I didn't know what I expected when I reached Nezu's office but I knew it wasn't what was discussed. I understood why he thought this was the best course of action for me but still it's a shock. I still wondered why even though the answer was at my fingertips. I was dismissed from class for the rest of the day so I used that time to prepare a snack for everyone. They'd all be famished after training. My assumption was correct. When the entirety of class 1-A returned to the dorms, they were all tired and hungry. 

Once everyone was done eating and thanking me the girls, with the addition of Aoyama, retreated to Ashido's room. This was the place where we would discuss what was going on around the school or about what was bothering us. I was immediately bombarded with concerned faces and questions. Of course I tried to play it off as nothing was wrong. 

"Don't lie to us, Hana. You've been off since the training camp," Hagakure said to me. 

"Tell us what's wrong." Jirou crossed her arms.

"Oui, you said that you would." Soon enough all of the girls (and Aoyama)  were pressuring me into talking. It was too much for even me and so my walls came down.

"Okay! Okay! If it'll get you all off of my back then I'll tell you." I hugged Ashido's heart throw pillow as I explained the news Nezu recently gave me. 

"Nezu can't do that! You're one of us! What would make him think to do that to you!?" Ashido yelled out. 

"I agree. It's  not fair. Ribbit." Asui held her finger up to her lip as she thought about everything I said. 

"My best guess is because of Emotion. It's too dangerous and Hana's hardly able to control it. Perhaps using her to research quirks would be more efficient than her becoming a pro hero." Yaomomo muttered, as if she was analysing my predicament. I thought back to what Nezu told me. 

"I have noticed that you have grown a lot since interning the hero course. However, your teachers and I have also noticed changes in your behavior. Aizawa's report from the training camp stated that you ran away from the training area before the villains attacked." I had confirmed the statement. Nezu simply nodded. "I've spoken with your mother about this decision and she has agreed that it would be best if you were sent to stay on I-Island and aid in quirk research."  

"That's it! We're just going to have to talk Nezu out of sending you off!" Ashido stood up and all of the girls (and Aoyama) followed her lead. I stood up and held out my hands. 

"Wait! Wait! There's no way we can do that! Nezu wouldn't change his mind." 

"She's right. If we want to convince Nezu we'll need more people." Uraraka pumped her fists and ran out of the room. The others followed her, all ignoring my pleas not to. I managed to stop them before they yelled out the news to all of the class. 

"Guys, think about it. If you go blasting this news then literal shit will hit the fan. Katsuki would go berserk. Izu would try to calm him down while pushing down his feelings. Iida will scream at everyone to calm down. It'll just be a mess." I looked at all of the girls. "If I go or not is my decision. Now lets get some dinner." 

The rest of the night was quiet. That is until there was a knock on my door at 11pm. When I got the door, I was surprised to see Todoroki. I noticed his eyes linger on my hair. "I see you're still not used to it, Shoto." 

"I'm not." 

"Did you need something?" 

"Can I come in? I need to discuss something with you." Looking down each side of the hall, I opened the door wider. 

"Sure. Come on in." Todoroki walked in and sat on the floor next to my mattress. "What's up?"

"I would like to ask you the same thing. You've been acting strangely recently." 

"So you've noticed it too, huh?"

"I believe I might be able to help you with whatever's bothering you." I crossed my arms and sat down next to the heterochromatic boy. 

"No one can help me. Not with this problem." 

"I overheard you in the hall before dinner. You said you had a decision you needed to make that could upset a lot of people." He stared down at his hands. "Maybe I could help you with that." 

"You're sweet, Shoto," I flopped back onto the bed. "But this is something I have to decide alone. It's my future here that hangs in the balance." 

"Your brother says that opening up helps. Why don't you try it?" I looked over to the boy. 

"You're asking me to tell you things that not even my brother or Katsuki know?" Todoroki shrugged. 

"You know I won't tell anyone." I chuckled softly at the statement cause it was true. Todoroki was as silent as they come.

"Yeah, I think this is the most I've heard you talk." I stared up at the ceiling and before I knew it, I had spilled my guts about everything that's been plaguing my mind. My nightmares, my past, my thoughts about that villain, the emptiness I've been feeling. Throughout it all Todoroki simply laid next to me and listened silently. He didn't say a word until I was done ranting and a couple minutes after. 

"You've had it hard. That's something I can understand." He stifled a yawn. "But you've grown extremely strong despite your setbacks." I shook my head. 

"If I'm strong then why am I feeling this way? Like an empty husk."

"You don't see your strength or the light of your smile. Ask any one of the others and they'll tell you that they've felt this way before."

"Even you?" Todoroki avoided my gaze. 

"My childhood was filled with that feeling." He could tell I was curious but I could also tell that he didn't want to talk about it. I don't know how long we stayed up talking before we both fell asleep but what I can say is that I slept comfortably.