I opened my eyes taking deep breaths as the screams and cries of the little 14 year old boy clodued my senses , all the blood and pain reaching upto me as i sighed noticing her sleeping peacefully beside me and somehow the sight of her beautiful face calmed me down. Somehow the sighe of her rosy cheeks and especially her being there lying down Beside me provided me the much needed peace .

How wierd it is , a man who has grown up between the deadly palace politics has killed thousands and has the ability to destroy the most powerful men in the world finds his peace in a beautiful and kind lady that is untouched by all the darkness of the cruel world.

Abhishree Abhiraj Singh Rajvansh, the woman who has me wrapped around her finger. The woman who has been the center of my world for the last five years , the woman who have me thousands of reasons to live ; the greatest one being just to love and adore her and just spoil her with everything. The man who never cared about anyone finding is ready to kill and be killed just for her.

Sighing i stood up as a small smile came on my lips as I looked at her divine face slightly caressing her beautiful cheeks with my fingers. I don't know when I will be able to say it Abhishree but I love you more than anything in this world , and I promise I will do everything for you even if it risks everything I have . I don't care about myself anymore all i want now is to see you happy and smiling for the rest of your life.

I don't know if I and worthy of your love but I hope you will love me someday , maybe someday I would know how she it feels to be loved by someone, do you also feel the same tickles the butterflies and the shivers like I do when i touch you.

I thought i would never be able to call her mine but seems like for one the lord of the universe decided to give me some happiness, we got married and thing that is more special is the fact that she gave me flowers that I have preserved with me forever. I remember each and every word she said and felt my world stop when i saw her with those flowers. She was there on her knees for me ; She made the bouquet herself just for me and that moment was when i felt the happiest.

She brought back the hope I had lost , to be loved by someone Maybe I was not that bad maybe life really wanted to give me some happiness and a chance through her and I am not letting her go away not now and not ever in the future. I will love her , cherish her and only her till my last breath and this is a promise I am making to myself.

I took in a deep breath as i remembered about the men I have killed for her , no i haven't killed innocent all of the 20 men already had someone in their lives hell few of them were married even. So I did what was the best at the moment, men like them do not deserve to live . I was scared , scared of what if she accepts any of them I was ready to see her come in a relationship where she might be happy because I know I would never be good enough for her. She deserves so much Better than me . There were about 35 boys who decided to propose her in her college while I killed 20 of them who were cheating, psychopath or not I don't know and I truly don't care but i could not handle her agreeing to someone who does not deserve her or someone who just wants her for her body.

And about the rest , I never really had a problem because somehow I beleived that my love would forever be one sided that she would never love me and why would she , why would anyone want to love a man like me ? A sinner like me ? No one would love me and I am completely fine with it . However I can't deny being happy when she disagreed to their proposals. There proposals were genuine ones they were kind men coming from well to do respected families who could maybe keep her happy and safe.

Maybe they would be able to treat her even better than me and let the free bird in her while what I did is completely opposite; now she is my wife who will have the burden of the entire country on her shoulders and especially her life being a constant risk for she is the queen. Maybe they would have been better than me for her . The reason I never interfered between them , i would be okay she might have fell for one of them and maybe kept watching over her from a far while she enjoyed her life . Then she would have never known about me and also might not have to deal with my toxic family .

These five years I have been helping her in different ways especially when she wanted to be in her favourite college but the fees was too high I funded them for a scholarship programme, so she could get admitted there and she did the exams well and got the prices affordable for herself.

Taking a deep breath I placed a small kiss on her forehead as I walked out of the room being overwhelmed by my own thoughts as i walked to the balcony i noticed a male servant with his wife ; Her attendee with their kid. They were talking and laughing while kissing their kid. Parents, having them might be beautiful right. Anyways I do not deserve that .

My family well that just consists My siblings , the others have simply not to do anything with me or my life . Everyone thinks that I got married to her by their will , and I will let them be in the delusion that everything happened according to them . Truly no one can make me so anything I do not want to because I do what I want and no one could force me to it.

