Dolled up in a beautiful dress, I entered the hall with a smile plastered on my face covered with makeup. I met everyone, kept interacting throughout. Someone complimented me, "You look gorgeous." I smiled... In the meantime another lady came and said, "The dress is so good. Might be really expensive. Where did you get it from?" I passed a gentle smile and said, "For me, my clothes are my identity. They define me. I don't look at price tags. I rather notice, "How vibrant are the colours? Will they be able to wrap around a lady with so much hidden beneath her?" 

Am I happy?? No, I am feeling really suffocated in this so called majestic crowd.

I was standing in the corner, leaned with the pillar. My loneliness was surrounding me in spite of the fact that there are so many people around me. Wait!! Which people?? The selfish world in which a selfless soul always loses it's charm and beauty. The glass of red wine seemed like the blood shaded reality waiting to make it's way inside my body. 

Am I happy?? No, all this seems like a golden web of fake happiness to me.

My eyes were moist. The eyeliner could smudge anytime soon. I was looking around the hall. The high society ladies gang was having the famous champaigne talk. The gents were gulping on to their drinks with their evil eyes scanning 'which girl is new?' and brain working on grabbing new deals. The truth was so sharp that it pierced my heart. 

Am I happy?? No, my questions are killing me.

I realised that no makeup can hide your pain. No makeup can cover up your natural moods. No makeup can conceal the truth. No makeup can stop you from feeling what you feel. No makeup can make up for a smile. 

Am I happy?? No, I am stuck in a world set up in the middle of modernity and fake glam.

I was in these thoughts when a little girl came to me, held my hand to grab my attention and said, "Didi, didi take this rose and please smile. Your smile is so adoring. You look beautiful with it. I love to see you that way." I instantly smiled and placed the rose in my hair. I said to myself, "This makeup won't smudge today. I would smile. I would remain the way I am. Today, the people around me can't change and affect me. Yes, it's true that high society's drama and glam is not made for me. My world is small and beautiful. My world is exclusively reserved for me and I accept it. I'm unique and I'll be the same!! A smile can change the world. My smile is my peace and I can't lose that for the world....

Am I happy?? Yes, now I am because I freed myself from the cage of the society.

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