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Mycah was crying.

He was holed up in his room, laying in his bed with his arms behind his head allowing the tears to flow down his face without making much of a sound.

It was just a small funk, nothing like the depressive episodes that took over him on occasions that he didn't take his medicine. But still, it was there. A cloud of darkness was hanging over him, not dark enough for him to be screaming and trashing his room and sobbing for hours on end. But enough for him to quietly focus on all his negative traits and wish he could just be someone else. Enough for him to be filled with enough insecurity to question everything about himself, and how others felt about him.

Others like his friends. Mycah wondered why they even stuck around. Maybe as some sort of joke, or act of pity.

And all those boys and girls who treated him affectionately. Why bother? There were so much more fish in the sea. Prettier fish, without bipolar disorder and deep rooted self esteem issues.

The only person who had the common sense to realize that Mycah was far from the fun cool guy he was made out to be was Arden. It really was a mad world when the only person with their head properly screwed on was Arden Fuller.

Mycah cursed himself for being so dramatic. Why did he have to ruin everything? Even though they never let on, he knew that his down moods had to be putting a dampener on the holiday for his parents, which made him feel even more guilty. And for Arden's parents too, who were dragged into his stupid situation that he didn't understand and had no control over.

But even all the guilt couldn't pull him from his rut. He was just glad that this time it wasn't a massive fit like the last times. At least he could suffer in silence without anyone else knowing.

The tears continued to flow steadfastly down his face, his blank expression never changing. If it wasn't for the tears nobody would suspect that he was facing emotional turmoil by looking at him.

His thoughts kept whirring, picking apart every fact and flaw. It then that footsteps could be heard pounding up the stairs, heading down the hall towards his and Arden's room.

Mycah was so deep in his thought that he barely registered someone approaching the room until Arden burst in. Then again, Mycah didn't have the emotional or physical drive to make himself look presentable anyway. It's not like Arden didn't already know that there was something wrong with him.

Arden buzzed around the room, looking for a dry towel to grab before heading back down to the beach. It was only when he noticed Mycah had not made any witty digs at him that he realized something was wrong.

He turned to take a look at Mycah, finding him laying on his back on the bed with his arms behind his head. At first he thought he was sleeping, but on further inspection noticed that his eyes were open. It was then that he saw the tears and realized Mycah was crying.

"Oh shit.." he mumbled under his breath, unsure of what to do in the situation. It had been almost a week since Mycah the fateful party where Mycah had let slip his bipolar disorder, and this was the both the first time Arden was actually aware of what was happening, and the fist time he was physically in Mycah's presence while it was happening.

There had been a couple of incidents on the vacation wherein Mycah had locked himself into the room for a day or two, reappearing every time without any form of explanation thrown Arden's way. His parents insisted it wasn't their place to tell him. leaving him completely in the dark every time. Which was especially unfair considering he had been kicked out of his room on both occasions. There was also one time where Mycah was acting especially sullen during the day, before wandering off for a few hours, returning with red-rimmed eyes. But back then he wasn't aware of the other boy's diagnosis now. This was different. This time he actually knew what was going on, which made it all the more difficult because he had no idea how to resolve the situation. His 4.0 GPA and straight A cleverness couldn't help him now.

This time it seemed to be a smaller episode, considering Mycah wasn't screaming, there was nothing shattered, and the door wasn't locked. But this only partially reassured Arden. He still had his roommate-slash-enemy (slash-kinda-friend) silently crying his way through a depressive spell in their room, with absolutely no idea how or what he could do to help him.

He approached the bed, looking around the room uncertainly as if hoping to find a magic solution lying around somewhere. If only it were that easy.

"Don't bother worry about me, I'l be fine. You can go." Mycah spoke up, halting Arden. His voice was cracked and lifeless.

Arden hesitated unsure of what to say. "What if I want to stay?"

Mycah turned his head to face Arden. "Well I can't stop you, but you're wasting your time."

Arden took that as his cue to come closer. "Why do you say that?"

"Because," Mycah answered. "I'm not worth it" He said, voice cracking as he spoke. Tears began to flow heavier down his cheeks. It broke Arden's heart.

He sat at the foot of the bed with his back against the frame, knees to his chest so he was facing Mycah.

"Not worth what?"

Mycah was silent for a minute before answering.

"Not worth you bothering to stay and ask me how I am. Not worth all the trouble and stress I cause. All I do is put a downer on every fucking situation."

"That's not true." Arden replied, hugging his knees to his chest.

"Of course it is. I have a great life, great parents, great friends. Then why is it so hard for me to be fucking happy sometimes? I wish I could be just be fucking normal. I don't even understand what's going on in my own damn head! Why does this happen to me? I'm just a nuisance to everyone."

"Don't say that Mycah. You're not." He said gingerly.

"But I am. I'm fucked up and sad and annoying and dramatic." Mycah said, and the raw emotion in his voice told Arden that he did in fact believe every word he was saying.

"That's so far from true Mycah." Arden insisted.

"Yeah right. You're just saying that because you feel bad for me. Look Arden, you can just leave. Honestly, I get it completely. Go have fun, you're on vacation, you deserve it."

Arden could see that Mycah genuinely believed what he said was true. He genuinely wanted Arden to leave him alone in this state, actually believing that he wasn't worth anyone's time of energy. And sure, they fought sometimes (all the time) but that didn't mean Arden believed Mycah was worthless. Far from it, in fact.

"Mycah," he began desperately. "I know that my opinion means absolutely nothing to you, but trust me. You're not fucked up, you're just struggling and you have every right to be sad. We all get sad sometimes. It's not dramatic to let off steam every once in a while, it's healthy." Arden said before continuing. "And as for the whole annoying thing, well I won't argue with you on that." He joked, relief washing over him when he saw a small smile tug at the corners of Mycah's lips.

"You're twice as annoying as me." Mycah answered, earning a smile from Arden.

"There's the Mycah I know and hate." He joked, nudging him lightly with his foot.

Mycah smiled weakly, reaching up and wiping his tears from his face with the palm of his hand. He wasn't sure how, but somehow Arden had managed to make an actual positive difference to his mood.

"Thank you." He said quietly, but Arden heard and smiled lightly in acknowledgement.

"And Arden?" Mycah continued bashfully.

"Hmm?" Arden replied, looking up.

"You're wrong about one thing. Your opinion does mean something to me." Mycah replied softly, bowing him embarrassed head in hopes of hiding his blush from Arden.

But it didn't matter, because Arden was blushing just as much as him.

God, what a pair they were.

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