Hallucinations

*Emma's POV* *Time Lapse*
"Cara! I'm telling you! It was so fucking real." I shouted to the laughing woman. "I believe you. I do. I just can't believe you dreamed about that." She laughed. I sighed. Last night, I had a dream about Regina and I. We had met up somehow and it was love at first sight. We fell in love and ended up having sex. And I imagined all of it. The moans. The touches. The words. All of it. I had woken up, my body drenched in sweat. So, I took a cold shower and tried not to think about it. Now, I'm sitting in the kitchen, across from Cara, talking about it. "You've got it bad Emma." She said. I sighed. "I know." I said. She nodded. Today's February 2nd. The day I pick my winner. I'm letting Cara pick. Yesterday was Regina's birthday. She came into one of my periscope sessions, so I sang happy birthday to her. There were 2700 other people in the session. She's 18 now. She's like, the only thing on my mind. Today's Monday. We had to get up early to start recording some songs. I have to upload some videos today. Then, start planning for my tour. "Have you picked a winner yet?" I asked. Cara smiled and nodded. I nodded and looked away. "Don't you wanna know who it is?" She asked. I shook my head no and she feigned a gasp. I rolled my eyes and she chuckled.


*Regina's POV*
I laid in my bed, staring up at the ceiling. It's 11 am. I'm home sick. I've been sick since Friday evening. Emma sang me happy birthday yesterday, and I'm still not over it. There were so many other people in the session, but she noticed me. Me. I've gotten a ton of new Twitter followers since Emma and Cara both followed me. It's cool, but it's also made my bullying worse. Now they're saying it's only for pity and they don't actually care. They're probably right. There's no way in hell Emma Swan and Cara Delevingne actually give two shits about a nobody like me. I turned over in my bed and grabbed my phone. Emma posted a new video. I smiled and opened it. She started playing her guitar and I couldn't help but smile and fall in love, just a little more.
Loving can hurt
Loving can hurt sometimes
But it's the only thing that I know
When it gets hard
You know it can get hard sometimes
It is the only thing that makes us feel alive


We keep this love in a photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Hearts are never broken
Times forever frozen still


So you can keep me
Inside the pocket
Of your ripped jeans
Holdin' me closer
'Til our eyes meet
You won't ever be alone
Wait for me to come home


Loving can heal
Loving can mend your soul
And it's the only thing that I know (know)
I swear it will get easier
Remember that with every piece of ya
And it's the only thing we take with us when we die


We keep this love in this photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Our hearts were never broken
Times forever frozen still


So you can keep me
Inside the pocket
Of your ripped jeans
Holdin' me closer
'Til our eyes meet
You won't ever be alone


And if you hurt me
That's OK, baby, only words bleed
Inside these pages you just hold me
And I won't ever let you go


Wait for me to come home
Wait for me to come home
Wait for me to come home
Wait for me to come home
Wait for me to come home


Oh you can fit me
Inside the necklace you got when you were 16
Next to your heartbeat
Where I should be
Keep it deep within your soul


And if you hurt me
Well, that's OK, baby, only words bleed
Inside these pages you just hold me
And I won't ever let you go


When I'm away
I will remember how you kissed me
Under the lamppost
Back on 6th street
Hearing you whisper through the phone,
"Wait for me to come home."
"She's so fucking amazing." I mumbled as I liked the video, then added it to my playlist of her songs. "Gina? You okay? Mary Margret told us you were sick." Ruby said as she and Belle walked in. I smiled a little. "Yeah. I'm good." I mumbled, through my stuffy nose. They smiled and walked into my room. They both laid down beside me, pushing me to the middle of the bed. I groaned, then furrowed closer into my pillows. "Guys. What if I don't win this contest." I said. "There'll be other ones." Ruby said. I nodded and sighed. "What if you do win though?" Belle asked. I smiled. "That'd be really fun." I said. They laughed.


