— You made me like this

 It's already passed twelve at midnight and yet still the other members are still awake, the fun is not yet over. The unnie line are still awake which are; Yujin, Xiaoting, Mashiro, Chaehyun and Dayeon, they're currently drinking but the maknae line are already asleep.

"Yah yah unnie, I get it that it's your birthday but please calm down on drinking" Mashiro said as she tries to snatch away the bottle of soju in Xiaoting's hand.

"Let me, just this time Shiro-yah, I can control myself"

On the other side there's Yujin who's smiling while looking at Xiaoting, she's happy that they got a chance to celebrate her birthday.

"Hey girls don't drink too much, drink responsibly okay?" — YJ

"Nah, manager-nim gave us another day off, so it's fine to get drunk" said Dayeon shrugging as she grab a bottle of beer, but she suddenly met the glare of their leader.

"HAHAH just kidding, chill leader-nim this will be my last drink" she said and put her hands up as if surrendering.

"Make sure of it, wait I'll just get some ice cubes at the fridge" Yujin said as she stood up and went to the kitchen, as she was pouring some ice cubes she heard a vibrating sound not far from her, she looks at the kitchen sink and saw Xiaoting's phone.

Aish this girl misplacing her phone

She looks at the caller ID and it says 'My ai' which is none other than Yurina, she picks up the phone and glance at the living room, they're laughing and having fun.

Answering this won't be a butthurt, right?

She went at the balcony, far from the noise inside and answers the phone.

*starts call*

YRN: "Hello babe"

Silence.

YRN: "Xiaoting?"

YJ: "Hey, it's Yujin"

Silence again.

YRN: "Ow, hey Yujin unnie, where's Xiaoting?Why is her phone on you?"

YJ: "She's already sleeping"

Lie

YRN: "Uhh, can you wake her up for me unnie?I'll just need to tell her something important"

YJ: "She's drunk, Yurina"

YRN: " I– what?You let her get drunk?"

Yujin sighs.

YJ: "Yurina it's fine, we still have another whole day off and besides it's her birthday"

YRN: "But still, she just got there she need rest"

YJ: "I can handle her on my own"

A long silence.

Ah shit, what did I just said?

YJ: "Uhm, I mean I'll take care of her, for you. So don't worry"

YRN: "Okay.. Yujin unnie"
 

YJ: "Yes?"
 

YRN: "Actually, I'm in plan on proposing at Ting"

Yujin ears suddenly rings, she thinks that she's only mishearing things.

YJ: "Come again?"

Yurina chuckles at the other line.

YRN: "I said I'm planning to propose on Xiaoting,  within this month"

That's right she's hearing it clear, no she's not drunk, she's completely sobered up. She can't seem to blink her own eyes yet still she remains calm.

YJ: "Oh.. That's unexpected... Why are you telling this to me all of a sudden?

YRN: "Because you're their leader, you deserve to know. And I know I can trust you, right unnie?"

Do you really can?Fuck get yourself together Yujin

YJ: "Ofcourse"

YRN: "Also unnie, can you do me a favor?"

YJ: "What is it?"

YRN: "Help me to prepare and get ready for proposing on Ting"

Yujin grips her hand tight on the phone, not knowing what to response, she close her eyes tight preparing the painful answer that she'll say.

YJ: "Sure.. Sure Yurina, I... I'll help you"

Out of all the people why me??Oh right, just because I'm their leader, is that so?

YRN: "Thank you Yujin unnie, please take care and watch out of her for me. I'll hang up now" *ends call*

No, you should actually be the one doing that and not me Yurina. This is too fucking painful, I can't seem to stand this anymore, please stop torturing my feelings

She doesn't know what to feel, she wanted to shout, she puts down the phone and grips hard at the railings of the balcony, swallowing the pain inside her chest, slowly.

Does Yurina knows?Am I being too obvious??

She looks down as she can see her own tears dropping at the ground.

Is it too late?Am I too late?I'm not starting yet but it seems like it's already close to ending

"Yujin unnie!Omg HAHA unnie are you drunk—" Mashiro was stopped by on her words as she looks at Yujin's face, she thought she's just drunk just by looking at her position, on her knees, looking down.

"Unnie.. Why are you crying, what's wrong?Are you drunk already?"

" I'm not fucking drunk! " Yujin shouted, still crying, that shocks Mashiro as she doesn't know what to do seeing her looking miserable like that.

"Then why—" there, she took a glance at the phone that's Yujin's been holding, she slowly took it on Yujin's hand and saw a recent call.

"Why did you answer her call?Unnie what did she said to you?" Shiro asked calmly, starting to get worried on Yujin.

Yurina must've said something that made Yujin unnie act like this

"She's.. She's going to propose on Xiaoting"

"Huh what?"

