Seulgi's POV

I don't want to go to dance class today. I feel like crap, my heart is in pieces.

Normally I would call Hyeji but now I'm not talking to her. How did my life fall apart so quickly?

I've lost everything.

My phone buzzes as I receive a message. I don't want to look at it. I used to jump to look at messages as they came through, filled with hope that one was from Yuta.

Now I couldn't care less when my phone goes off.

Hyeji was right at the restaurant. I did take her boyfriend, I don't know why I thought she would be there for me after we broke up.

I always knew that she still lived Yuta, I just didn't want to acknowledge it. It's a horrible feeling when you know someone is in love with the person who you love.

What made it worse was that I knew Yuta would always choose her over me. That night when we were driving and I told him Hyeji had been hurt...He didn't hesitate to turn around and hurry to that hospital.

He never told me that he loved me. I'll never forget when I first said those words to him. I hadn't ever fallen in love before, he was my first love.

We were on a date at the beach. The day was over and we were getting ready to leave. I kissed him on the shore and whispered the words, I love you, and what did I get in return? He smiled tightly and told me that we should go.

It hurt the most when he easily let me go. He didn't even try to fight for me when we broke up. He accepted it and moved on instantly.

I started to fall for him when he was still with Hyeji. He was so kind to me. He made me feel special. For a while I was jealous that Hyeji had him. I wanted him.

I finally got him after she was stupid enough to leave him. I was so excited when he agreed to go out with me. I should've expected it to end in my heartbreak.

My phone continues to vibrate. Sighing in frustration, I grab it and look to see messages from Doyoung.

Doyoung
I'm outside your apartment.

Doyoung
Would you be ever so kind to let me in?

Doyoung
This old lady is asking if I'm your boyfriend...She says I look different then the other one

Doyoung
Please save me

Why on earth is Doyoung here? I bring my phone with me as I go to open the front door.

Doyoung smiles in relief as he sees me. He is quick to push past me and go inside.

"Your boyfriend looks different" Mrs Park who lives across the hall states.

"He isn't my boyfriend Mrs Park, he's a friend. I broke up with my boyfriend so you won't see him again" I just wish her a good day, stepping inside the apartment before the lady can respond.

Doyoung has already made it to my room by the time I turn to see him. I rush to find him and manage to drag him back into the living room.

"What the hell are you doing here? And how did you get my address?" I exclaim.

"I thought we could skip class today. You could do with a day of fun" He dodges the second question.

I scratch the back of my head as I place my phone into my butt pocket.

"We won't ever get anywhere if we keep skipping classes" I tell him firmly.

"This is the first class that either of us have skipped" He just shrugs as thought it weren't an issue. "Come on, it'll be a bit of fun."

As much as I want to say no, part of me knows that I needs this. It might keep me distracted from my heartbreak for awhile.

"Where are we going?" I question him, giving into his idea.

He smiles happily as he leans against the wall,
"How about the beach?"

Memories of Yuta and I at the beach instantly flood my mind. Doyoung seems to notice how my expression fades.

"Or somewhere else" He suggests.

"No" I push away the suggestion. "Let's go to the beach."

I want to make new memories there, ones that will make me smile and not cry when I look back at them.

"I'll go get my bathers on," I go to head to my bedroom but am stopped when he grabs my arm.

"Don't bother, it's not the warmest weather. At most we will just roll up our pants to walk through the water."

I look to him and he briefly meets my gaze as he shrugs his shoulders.

"Okay" I mutter before making my way to the front door to get my shoes on.

I open the front door and wait for Doyoung to exit before following behing him, closing the door.

He walks beside me and nudges me into the direction of his car. I don't understand why he doesn't just verbally tell me where it is.

It isn't until we have been driving for 10 minutes that I break the silence inside the car.

"This is really sudden, out of all days why did you choose today to randomly take me to the beach?"

Doyoung bites his upper lip as though he has to think of his response before speaking.

"You have recently broken up with Yuta. I know you loved him so I thought I'd make an effort to provide you with a distraction. It doesn't seem like Hyeji is doing much."

I scowl at the mentioning of her. It angers me to even think of her face. The little bitch has probably already gone to Yuta's house to get back together.

The thought makes me sick.

