Adeline's pov

After so many years i just threatened someone ,and i used to call that someone my friend. I can't believe it . Why would she talk ? What's the reason  behind all this ? I want to know what made her talk about my past without my permission.

"What happened to your fucking eye "i knew he was being bullied but violence wasn't used . I went up to his face and slowly traced my hands to his black eye that was slowly turning purple

"Its fine dont worry "he said  trying not to sound in pain

"Fine? Are you fucking serious? Who did it " i asked but deep down i knew he wasn't going to answer me

He never said his name . Never . It didn't matter how hard i would try i wouldn't get anything out of his mouth

"Can you cover it with make up or something"he sounded tired

"Fine but only this time " i said once not because I had a problem doing it but because i wanted him to talk to  someone about this

At the end i didnt only cover it once  or twice .

He would come to me and i would have to cover his fucking bruises every two or three days . He promised me that he would talk to someone but he never kept his promise

I tried finding the fucker who was hitting him , but no luck

Fuckk mee

It was like 8 o'clock and i had nothing to do .
So i went downstairs to be meet with a woman dressed in a black tight skirt with a black laced t shirt

Is that my mum ? What ?

"Mum? Is that you " i mean i never seen my mum dressed in this type of clothes .

"Hey sweetie how are you " she asked feeling akward

I didnt answer the question

"Where are you going  "i already kind of knew this answer but i had to hear it from her . My feelings were mixed up .

"Umm.. sweetheart.... how can i say this ?"she asked herself

"Youre going on a date ?"i asked her  with no emotion on my eyes .

She hesitated and was looking at me with pleading eyes

I shook my head and started walking back to my room . When i got in i locked the door because i know that she always runs behind me

This is worse than i imagined . Tears started running down my face.

I knew that this was going to happen eventually. But its still too early . Its only been a FUCKING year since dad passed away . How can she move on so fast ?

"Adeline open the door, please baby lets talk about it " she said and i could feel the pain in her voice

"I dont want to talk about your sex life "

"Its not about my sex life baby please open the door" i sighed and opened the door

I crossed my hands and waited for her to talk

"Baby you know how much i loved your father " doesn't seem like it

"I think he would want us to be happy"that he would

"Its only been a year mum" i said calmy

"Well  i need a male  figure next to me to help me "  she said raising her voice

"I'm helping you mum ,i always have . What ? Am i suddenly not enough?"i asked

"Adeline you need to stop being a child . I appreciate your help with everything but i need a different kind of help " what the fuckk ?

"So its about sex " i asked

"NO ITS NOT ABOUT FUCKING SEX ADELINE . IM TIRED.  AND I NEED SOMEONE BY MY SIDE . I WANT A MAN  TO LOVE ME .I WANT TO MOVE ON AND FIND SOMEONE" i flinched at her words . She never yelled at me before

"Yeah ok  go have fun ,move on , have sex ,get  a boyfriend" i laughed sarcastically and  scoffed "or even a husband , go on mum  move on your life like nothing happened."

"You're being ungrateful"she toned

I laughed like a  mad person

"I'm being ungrateful? Really ? ITS ONLY BEEN A FUCKING YEAR MUM . ONE YEAR . ONE FUCKING YEAR SINCE DAD DIED AND YOU'RE ALREADY GOING ON A DATE  .AND I KNOW THAT DAD WOULD WANT US TO BE HAPPY . I DO  . BUT WHAT ABOUT ME ? . HUH ? WHAT ABOUT HOW I FEEL ? I CANT JUST ACCEPT  A NEW MAN IN OUR LIVES . I CANT AND I KNOW I SOUND SELFISH RIGHT NOW BUT I THINK I HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO BE MAD AT YOU "  thats it i couldn't hold it anymore. I wanted to cry so bad but i just couldn't .

I couldn't

She checked her watch  and looked at me

"Im late we will talk about this later "and with that she left

I miss you dad please  come back

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Next morning i woke up like two hours earlier so i could go to my place  . Mum wasn't going  to wake up for the next two hours which made it even better because i dont want to talk to her right now .

Am i being selfish ?

Is she really not happy with me ?

Why do i feel like im not enough anymore ?

As i was walking i tripped over a rock and cut open my wrist .

I winced in pain but kept going till i was in front of the lake . I got out of my bag some tissues and wrapped it around my wrist

As i sat down i heard some voices from  behind me . It was a dog . A big one .

I think it was hurt because i saw the way he was walking .

I whistled and he came and sat next to me . When he laid his head on my leg his heart was going like crazy but after a while it started to slow down which means he fell asleep. My hand was slowly going up and down his little head .

Oh how i wish i could stay like that forever .

Its just so calm

I started getting up after one and half an hour and vince ,yeah i named him vince ,started whining or crying idk i cant understand the dogs language.

I started walking away and thank go he didn't follow me

My wound  was way better ,it kind of closed, kind of . I think that if i touch it it will start bleeding again . It was a  big  wound and it hurt like  a bitch .

When i got to school my phone started buzzing like crazy  from my mum  but i didn't answer ,i just texted her im at school and that im fine .

I walked up at louise and hugged her . Apparently the teacher we had in first period never made it so i just started explaining everything that happened with maddy

"Bitch what ?"

"Yeah " i sighed

"Forget about her you have us " she said and gave me a ressuring smile

"I dont care about our friendship louise . I care about what she says about me and my past  . I cant have her saying all my secrets to everyone"i said and looked down

"Babe its fine ,if she does it again im gonna cut her boobs out" she said trying to cheer me up

I chuckled

"What boobs" i asked and we bursted into laughing

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Its been 3 hours and i still have like 4 more to go

I was walking past the hallway when a hand grabbed my wrist -yeah the wrist i cut just hours ago -and pulled me into a wall

I winced badly . I looked up to see an angry Andrew looking at me

"What the fuck man?" I said still wincing from the pain

"Let go off me "i screamed at him but he did the right opposite he put more pressure.

"What the fuck is wrong with you ? You cant go around and threaten people " what ? Bro are you high ?

Oh oh oh oh oh . He is talking about maddy . I dont know why but a smirk appeared on my face

"She was fucking crying yesterday because of you . Because she is fucking terrified of  you " he screamed at my face

"Thats good she should be scared of me " i said and got out of his grip and just like that my blood was running down my hand on my white shirt

"Are you freaking insane ?" He asked with wide eyes .

"You know nothing about me Andrew. Nothing . You solve your problems by punching people but i solve mine by threatening people . And believe  me they are not stupid to cross my line .  They know me to well to do that ." I said with a smirk

Ok i think i just pissed my self,  i sound like mad man

A lot of people know about my past but not all of them . They dont dare to do anything to me because they know exactly how it will end . I started walking again when i bumped into someone  . I looked up and it was David

"Hey how yo- Adeline youre bleeding" he said

"No shit " i said

"Lets go to the nurse " he said and i nodded

But before we walked to the nurse he turned to look behind me . And he saw  an  angry Andrew looking at us

Then he did something stupid . He walked up to Andrew and punched himi was taken by surprise when  Andrew didnt dozge the punch .

"What the fuck did you do to her " he was furious and i could see that

"David get of off himm ,he didn't do anything" he looked at me not believing me  but then just as he was about to turn and throw another punch i cut him off

"He didn't hurt me i swear " he eyes locked with mine  , he saw my pleading eyes and  he got off of him

David is one of the people who know about my past .

"Lets go" he said  and wrapped his arm  around me

I turned back to see Andrew getting up with an angry look on but also a concerned one .

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