That was our last dance.

It had to be.

I walked down to the lake, letting the moonlight guide me to the edge.

This was the place where I had Y/N all to myself. Twice. The day in the boat, and the day we watched the sunset together.

Perhaps this was the proper place to say goodbye. After all, I couldn't love my cousin's fiancee.

I laughed at the irony. I was the same as Jungkook. Thinking about someone else's fiancee. Wondering if he would treat her well, wondering if she thought of me, wondering if she would miss me when she walked down the aisle with someone else.

So this is what it felt like. Maybe I'd apologize to him one day for it.

I leaned against the tree next to me, remembering everything I could about her. The way she smiled, the way she danced, the way she felt in my arms...

I'm sorry, Y/N... I wish I could have done for more you. But I can't do anything for anyone. Not even myself.

A hand touched my arm. I jumped.

I had to blink a few times to make sure I wasn't dreaming.

"Y/N..." I said. "Why aren't you at your party?"

She took a deep breath. "I wanted to see you."

I must have been dreaming. I smiled. "Really? You must have heard my thoughts. I was just thinking about you."

"Oh? About what?"

I looked back at the water. "The day I saved you. And the day I didn't. I wish I had done more for you, Y/N. You were in danger this entire time, and I was so caught up in myself and in my own problems that I couldn't even help you."

"You had a lot to worry about."

"It still bothers me. I almost lost you."

She tugged on my arm. "I'm still here."

For now, you're here. But not for me. I'm still going to lose you.

Her hand grazed my arm until it slid between my fingers. "I hate seeing you in so much pain."

"I keep causing pain for others," I replied, squeezing her hand. "It's only fair I take some myself from time to time."

"Is there anything I can do for you?"

I turned to her and grinned. "Wanna get married?"

Her face fell. Of course it could only be a joke. I knew that.

"I was kidding, Y/N," I said, laughing it off. "You don't need to give me that look."

Silence drifted between us for a moment.

"Would you be miserable with me, then?" she asked.

Her eyes asked me for an honest answer. I couldn't bring myself to lie to her.

"No," I said. "I wouldn't be miserable with you."

Her eyes rolled to the side. "When you said you wanted Nara to marry someone else... who did you mean?"

"I think the answer is obvious. Jungkook makes her the happiest."

"Who makes you happy, then?"

She stared at me, waiting for an answer. I couldn't speak - the words getting stuck deep in my chest. All I could do was look at her and swallow everything I wanted to say.

Since the beginning... You've made me smile the most.

I turned my head away. I couldn't say it. I couldn't do that to Jin.

I felt her lean in, her lips brushing my cheek.

I had to be dreaming. That's all this was.

I shut my eyes. If I opened them, I'd have to wake up.

Her dress rustled as she stepped back.

"I wanted it to be you," she whispered behind me. "I wanted you to come save me."

At the sound of her voice, I opened my eyes. She was leaning against the tree, staring down at her feet.

She wanted it to be me...?

Her honesty was breaking me.

I stepped forward, putting an arm on each side of her. If I could be honest for just one night...

"This marriage..." I said, "if I had a choice, Y/N, I would come to you."

She looked up at me, her eyes sparkling. I could look at those eyes for days.

"Does it have to be Nara then?" she asked. "Is that part of the deal? Or can it be anyone?"

My mouth dropped open. "I can't ask you to do that. That would be a huge sacrifice for you."

"You'll just have to pay me back then."

She smirked playfully. I couldn't help but smile back, imagining what she was implying. Her face suddenly dropped back into a frown.

"I know it makes me a terrible person, Jimin, but I can't stand the idea of you with anyone else. I know Nara will probably hate me, and I hate that –"

I brought my finger to her lips. She stopped. I couldn't help but graze my fingers against her jaw. I had never been this close...

...I wanted to be closer.

"You're not a terrible person," I said. "But I'm going to be."

I leaned down and pressed my lips against hers, trapping her between the tree and myself.

She was the one... the one I wanted to trap.

Her hands came to my chest as I pressed in hard against her. I pulled away, only to go in for another kiss, my hands tracing her waist and hips. Her lips trembled between mine, so I sucked her lips slower to steady them. I brought her in closer for one last kiss - giving her the chance to pull away from me if she wanted. When she didn't, I held her lips against mine for as long as I could. 

I stopped, laying my head on her shoulder. Her shoulders rose and fell with her breath, and I couldn't help but kiss her collarbone. Her fingers came to my hair, running through it.

I could live like this forever.

I barely knew her, but I knew I could live like this forever.

I lifted my eyes to meet hers again. "You'd really marry me? You'd agree to that?"

She nodded, smiling.

"Why?" I asked. "Why would I be that lucky?"

Her fingers twirled the ends of my hair. "Because your happiness means the most to me."

I looked away, unable to hold in my smile. She cared about me. I thought I had lost everything, but now, I had hope. I could spend the rest of my life learning about this woman, and she was willing to do the same.

"In that case," I said, taking her hand, "your happiness is now my full time responsibility."  

I brought her back into my arms, leaning my face against hers. Relief washed over me. 

I had found someone who wanted to be trapped by me. 

And more than that, I... I was trapped by her.