⇢︎ Chapter 79 : Hates to Love

He watches them silently. Staring at how they laughed and played and tried to kill their teacher once more. He stays ever silent as his eyes moves watching his classmates. The people that he cared about, the people that went on with their life like he didn't even exist.

Y/n was on a cliffside, not out of view but if people didn't look carefully, they would miss him at a glance. This was one of the very few days that Y/n was able to have a small amount of free time. He had decided that that free time would be used to watch his classmates and make sure they were doing fine. However, they were doing great.

Y/n's eyes lowered in thought as he watches as Karma, Nagisa, and Kaede played with each other. Sugino, Meahara, and Isogai were playing catch together. Terakasa and Itona were conversing with each other and their friend group to create a new machine. Chiba was practicing his aim with his gun. Everyone else was doing their own thing, going on with their life.

'Do they even notice that I'm here?' Y/n thought to himself, holding his teddy closer to his body. 'Do they even care that I'm here for them?'

As much as Y/n wanted to rundown and fall into his friend's arms, he was forbidden to do so. Even if he wanted to, he was being watched anyways. Of course, Shiro wouldn't let Y/n go on his own, thus the reason why Reaper was standing behind him with a blank mask over his face.

"It's been a few hours," Reaper commented. "You've been watching them for a long time. You can see that they're doing fine so why not do something else for your free day?"

Y/n stayed silent for a moment longer, still watching as Karma made fun of Nagisa once again. "That's the problem... They're doing fine." He reached a hand up to cover half of his face. "They're doing fine without me. I might as well have not even existed to them." He wanted to scratch his eye, which was bandaged covering half of his vision.

Reaper stayed silent. The feeling of being unwanted was foreign to him. He was born into a wealthy family with loving parents, he just chose to be a hitman. He was born loved and raised loved, even now he was so well known and everyone either feared him or hated him, he had attention.

But Y/n didn't. Y/n never got the attention he needed nor wanted. He was never hated for being who he was, but he was never loved. The adults in his life brushed him off as the kids forgotten about him. It was like Y/n was a ghost that wondered around, transparent to those around him, spooking them but never frightening them to burn into their memories.

"Reaper." The man responded by turning to Y/n. "People say that you always have a place on the Earth, whether that would be in another country or another city. Do you believe that?"

Reaper thought for a minute. He shook his head. "What people shouldn't matter to me. Even if that were true, I've already found my place in life."

Y/n stumbled a bit as he got up from his sitting position. "Then would that mean I was always destined to be with Shiro?" His gaze went up to Reaper. "Was I always destined to suffer?"

"Kid...-"

"Y-Y/n...?"

Both Y/n and Reaper's eyes widened when a new voice called out Y/n's name. They both slowly turned and noticed that Nagisa was staring up at Y/n with wide eyes. Behind him, Karma was also shocked, Kaede was nowhere to be seen, most likely running inside to get an adult. However, it didn't take away the fact that Y/n and Reaper have been spotted.

"Nagisa..." Y/n breathed out, holding his teddy closer to him.

"He-Hey! What are you doing up there!" Nagisa shouted, eyes wide with horror. "Come down! Come back to class!" He stumbled over his words, almost like he didn't know what to say. Karma behind him was too stunned to even move his mouth.

Y/n flinched as his brows furrowed up. For the first time in what seemed like forever, a small warmth filled Y/n's heart. How long has it been since he been to class? How long has it been since he talked to his friends? Oh, how he missed their warmth more than anything else.

Nagisa's heart was beating at a million miles per second. He didn't want to blink as tears flooded his eyes, scared that the minute he does blink Y/n wouldn't be there anymore. He couldn't move and he knew that Karma wasn't doing any better either.

Due to Nagisa's shouting, people stopped what they were doing and looked at where he was looking at only to pause in their tracks. Y/n was right there, in front of them. Granted, he looked different than before. White oversized clothes, with bandages on his knees and fingers, bruises littered his skin and even his face, bandages went across Y/n's face covering his eye, what had happened they didn't know, and finally his eye bags seem to have gotten worse.

Y/n looked more... inhuman than anything in the past.

Reaper seemed to have noticed the change of emotion in Y/n. In all honesty, he didn't think that Y/n could show emotion other than anger or fear, but now he looked... more relieved than anything. Relief of what? Reaper didn't know. Looking back down at Y/n from his classmates, he now noticed that a tear rolled down Y/n's open eye.

"Y/n," Reaper said softly, making the other look up at him. "You're crying." He carefully cupped Y/n's face and wiped away Y/n's tear with his thumb.