*Emma's POV*
I looked at the clock in the studio and it said 12:45. I nodded and went back to planning my tour stuff. Cara walked in and yawned. "What are you still doing up?" She asked. I furrowed my eyebrows. "It's the middle of the afternoon." I said. She furrowed her eyebrows. "It's almost 1 in the morning." She said. My eyes went wide. "What?" I asked. She nodded. "You spent all day in here." She said. I sighed and nodded. "Okay. I'm gonna go to bed in a minute." I said, then heard the doorbell ring. "I'll get it." I said. She nodded and we both left the studio. She went to the kitchen and I Went to the front door. I opened it and my eyes went wide as I saw a familiar brunette. One I had wanted to hold and never let go. "Y-you're here." I stuttered out. She smiled and nodded. I pulled her into my arms and felt tears burning in my eyes. "Woah.. Em? You okay?" She asked. "I'm more than okay. I'm amazing." I said. She seemed to tense up in my arms. "Okay.. W-why are you hugging me.." She said. I smiled. "Because I've been dreaming of hugging you and holding you in my arms." I said. "Why? I dumped you." She said. I ripped myself away from her, then I realized who it actually was. And I was extremely disappointed to see Olivia. "I-I.. Uh.." I said. Her face twisted in anger and she rolled her eyes. "You thought I was Regina." She spit. I looked away, embarrassed and she scoffed. "Unbelievable." She spit. I sighed. "Why are you here?" I asked. "I was bringing this back." She spit and handed me my house key. I nodded and she disappeared back into her car. I sighed again and went upstairs. I went to my closet and pulled off all my clothes. I pulled on a bikini, then put my hair in a messy bun. I grabbed my iPad and my phone, then went back downstairs. I went to the living room and through the sliding glass door. I smiled at the dimly lit backyard and walked to the jacuzzi. I got in and for a minute, just watched the excess water drain into the pool. I leaned back and let the water soothe my muscles, then I started listening to music. Then, my dream from last night started playing in my brain again. I tore my eyes open and I tried to put my concentration on anything but her. But she kept coming back into my mind. Then, I knew there was no denying it. I'm in love with a fan I've never met. And there's no getting out of it. I pulled myself out of the jacuzzi and dried myself off, then grabbed my phone and iPad. I quickly went inside and to my studio. I grabbed my songbook and a pencil and sat down. The lyrics started flowing after writing the first line. 'Oh my god, how can I feel so much. Impossible to feel your touch across cities. I was never ready for the kind of love you possess. Say that there is nothing else you'd ever need.' I smiled and continued writing.


By 2 am, I had finished a new song and I got on periscope. So far, Regina is the only one to enter. I smiled. "Why are you awake? It's like 5 am there." I said. She sent 'couldn't sleep'. I smiled again. "You're gonna be tired at school." I said. I'm sick. I can't go. "Oh. I'm sorry." It's fine. I need a break. "Well, I got on here to play a new song. But it seems you're the only one up." Oh. "I'll still play it. For you." Okay :). I smiled and grabbed my guitar, then started playing.
Oh my god, how can I feel so much
Impossible to feel your touch
Across cities
I was never ready for
The kind of love that you possess
Say that there is nothing else
You'd ever need


You're my wonder
I'm found
When you sing to me
You're my wonder
I'm found
When you sing to me


Love, love, love
I'm your symphony
I'm miles away
But my voice carries


Yes my dear
We travel across deserts and heartbreak
All for just one day
To feel lightning
Lie next to me
Hold my hands to your chest
Say that there is nowhere else
You'd rather be


You're my wonder
I'm found
When you sing to me
You're my wonder
I'm found
When you sing to me


Love, love, love
I'm your symphony
I'm miles away
But my voice carries


Love, love, love
I'm your symphony
I'm miles away
But my voice carries
I finished and smiled. Amazing. Like always. I smiled again at her response. "Thanks. It's actually based off of someone I really wanna meet. But, I don't know if I'll get to." Oh? That's unfortunate. "Yeah. She's literally all I've been thinking about," I started and smiled a little, feeling the blush on my cheeks from explaining this to the girl I'm talking about. "I even dream about her. Hopefully I will get to meet her." Yeah. "Are you excited to find out the winner of my contest?" Yeah. It's all I've been thinking about. I smiled at her answer. "Yeah. I'm letting Cara pick the winner. So, I'm pretty excited to find out who she picks." I bet you wanna know. "Yeah. Well, there was this person I knew I'd pick. So, I want Cara to pick." I guess that makes it more fair. "Yeah." Why are you still up? It's late. "I got an idea for a song. And I dropped everything I was doing and came to the studio." Is that also why you're in a bikini? "Yep." Lol. "Well, you need to try and rest. So, go to sleep. I have to record new songs. Stay strong. I love you." Okay. Thanks. I love you too <3 and with that, I ended the session. I smiled and couldn't stop smiling. "You wrote that about Regina?" I jumped at Cara's new presence in the room. "H-how did you know?" I asked. She smiled. "I know you, Em." She said. I smiled a little. "I'm just.. I..." I started and got flustered with my words. "I know." Cara said. I looked up at her and she smiled. "You're in love with her." She said. I sighed and nodded. Her smile grew, taking up her entire face. "What are you gonna about it?" She asked. I sighed. "Nothing. I'm pretty sure she's straight. And the fact that she's over a thousand miles away from me doesn't help." I said. She sighed. "But you love her. Em, you don't tell people you love them and for you to be so open about this is a big deal." She said. I felt the blush creep on my cheeks, knowing she wasn't wrong. "Try and get some sleep tonight." She said with a sigh and left. I put my head in my hands and released a quiet scream. Why is this so fucking hard?!

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