"And you know what's stupid?I agree to help her prepare for her incoming proposal" Yujin said and let's out a bitter chuckle.

Shiro can't utter any word, she just hug Yujin who's now sobbing at her shoulder.

"Shiro it hurts, I wanted this feeling to stop already"

"Yujin unnie!Shiro-yah!" The two leaders immediately snap their heads to the owner of the shouting voice, Yujin quickly wipes her tears as she smile upon seeing the girl.

"Hey Ting—"

"There you are! I've been looking for you" Said Ting as she hugs her unnie, both arms on Yujin's shoulder.

"Ting gosh you're drunk, come here let me get you to—" Shiro was about to remove her from hugging Yujin because she knows how hurting Yujin is right now.

"Noooo! I want to be with Yujin unnie, look she's so warm" Said Ting while giggling as she snuggles on Yujin, Shiro gives Yujin a look but then she just nods and mouthed 'It's fine, I can handle this'.

"Are you sure?" She asked but Yujin just nods as she held Ting's head that's been resting on her shoulder.

"Let's get you to bed now, hmm?" She looks at Shiro. "Shiro we'll head first. I'll just put her to bed then I'll help you clear the mess inside"

Mashiro just nods, she can't help not to look at the two, Xiaoting's left arm around Yujin's shoulder, while Yujin's right arm firmly holding Xiaoting's waist, Shiro could only sigh.

I'm just here Yujin, why can't you seems to look at me the way you look at her?

—

They're now at the room as Yujin slowly puts Xiaoting at the bed, she was about to pulll but Xiaoting suddenly held her neck.

"Unnie"

Ting slowly opens her eyes as she stares at Yujin's eyes with her groggy eyes.

"I saw you crying there, are you alright?" She asked worriedly.

" I'm not, there's just a dust that got on my eyes "

Ting shook her head.

"No, you're also sobbing. Tell me who hurt you" She said gently that made Yujin close her eyes.

If I tell you would you care?Because you're the one who's only hurting me like this

"Ting, look how groggy your eyes right now. Stop fighting over your sleepiness, sleep now." 

Yujin said as she fix the blanket all over Xiaoting, while the latter doesn't say anything. Yujin caress her head as she smile, but Ting noticed something off with her unnie's smile right now. Yujin turned her back and was about to exit the door, but there's something that stopped her.

"Do you like her?"

She turns around, only to see Xiaoting who's now in sitting position, she gave her a confused look.

"Do you like Mashiro?"

"What are you saying?"

" I'm asking you, you could just simply answer yes or no "

"Xiaoting just sleep, you're not in your mind right now"

"Or rather, Mashiro likes you"

" I— what?"

"You two look good together anyways, a leader and a co-leader" Xiaoting said chuckling sarcastically, that irritates Yujin so she decided to approach her as she grab both of her shoulders.

"Look, stop saying nonsense and get straight to the point. Xiaoting why are you being like this?"

Ting yanks Yujin's hands as she stare at her with a hint of hatred on her eyes.

"Do you really know why am I being like this?"

Xiaoting's eyes getting teary, that doesn't left Yujin not to notice.

"You made me like this"

"What—"

"You make me feel confused unnie, I don't know why and I know I shouldn't be feeling like this because I already have Yurina but.."

"But what?"

"Nothing, just leave unnie. Forget what I said, you're right, maybe I'm not in my right mind right now" Ting said with a shaky voice.

"Can you just please stop playing with my damn feelings?!" Yujin shouted as she grab Xiaoting's chin and made her look at her, her eyes full of sorrow.

"U-unnie.. What are you saying?"

"Do you really wanna know why huh Xiaoting?Please don't push me away for what about I'm going to do"

Still confused, Xiaoting doesn't have an idea on what's Yujin's referring to but that answers her confused mind when she felt a pair of warm and soft lips landed on hers. The kiss lasted for about ten seconds, no one dares to move, as Ting felt a warm wet substance on her cheeks, Yujin's crying. Still stunned, she looks at the person infront of her, head low and quietly crying.

"That was the answer to your question, Xiaoting I'm sorry I can't help it. This will be the last that I.. That I keep liking you, I promise I'll get rid of this feelings day by day, I know it will be hard but I'll try my best.. So I, I'm sorry for liking and kissing you, you can slap me right now"

Yujin said almost rumbling as she held Xiaoting's right hand and place it on her left cheek. But what shocks her is the next thing Xiaoting did, Ting held her face and kisses her on the lips. Yujin wouldn't miss a chance so she kiss her back, this time more stronger and passionately to the point that made Xiaoting to part her lips.

God, Xiaoting if only you know how badly I wanted to do this. How badly I wanted to taste that lips of yours

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