"And our last chip goes to Y/N Ledger, who is one month clean as of today!" Joan, the rehab leader, said. I stood up as everyone clapped. Everyone came to see me get my chip. I smiled and walked to the front. Joan hugged me, and I hugged her back. I took the chip and stood at the podium.

"I don't have a speech prepared or nothing, but this is crazy cause I've been drinking or smoking or snorting something since I was about six, so this is very important to me. I'm glad that I've been able to stay strong. And I'm glad that I've had my family right by me the whole time. I love you guys. Alright anyway, here's to many many more chips!" I said. Everyone clapped again, and I sat back down.

We were dismissed from the meeting ten minutes later. Ariana drove home in silence as I looked at her.

"What?" She asked.

"I don't know. You're just pretty." I said.

"Oh stop it." She said.

"I'm serious. You're perfect." I said.

"Thank you, baby." She said.

"Hurry up and get home." I said leaning back in the seat.

"We are not having sex before exactly six weeks. You need to heal." Ariana warned.

"Ain't nobody tryna have sex. I just want to kiss you." I said.

"You can kiss me while I drive." She said pointing to her cheek.

"Nah I want a real kiss." I told her. She hummed.

"I actually want to talk to you about something when we get home." She said. I groaned loudly.

"I haven't cheated on you and I haven't done drugs, so what am I in trouble for?" I said.

"No you're not in trouble at all. I just want to talk while we're in the house." She said.

"Okay." I said. We made the rest of the drive in silence. When we got in the house, we went straight up to our room. I laid in bed.

"So I've been thinking about this for a while now." She said.

"How long?" I asked.

"Like I don't know since you've been in the hospital." She said.

"Okay continue." I nodded.

"Basically I'm not trying to say I want to try for one or anything, but I think I want to stop my birth control. Like I don't think we should start aiming for a baby, but if it happens I want it to be with you." Ariana said. I stayed quiet. "What do you think about that?"

"I just got a brand new heart and a one month sober chip from narcotics anonymous. You think I'm ready to be a parent? I can't even take care of myself." I said.

"You take care of Theo and Harrison." She insisted.

"Yeah, but not full time. They just sleepover sometimes. But I'm not their parent." I said.

"But wouldn't you want to have one with me? A little us running around?" She asked.

"Well sure, but I don't know if right now is the right time. I mean we aren't even married. My parents would kill me if you got pregnant before we were married. Like it would be bad." I said.

"Well I mean I wouldn't be pregnant by tomorrow." She said.

"The way you looking right now, you might." I laughed.

"I'm being serious, Y/N. I just want to stop taking my birth control." Ariana said.

"Where is this even coming from?" I asked.

"Because I love you. And I know we just officially started dating but I know we're gonna get married so why not?" She said.

"I love you too. And I also know we're gonna get married. But I think maybe we should date for a bit more. Then worry about getting engaged then we can worry about the marriage and the kids." I said.

"Okay, Y/N." She said. She grabbed her purse, and I groaned.

"Ariana, don't be like that." I said.

"I'm just going for a drive. I'll be home with dinner. I just need to clear my head. I love you." She said.

"I love you too." I said as she walked out. I rolled my eyes and grabbed my phone. I texted Brady and Jackson to come over. They were at my house in ten minutes.

"Wassup, fucker." Brady said laying on the bed. Jackson did the same.

"Bro, Ariana just told me she wants to go off her birth control and maybe have a baby with me. So I was like 'nah we gotta be married and we only been dating for a week', and she was like 'I'm leaving'." I said.

"Let the girl have a baby." Jackson said.

"Be reasonable. Do you really think I could take care of a baby?" I asked.

"We could help. The three of us combined makes one complete parent." Brady said.

"Yeah, no. I just don't know what to do because I love her, and I eventually want to have kids, but I don't know if I'm ready." I said.

"Well she didn't want to have babies for old Dalton, so you should feel special." Jackson said.

"I do feel special. I mean she's amazing. She's the only girl I'd have a baby with." I said.

"Oh we know. I have never seen a person carry so many condoms." Brady said.

