kissing your neck, a hand pressed on the wall on the side of your face to assist his weight while you wrap your other leg on his waist, completely giving yourself into him.

You can't deny his touch feels so good. Gentle but at the same time rough. Intense and passionate.

"Fuck, Y/n, I don't think I can wait." He grunted, practically trying to rub himself to you, and of course, you feel the same way. Hands on his hair, aggressively pulling him closer despite having zero distance at all.

"Don't wait. Just do what you want with me."

Detaching himself from you for a moment to look at your face felt like years, then he smirked. "I'll try my best to not make you scream too much." 

Without second thoughts, he ran towards the bed with you in his arms. In a blink of an eye, he already threw you towards the mattress, bouncing from the impact. He then hovered on top of you, immediately pining your wrist above your head.

He stared at you longingly, blinking at the sight of your flushed cheeks. "I love you... is that what we're suppose to say before we start fucking each other?"

Your eyebrows furrowed, completely confused by his action. Now is not the time to think about things like that. "Okay, I love you too, so stop ruining the damn moment. Kiss me."

Ran smirked, pressing his lips against yours. 

It felt amazing on many levels. It was wrong but at the same time so right. 

What was so right with kissing your ex's brother a few hours after you've seen each other again after 5 complete months? But what was so wrong listening to the call of your flesh?

Everything is ending anyway. No one will know.

—

"How about a bucket list?"

"Bucket list?" Ran groaned, moving from his bed to face you who's sitting on his couch.

You're already wearing his shirt which is absolutely large for your frame, while he's still on his own bed covered with nothing but the soiled blanket. His hair was still a mess and back covered with your love scratches.

"Yup. I don't think we'll fall in love with just sex."

Ran sat up, pulling the blanket with him. He eyed you and noticed a few hickeys engraved on your neck and all over your slightly exposed chest. He smiled at it.

"Okay, then. What are yours?"

You stood up, grabbing a piece of paper and the pencil from your hair a while ago. "Go dress up first and we'll write our list together."

"As you say so."

Once he finished wearing his clothes, he sat down beside you. You then gave him his own piece of paper and a pen.

"There, write down 7 things you'd like to do within the remaining 2 weeks." 

Instead of complying, Ran placed his chin on top of his palm and stared at you, practically trying to melt you. "But tell me how I did. Was it good?"

"...What the fuck?"

"What?" he raised a brow, acting innocently. "How did I do? Felt good?"

You bit down on the insides of your cheeks. Fine. You had to admit that. Every place that he touched felt like burning, every space that he kissed and lick tingled. It was good, perfect even.

Midway you even felt like you're about to pass out, good thing you held out until the end, until he was satisfied.

with a blush creeping on your face, you nodded. "Fine, you did great. Wow, you're such a bed expert."

"Haha, no need to be jealous, princess."

You knotted your forehead at the familiar pet name, "Princess?"

"Yeah, you're my princess from now on."

You sighed. There's no way you'll tell him that it was also how Rindou calls you from time to time, especially when he's on a good mood or before bed time.

The problem is, hearing it from Ran's lips sounds very different and so loving. 

Princess.

"You're so cheesy. But anyways, let's go back to the bucket list. Write 7 things you want to do before everything crumbles. We'll try to fulfill everything!"

"Why seven?" he asked, playing with the pen in his hand.

"Because it's the lucky number? Just write it down, you ask too much."

"Isn't that the point of falling in love? You talk to each other, get to know more and talk again to be understood. Am I wrong?"

"...You know so much for someone claiming he hasn't felt any love."

"Haha, I really just want to keep talking to you. and come to wonder why Rindou decided to end things with you. I mean, there's so much more to you that isn't worth letting go."

No matter how hard you want to keep looking at the male, you avert your gaze, "Nah, we're both cowards. i'm worth letting go, after all I was the one who decided to call it off. I mean— i can see that he's not happy with me anymore."

"...You never know what he thinks."

"But do you think your brother is lonely right now?"

Ran felt like he shouldn't have said anything about your relationship with Rindou, because now he's the main topic and the name that always comes out of your mouth. He lowkey hates it. But what else is there to talk about?

He sighed, picking up the pen he dropped earlier. "Fine, I'll write my bucket list."

"Yay, that's the spirit, Haitani Ran!"

The both of you began to scribble. From time to time, he'll ask about what you're writing but you decided to keep it a secret until you're both done.

"Are you done?"

"Hmm, not yet." he ruffled his hair and bit the end of his pen, looking at you for help. "I don't know what else I want. I'm missing one item."

You adjusted your seat and handed him your paper, "There, read mine first so you can have an idea."

He took the paper from your hand and his eyes immediately raked over it, pupils moving. Once he's done, he glanced at you then dropped his gaze to continue writing.

"There." 

"You done?"

He nodded as he handed you over his own.

"Should we read it aloud?" you suggested and ran nodded with a smile, leaning on the couch. "I'll read yours first."

"Go ahead."

"First, you want to go bungee jumping without a safety harness... isn't this just a death wish?" you clicked your tongue.

"Come on now. It'll be fun, though. If we die, we die. We'll just go a bit earlier than the rest of the world."

"Second, you want to— Ran, you're seriously the horniest human being I have ever met!" you grumbled, staring menacingly at a piece of paper.

"What? I just want a public sex. Nothing too extreme."

"Nothing too extreme my ass. And it really specified my name here, huh? Wow."

Ran chuckled, looking at you adoringly. "We're gonna die anyway, if ever someone saw us, they'll forget about it or rather everything will disappear."

"What a nice reason."

"Anyways, I'll read yours. it says here that you want to go on a date— are you that simple?" the male scowled, eyeing you suspiciously. "Haven't you gone on a lot of dates with rindou?"

"That's different. Also, can we not mention your brother? We're trying to fall in love here. Hello?"

Somehow, that made Ran's chest warm. "Yeah, you're right. You and me, let's fall in love."

"Next item."

"Hmm, say here that you want to ride a ferris wheel with someone special— and I'll assume that's me?" Ran's cocky smile once again flashed on his lips.

"Yeah, that's you, who else?"

"I love you." he blurted out with a smirk catching you off guard. "Say it back."

"I love you, Ran."