"Lets not talk about her. That bitch doesn't deserve being the subject of our conversation." I remark harshly.

Doyoung seems to be confused by this as he briefly glances at me. "What happened?"

"The other day I made an assumption that she had slept with Yuta. I didn't let her explain and I left. Jungwoo later spoke to me and I realised she had just been there to comfort her ex. When I went to talk to her she got angry that I listened to her brother instead of listening to her. I told her that I didn't want to see her ever again."

A wave of anger washes over me as I recall all of this, yet as it passes, it is replaced with a strong sense of misery.

My eyes well up with tears. Not wanting Doyoung to see, I turn my head to gaze out the window.

Everything in my life was going so well. I was dating the man of my dreams while having my closest friend by my side.

Now I have neither.

"A similar situation happened between my brother and I" Doyoung speaks up. "He thought that something had happened between his girlfriend and I when he found her asleep in my room while I was changing my shirt beside the bed. He wouldn't listen to me and only apologised once his girlfriend spoke to him. I grew angered by this as I am his brother yet he wouldn't listen to me. He soon realised he was in the wrong and apologised."

"Are you saying that I am the one who should apologise?" I spit harshly.

"I'm not saying anything. It isn't my place to say" He does his best to dodge the question.

I don't respond to this, instead I just lower my head as I check the time on my phone.

A tear escapes and falls onto the screen. Doyoung notices.

"Did I upset you?" He sounds worried as he talks.

"No" is all I say. How do I tell him that I am starting to think that maybe everything is my fault?

Maybe the break up was my fault. It was inevitable to happen from day one.

I knew Hyeji's situation better then anyone. I knew the exact reason as to why she broke up with Yuta. She was scared.

Now that I think about it, I was just a rebound.

I never meant anything to Yuta. I just provided a release for him. I was someone who he could talk to.

Yet he hardly even did that. He would still talk to Hyeji or he would just call his friend, Taeyong.

I was never the first person he came to when he needed a shoulder to lean on.

The tears become too much to bare and I begin to cry.

Doyoung pulls over into a parking lot outside a shopping mall and turns to face me.

"Seulgi, please stop crying. It hurts me to see you like this."

I know the comment was said with good intentions yet being me, I snap back at him.

"Oh sorry, didn't realise my crying annoyed you so much."

"That's not what I meant and you know that" he mutters softly.

He reaches over the console to grab my shoulder, comfortingly. Without realising, I shift in my seat so that it's easier for him to reach.

"I'm such a failure" I say softly, hoping he won't catch on. "All of this is my fault. Everything is my fault. It always has been. I've just been too stupid to see it."

"We all make mistakes, but the thing about mistakes is that they can be fixed." Doyoung lowers his tone.

"How can this ever be fixed? I don't know if I can bring myself to smile as I see Yuta with Hyeji." I shoot his attempt down but he continues to speak.

"You love both Yuta and Hyeji do you not?"

This question causes me to look up and meet his gaze as I nod slowly.

"Then you should want them to be happy. If being together makes them happy then unfortunately you will have to put up with it. It is going to hurt like hell at the start but soon the pain will stop. That fake smile will turn into a real one. If you love Yuta and Hyeji then you will fight to keep the friendship with them both."

I hate to admit that I agree with what Doyoung is saying. It makes sense, yet it sounds like a really difficult thing to do.

"And who knows" He says quietly. "Maybe you will find someone else to make you happy."

It's a stupid thought, but for whatever reason I suddenly think that Doyoung could possibly be the one to make me happy.

He is always there for me and is happy to just listen as I ramble on and on about the issues in my life. Heck, he'll even provide advice.

He is also really nice to look at.

I don't realise that my gaze has moved to study his face. He holds eye contact with me and just seems to be confused by my actions, yet he doesn't say anything.

Sniffing, I wipe my nose with the back of my hand and turn to look out the windshield.

"What was that look for?" He asks me as he starts the engine again.

"You have dirt on your chin" I lie. He frowns as he rubs his chin with his thumb in hopes to get rid of the imaginary dirt.

A/N - just a lil chapter to provide a deeper insight into Seulgi aha. i hope you guys don't hate her too much...

sorry for the slow updates ugh

thanks for reading!!