A/N Hi again it's me loll Sorry thats going to be my new intro guys haha. Anywayy another chapter, It's crazy I'm almost at 100 reads! I never thought I would get 50 never mind 100. Tysm!! In this chapter there is a little talk about Self Harm please skip if it is personal to you!!

Jodie's POV

I woke up at half 12 and just lay in bed for about an hour checking my phone. There were a lot more tweets sent to me and Simon for the QnA today and I read through a few of them liking them if I was going to use them in the video. I remembered last night when I told Simon I would tell him everything after the QnA ughh why did I tell him I would. I also have a video with Patsy to do as well but I decided to do the QnA video first. I got up and showered doing my usual shower performance to the bathroom tiles belting out whatever song plays on my spotify. I got out the shower and decided to put on Nike leggings and a Nike jumper with my hair tied in a pony tail (Media) before going downstairs to get some food. I walked into the kitchen greeted by Tobi, Patsy, JJ and Vikk. 'Hello' I smiled. They all said their hellos to me and I started to make a ham and cheese toastie along with a strawberry and banana smoothie, I sometimes like to eath healthy food. 'Jodie you still up for the singing video today?' Patsy asked me. 'Yeah Patsy I have a QnA to film with Simon but once that's done I'll come to your room what song will we do?' I asked. 'I was thinking Unfaithful by Rihanna' she smiled. 'I look forward to watching it' Tobi said while Vikk and JJ nodded. 'Guys don't expect anything special I haven't sung properly since High School and that was quite a few years ago' I laughed. 'Your still really good Jodie I hear you performing for the tiles in the bathroom' Simon laughed while walking in my face started going red and I face palmed which made everyone laugh.

Once I ate my food I went up to Simon's room with him and sat down on the chair next to him and waited for him to set up his camera and put the questions we chose onto his computer. 'You ready?' he asked before clicking record just smiled and nodded. 'Hey guys so today I am doing a video which was highly asked of. Today I am here with Jodie!!' I waved at the camera 'And we are doing a QnA, we tweeted out for you to use the hashtag MiniTap and some of you were confused by the hashtag. So basically the hashtag is just mine and Jodie's channels combined my channel Miniminter which you obviously know and Jodie's channel Tapped Out which if you haven't checked out I suggest you do so link will be in the description and yeah lets get on with it. So first question is from Kira who asked are you 2 dating?' Simon turned to look at me and I blushed slightly before laughing both of us turned to the camera and said 'Nope' at the same time. For a first question it was pretty up front I thought to myself. 'So next question is for Jodie whats it like living with The Sidemen and who is your favorite?' Simon looked at me. 'Oh gosh what is it like to live with the sidemen, well it is really fun! When we all aren't in our rooms editing it can be such a laugh' I smiled at Simon 'and who is my favorite hmm I don't know if it's fair to have favorites but I think I've watched Simon's for the longest' said feeling my face go slightly red.

We done a lot of questions and decided the next one would be the last one. 'So guys final question is quite a deep question, its from Lewis and he has asked Jodie why did you move to England and Simon what do you think of Jodie living with you, Jodie you wanna go first? Simon asked. 'Umm yeah' I said quite quietly, I looked at him and it must have just hit him what the question actually said because he widened his eyes slightly. 'So basically I moved to England after being in a car accident to basically have a fresh start. It was Patsy's idea and to be honest it was one of the best idea's she's ever had' I turned to Simon smiling them back to the camera. 'Simon your turn' I said 'Hmm what I think about living with Jodie.. I love it, having her around the house is fun, she even gives us a few dancing lessons' he laughs 'no but in all seriousness I'm glad she moved in' he smiled nudging me in the shoulder making me smile what he said was so sweet. 'So guys that's it for the QnA I hope you enjoyed it and please go check out Jodie's channel! Anyway hope yous liked it and see yaa' He said doing his outro before turning off his camera and looking at me. 'Jodie I am so sorry I never realized what the question asked you before I read it out' he said looking really guiltily towards me. 'Simon it's fine you made up for it with what you said' I smiled. I looked down at my sleeves an sighed 'I guess I owe you an explanation of everything' I said not looking up. I felt his hand go under my chin and lift my head up to look at him 'You don't have to tell me anything Jodie not if you aren't ready' I thought for a minute, I will never be ready but I can't hide it anymore it's not fair on myself or my friends. 'No I wanna tell you' I said he got up and sat on his bed motioning for me to go and sit with him I took a deep breathe before I started.

SELF HARM WARNING

'So basically after my accident I hit an all time low, I had severe depression and I barely left the house, I was the only one left in the house after my parents and sister died and it made me worse, Patsy obviously came up to Scotland to help me with arrangements for the funerals and my boyfriend at the time also came over to mines to check on me but no matter how many people showed me support I just couldn't help but still feel alone and isolated' I stopped feeling tears blur my vision and looked down at my sleeves again and decided the next part would just be easier to show Simon. I pulled my sleeves up and showed him my arms there were scars all up my arms they were slightly faint but you would be able to see them if you were looking for them. I felt Simon run his hand gently over the scars then hug me so tightly. I pulled away after a minute and continued 'I self harmed for about 3 months after my accident I done it everyday, I know you'll probably think I'm a freak or I'm attention seeking or that I've not trusted you because I've not told you but I haven't told anyone not even Patsy. I managed to stop slowly and eventually before I came here I stopped completely. I blamed myself for the accident Simon I still do' I started crying. 'If I never went to the qualifiers my family would still be here and thee video from the other night just brought all those thoughts back but I don't want to take steps back into the depression I worked so hard to get out of' I let a breathe out, I was done I just told Simon everything I was so scared of how he would react.. I looked up slowly into Simon's eyes, he had tears in them before i could say anything he spoke up. 'Jodie! None of that was your fault you were only doing what you loved. Your parents and sister would never have let you miss it I'm sure, there is no way you could have predicted what would have happened. You are not a freak or an attention seeker Jodie! And I am so glad you told me Jodie, it hurts so much to see you've done that to yourself though' I was taken a back nobody has ever said those words to me and had as big an impact as he just did, he left me speechless I felt more tears fall down my face and I felt Simon's arms wrap around me and pull me closer to him so that I was now on his lap with my head on his chest. I had opened up to someone and they haven't called me a freak or judged me.. I opened up to Simon. His reaction to it made me so relieved. I felt him kiss my head softly to comfort me and I couldn't help but smile and get butterflies.. I really have fallen so hard for Simon Minter.. 'Thank you' I whispered to him and looked up into his eyes before wiping away a tear that strayed his eyes.

A/N Wow! An emotional chapter or what? Anyway I know I said in the chapter about Jodie's video with Patsy well thats going to be the next chapter because I felt that it would have been such a long chapter if I included both in the one.