"Always protected." I said.

"Maybe you should just marry her." Jackson said.

"She just got fucking divorced. The media would flip!" I said.

"Okay well hear me out. Maybe you should let the woman go off birth control. It's not a guarantee that she'll get pregnant. It's like a maybe. Which is good enough cause she's Ariana Grande and you should be grateful you get to have sex with her." Jackson said.

"I second that." Brady said.

"But I don't know. You know Mom and Dad would kill me if she got pregnant and we weren't married." I said.

"That's why if she does get pregnant you just elope. Boom." Brady said.

"You're right. It's her body." I said.

"Yeah, her body her choice. Let the lady come off birth control." Jackson said.

"Yeah, we advocate for women's rights. Fuck wit a hoe." Brady said bucking at me.

"I'm a fucking woman." I said.

"Shut up, bitch." Jackson said. I nodded.

"Now y'all gotta go before Ariana gets here. I have to apologize and everything." I said.

"Oh yeah. Kick us out for your girlfriend." Brady said.

"Yeah, that's exactly what I'm doing." I said. They flipped me off as they left.

———

I woke up when the light came on. I sat up. Ariana gave me an apologetic look.

"Sorry I didn't mean to wake you." She said. I rubbed my eyes and laid back down.

"It's okay. I tried staying up for you, but I got sleepy." I told her. She gave me a kiss.

"I appreciate you trying." She said.

"I also wanted to tell you that I thought it over and you should stop your birth control if you want to. It's not my decision cause it's your body, so yeah." I said.

"I appreciate that, but I'm not gonna do that then bring a baby in the world that only has one parent that wanted them." She said.

"Hey, I would totally love a baby if you had it. Whether we were married or not. I'm not gonna abandon my own kid or you. Ever. I love you. I'd never do that." I said.

"But I don't want you to feel pressured into this if I do get pregnant." She said.

"It's no pressure. I love you, okay? And I'll love our kiddo whenever there is one." I said.

"Okay. I'll make the appointment in the morning." Ariana smiled.

"Great." I said.

"I love you. Good night." She said getting in bed completely.

"I love you more." I said kissing her.

———

"Happy birthday fucker!" I said hugging Zendaya. She giggled and hugged me back.

"Thank you for coming." She said.

"When have I ever missed your birthday? When?" I asked.

"That's true." She said. She looked at Ariana and hugged her. "Thank you so much for coming, Ari."

"Yeah, of course." Ariana smiled.

"Your gift should be coming like next week. It's still being made." I told Zendaya.

"You always do some extravagant shit. Why can't I just get like a pillow pet or something?" Zendaya asked.

"Maybe because I want you to have the best." I smiled. I grabbed Ariana's hand and walked to my designated seat at the table. I was beside Sydney Sweeney and Hunter Schaefer was beside Ariana.

"Holy shit, Y/N. I haven't seen you for a whole year." Sydney said. I hugged her.

"Yeah, I know. I've been crazy busy." I said.

"Hi, I'm Ariana." She said introducing herself to Sydney.

"I'm Sydney. It's so nice to meet you." Sydney said. She turned her attention back to me. "You should come to set like you used to. I miss having you around."

"I was thinking about stopping by there one day. Me and Dad have just been doing a lot lately. You know we opened up the hotel in England, the neighborhood in LA, and we still got a lot more shit." I said.

"Yeah, sorry I forgot you were the little genius." She said.

"I wouldn't say all that. I just be drawing and shit." I smiled.

"Baby, what are you gonna get to eat?" Ariana asked before kissing my neck. I looked over at her.

"Probably the steak. You know it's my favorite." I said.

"You two are dating?" Sydney asked shocked.

"Yeah, we are." Ariana smiled.

"Damn you finally got tied down. I can't believe it." Sydney said.

"Yeah, I know. But I'd do anything for Ari." I said. I kissed Ariana's head.

"Anyone would be lucky to have you, so I'm happy for you." Sydney smiled.

"Thanks. She's the best." Ariana smiled. The waiter came around and took our order.

"So are you coming to set or what?" Zendaya said from across from me.