Talking about the reason , due to the constant Crowning of any prince and princess the people started feeling like the monarchy was moving towards dictatorship and then there were many a issues of the common people that reamined unanswered and unheard. From centuries the same tradition of the heir marrying a princess is going on due to which people now beleive that there is no one to represent them . Then again there have been riots recently and there are a few of Royals involved in it and to supress all this Rajvansh required something that could catch attention
And the king marrying a commoner did all brought the trust back , hopes again rose and the media forgot about anything Else.

Also for years the essence of love , compassion and kindness was lost in The family and throne they all the Royals were somewhere involved in shady business including me . The throne needed a fresh face someone that could be the symbol of love for the people and Abhishree had everything they were looking for or maybe I was the one who brought Abhishree in the scene by Asking the minister to suggest my Marriage with her to my so called father.

Selfish to drag her in my mess , in the bloody politics maybe I am that selfish but for a second I did not want to care I wanted her because in a corner I knew I would die without her by my side. I knew I couldn't live without seeing her . I knew that with passing time i would want her near i would want me to be the man she relies on , I wanted to be the man who has her in his arms.

I looked up at the royal walls and noticed the picture of my grandparents ; they passed when I was 10 . The only people who loved me when no one else did , what was my mistake was i just that worse that my own parents abandoned me in such a way . Maybe I was , maybe I really never deserved to be loved.

Maybe I do not truly deserve love.

"I wanted you to be there today dadu , life here is very hard without you I do not have anyone to share my feelings with ; why couldn't you stay with me why did you leave me alone here ; why did you not take me with you ; did you also realise that I was not deserving for your love " i whispered as I looked at the image of the man i respected with my everything, my role model and my best friend. Slowly as my eyes moved towards the beautiful woman beside him my grandmother. "Dadi you too beleived everyone right that why you too left me alone did you also realise that I was cursed like everyone else" .

Feeling my heart go heavy I looked at the crown and chuckled ; the crown bearing it on my head feels like there is so much weight on my ; pretending to strong for everyone and everything ready to tackle Everyones people and solve them while I try to fight my own demons who are eating me alive slowly .

That's when i heard a woof and looked down to see my little Aaron looking at me and I frowned gently picking him up as i stroked his soft fur kissing his forehead as i asked him softly "how did you come here baby" and he woofed again looking back and I realised I had not closed the doors.

"Well Aaron don't you think you get too much attention from my wife" I said as I locked the doors with him in my arms as we walked towards our chambers and he just licked my face making me smile.

"Well let's get you to sleep beside your mother now should we" I asked softly and slowly even though I know she is a heavy sleeper and he just jumped on the bed and laid down in between us but then again raised his head looking at us making me chuckle as i caressed him.

About Abhishree I knew she was awake sometime ago when this Little young man came in the bed but I let her be , everyone sometimes needs to talk and have sometime only with themselves.

Tomorrow is her coronation a day that Is going to keep all of us too busy with all the responsibilities.
Lost in my thoughts i do not know when sleep consumed me and it was approx 5 of the morning when the attendees started knocking the door and I felt her soft hand Patting my shoulders and I slowly woke up noticing Aaron sleeping on her breasts. What the hell !

I thought he is sweet little animal but here he is already to snatch my wife from me and he thinks he can do that.

"What is he doing here your highness" I asked her and she looked at me with those beautiful big doe eyes . Those eyes that hold the beauty of heavens in them , the doe eyes that hold the peace and the power to bring dead back to life. The chocolate brown eye that can single handedly have men in they knees begging for a glance. The eyes that hold the innocence and light of the angels yet the boldness of a lioaness altogether with the loving and compassionate kind gaze that can make anyone fall for her.
How can I blame anyone else when my wife is so beautiful.

Taking my sweet time adoring her , the sound of the attendees again disturbed me as i sighed saying in my usual cold voice "come in" and they walked in bowing down as i nodded leaving the room having to make arrangements for the coronation.

And then lets not talk about how alluring she was looking the entire time from the morning dressed up in the best of fabrics I wasn't able to understand if it was her making the lehenga and jwellery more attractive or the jwelleries were maid to enhance her . Her beauty and elegance never failed to amaze me with each step she took , the way she walks , the way her eyes express what she is feeling, the way her red lips move as she talks the way her hair dances on her back. Heck even her just doing nothing but breathing is so attractive.

I have never been sure about anything other then her as i yet again asked the almighty to help me treat her the right way and love her with everything I have . The same thing I ask him everyday for.

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