Y/n's eyes softened as he realized that he would never be with his classmates again and that Reaper was the best thing that could come close to their comfort. Out of instincts, Y/n leaned into Reaper's hand, accepting him over his classmates.

"Y/N!"

Y/n flinched at the yelling as he stepped closer to Reaper for comfort. He and Reaper turned to see who yelled at him. However, Y/n's eyes widened when Karasuma ran outside panting with wide eyes and even a small tear in his eye. Behind him, of course, was Irina, Koro-sensei was nowhere to be seen.

"Mr... Karasuma...?" Y/n questioned for a moment.

"Y/n..." Karasuma breathed out. "I don't care what you think now, but you need to come back! I promise you that I will protect you! I promise you that Shiro will never hurt you again! Just come back to class!"

Reaper flinched at Karasuma's words. He quickly looked down at Y/n and noticed how persuaded he look to just run into Karasuma's arms. However, Reaper could not allow it. Shiro won't let him hear the end of it if he were to let Y/n go. He reached over and held onto Y/n's shoulder before leaning down and whispered in his ear.

Karasuma watched as the person with Y/n leaned down and whispered into Y/n's ear something that no one could hear. He gritted his teeth as his hand shook, wanting to take out his gun to shoot the tall figure in order to have Y/n safe. However, he refrained from doing since he didn't know what the figure could do.

After a moment or so, Reaper pulled away from Y/n. Now, an indifferent look settled on Y/n's face, dull of emotions and only having the will to follow certain orders. Y/n glanced back at his class who looked at him pleadingly, then to Reaper who had his hand out invitingly.

Without a second thought, Y/n held onto Reaper's gloved hands. The two turned their backs towards class E as they began to walk away. However, before they disappeared from the class's view, Reaper turned around and simply made a shushing gesture towards them.

Reaper turned back to Y/n. "You did good, kid," he said, letting go of Y/n's hand to hold onto his shoulder instead. "You did good."

Karasuma couldn't help but fall to his knees as he just witnessed Y/n choosing to leave the class. 'That settles it,' he thought as a sobbing of his students was heard. 'Y/n choose his side, he chose who he wanted to raise him.' Karasuma looked down at the ground. 'Y/n will never be my student again.

'I should've never gotten attached in the first place. This... is all my fault.'

'It's a rotten world,' Reaper thought to himself as he glances down at Y/n who had said nothing for the longest time. 'But we shall thrive in it.' He looked in front of him. 'However, Shiro runs it...'

"You came back late."

"It was merely five minutes late, boss. I think Y/n was fine during those five minutes."

Shiro furrowed his brows in disgust. "You're an idiot for thinking that. I have a schedule for everything do you understand? And I suspect you to follow it, Reaper. This project has been going on for ten years and I'm not having an imbecile ruin it for me!"

Reaper's brow twitched when Shiro threw a stack of papers into his face. His gaze was unwavering, and he didn't even flinch but as Shiro continued to step closer to him, he genuinely worried for his safety and employment. Y/n stood behind him, not moving and only staring at the ground.

"This project is worth more than your life!" Shiro continued to shout at Reaper. "I don't care if you make a million dollars per kill, I don't care if you can kill me now! I am your boss, therefore your higherup, you obey me!! That boy is my life worths and merely taking him out is already a hindrance on my experimentation!

"That boy, that thing, is worth more than you would ever be!! You're disposable, while it is not! One shot from my medication and you would be out in seconds! I better see you behaving yourself before I have to correct you myself!! DO YOU UNDERSTAND?"

Reaper's fist clutched.

"I SAID DO YOU UNDERSTAND ME, REAPER!?"

"Yes, boss," Reaper answered sharply but lowly.

"Good," Shiro scoffed as he waved his hand, throwing another set of papers at Reaper. "Now, I have a meeting to go to. Do not take Y/n outside anymore. The molecules in the air will change the experimentation process and slow it down. When I am finished, I expect you both to be in here waiting."

Shiro slammed the door, leaving Reaper and Y/n to stand in his office in silence. The two blinked for a moment as Y/n slowly stepped out of Reaper's shadow seeing as it was safe to do so. Y/n stared at the door that Shiro exited from as thoughts swirled his head.

"You could've punched him, you know," Y/n muttered, his voice hushed.

"I could've," Reaper replied.

"But you didn't."

"I don't exactly want to get killed just yet."

Y/n stayed silent for a moment. He hugged his teddy. "...Pussy."

Reaper irked. "I will knock your ass out-"

A/n: Aww so cute, Reaper and Y/n are getting along at the cost that Y/n never sees Karasuma ever again, how cuteee!
Not my best work but more exciting parts are coming soon

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