"Well yeah I can come maybe tomorrow." I said.

"We need to plan what we're doing for your birthday, Y/N. Cause last year was out of this world." Tom said.

"I wish. I'm fucking sober, so I can't even have fun." I said.

"You know you don't need alcohol to be fun. Plus your birthday is on a Saturday this year!" He said.

"Yeah, but Beyoncé is having her party that day and she gets first dibs cause she's turning forty." I said.

"Beyoncé is having a party? I wasn't invited." He said. "Were you invited, baby?"

Zendaya smiled sheepishly and drank her wine.

"Why didn't she invite me?" He asked.

"Just be Daya's plus one. Simple." I said.

"No I want my own invite." He said.

"You want me to call her or something?" I laughed.

"A little, yes." He said.

"Okay, I'm not calling Beyoncé. But I will text her." I said.

Me: Tom Holland wants to know why he wasn't invited to your bday party

"Okay I did it, sweet boy." I told him. He smiled at me.

"So are you excited to watch No Way Home?" Tom asked.

"You know I've loved Marvel since I was little, but something about you and Zendaya playing my favorites just makes me want to turn the TV off." I said.

"Oh, don't lie. You love seeing me on TV." Zendaya said.

"Nope, I always turn the TV off when you come on. I already see enough of you in real life." I laughed.

"You know what I'll be quiet. Don't wanna get you in the dog pound." She said. I laughed harder.

"You're such an asshole." I smiled.

"Admit you love me." She said.

"I'll do no such thing." I said.

"Aren't they the cutest?" Tom asked Ariana. She nodded and smiled. My phone vibrated, and I looked down.

Beyoncé Carter 👑💖: who?

Me: The mf that play Spider-Man. He's dating Zendaya

Beyoncé Carter 👑💖: I don't know who the hell that is but he can come with Zendaya

Me: I'll tell em bae

Beyoncé Carter 👑💖: Ok boo

"Beyoncé said you could come." I said. Tom cheered.

"Yes!" He shouted.

———

I was in bed looking at TikToks when Ariana came out of the bathroom and got in bed beside me.

"You ready to go to bed?" I asked.

"Did you have sex with Zendaya?" She asked.

"Well that wasn't the answer I was looking for." I said.

"I'm serious." She said.

"Okay, yeah I did." I said honestly.

"Just once?" She asked.

"No, a lot more than that." I said.

"Can I get an estimate?" She asked.

"Like over a thousand." I said.

"I'm gonna throw up." Ariana said.

"What? Why? It was like years ago. Like three years ago was the last time we ever did anything." I said.

"Did you love her?" She asked.

"No. We just liked having sex with each other." I told her.

"So what did she mean by she didn't want to put you in the dog pound?" Ariana asked.

"Are you seriously doing this?" I asked.

"Just tell me." She said.

"We were gonna get married, but we called the wedding off because we realized we didn't love each other the way we needed to. We were more like best friends than a couple, so yeah. I was never in love with her, we just had sex." I said.

"And almost got fucking married." Ariana said.

"Are you seriously mad?" I asked.

"Yes, because you don't tell me shit. I have to sit there and watch you two play fight all night thinking I'm going crazy because it looks like you two are the couple. Does Tom know?" She said.

"Yeah and he doesn't care." I told her.

"I'm not bothered by it. I just wish you would have told me." Ariana said.

"Well I've slept with a lot of women, so I can't really tell you about all of them." I said.

"So you only ever dated Dinah and Kiana and technically Zendaya?" She asked.

"And Naya Rivera. But she's kind of my Mac Miller, so I don't really want to talk about it." I said.

"Okay, can you just tell me if you've slept with a person before you have me smiling in their face? Please?" Ariana asked.

"Of course. I'm sorry, baby." I said.

"It's okay." She said quietly.

"So can we go to bed now?" I asked.

"Yeah." She said.

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A/N

Had a 4loko last night. I'm still drunk. Anyway I'm bout to go see Candyman. Also double update cause today is Beyoncé birthday. I'll post the next chapter when I get home.