I want to believe that I'm not upset, I mean, I'm not...but what is that feeling in me?

 Why does it bother me to know that Hongjoong doesn't even mind stopping his "cold" side and just tell me that I mean something to him?

 For a reason he kissed me, for something we've been friends all this time, for something...for some reason, I began to consider him as someone who I can rely on.

The rest of the day, we remained uncomfortably together, after our heavy conversation near the pool we went to where my siblings were next to my parents on the beach and spent the rest of the afternoon next to them, barely exchanging glances with each other, yet still keeping the not-so-noticeable tension towards each other.

--It was a pleasure to have you today Hongjoong, you should come with us again--said my mom as the younger was saying goodbye to my family while leaving the car. 

-- Thank you very much, Mrs. Park, the pleasure is mine--he said before the car started again back to my house, I let out a sigh of relief while the rest of the way my dad reminded us of the rules before entering the house.

《...》

It was Tuesday in the afternoon, the night would fall at any time and the cinema was full of people, among them, Yeosang, Yunho, Mingi and I.

Because we haven't gone out together in a while, my smile couldn't be erased, we seriously missed each other and even had already planned to hang out again on Friday, as the parents of Yeosang would travel for work.

 --I can't believe they made us wait all winter for this, it was supposed to be the movie of the year!-- Mingi exclaimed as we left the darkroom once the film was over. Yunho and I, who were enjoying our popcorn, just smiled at our friend.

 -- The 1-minute trailer was better than those two hours we just wasted.--Yoesang sighted.

-- You might have missed half the movie if you went to the bathroom.

 -- I know, first time I go to the bathroom before a movie and look how it turned out.-- The tall black-haired one pouted. 

-- Yeah, the more you suffer from something that doesn't make sense, let's get some ice cream before you depress me more.-- I interrupted by standing next to the two of us. 

-- Hyung! Are you inviting us?-- Yunho asked excitedly, rolling my eyes with a smile.

 -- You paid for the food after all, didn't you?

-- Woah! Hyung is the best--Yeosang exclaimed loudly as he walked laughing with Mingi about every strange idea that came to them.

The four of us, once with our cones in hand and the money paid, decided that walking was better than sitting on the spot.

-- So, Mingi-ssi's birthday is coming up.-- I remembered with a small smile.

-- I asked my mom to let me dye my hair, long ago that want to change it--the mentioned scratched his head, slightly ruffling it.

-- Really? But you just finished school, it's impossible for your mom to allow it.-- Yunho raised his eyebrow.

--For the same reason she said "no" just as soon as I finished telling her--Mingi admitted blushing, causing a small laugh between the three of us.

-- Anyway, it would have to be a discreet color to begin with.

-- Yeah, but I was already thinking of a color.

-- Which one?

-- Red, apple red--he said with a big smile, yet I was shocked, memories of the red-haired boy coming to my mind suddenly, but I had to disguise it with a nervous smile.

-- Yah, but that's nothing subtle-- I joked trying to make him change his mind. Fortunately, Yunho and Yeosang followed me while the younger tried to defend himself.

And so we continued the rest of our time together, until we all had to go home.

-- Goodbye hyung, I see you on Friday, don't be late, eh!--Yeosang waved his hand from a distance on his bike.

I let out a sigh as I walked home, being greeted by my dad and sister on the couch, they were watching a movie.

-- Hey, I thought you'd call me to pick you up.-- My dad said.

-- Nothing, I forgot to tell you I was coming back with the boys, I'm sorry.-- I left my shoes at the entrance and noticed something was missing in the atmosphere--And mom?

--Went out with Youngie, they must be back soon.-- Miyeon explained while stretching.-- Go take a bath, you're starting to smell--she cringed before throwing herself back in the chair.

-- Dad, noona's starting over. 

--Yah, I was just telling you the truth--she replied, then looked at my dad with innocent eyes.--Dad...

 -- Aish, just go and bathe, and you, watch your words, young lady.-- He rolled his eyes, clearly already irritated from the typical fight that didn't let him watch his series in peace. 

Miyeon and I stuck out our tongues before I walked up the stairs to my room, crossing a frame I hadn't paid attention to before at my nightstand. 

His red hair contrasted with mine, it was noticeable because he was close to me and our smiles explained the emotion of the moment; it was when we went to use the Tteok-bokki coupon that he gave me. We took the photo with his polaroid camera and he gave it to me when he left me at my front door...stupid, you're so stupid. 

The sound of the house door rang and I knew it was time to get out of my thoughts, I took my towel and headed for a shower before someone calls me for dinner.