"So, you are now currently working for an upcoming movie? How are you feeling that this will be the third movie that you'll direct?" I am having a press conference for an upcoming movie, just like what the reporter asked me. I've been doing this for 3 years but I'm still not used to face cameras.

"Uh, yes that's right. Of course, I still feel nervous and happy at the same time because I don't think that I'll be able to direct it properly. I'm also pressuring myself since the flow of the movie is in my hands" I laugh a bit to release the tense I'm feeling.

"Sinong leading man and lady ng movie, Ms. Reisha?" one of the reporters asked, so I shifted my gaze to her.

"Maraming nag sasabi na AleSean daw ang gaganap bilang leading lady at leading man?" Another reporter asked me but I don't know what to answer, so, I just ignored her question.

"To be honest I also don't have an idea who are the actors that I will be working with, this time. The casting director hasn't given me the names of the cast, yet" I don't know why we are having a presscon, when I don't know who are the actors.

"If that's the case, why did you call for a conference? Mag papa presscon ba ulit kayo pag complete na yung cast?" I'm actually asking myself about that too because usually there is only a presscon if the cast is complete and already have an idea about the movie and their roles.

"We just want to let people know that there's an upcoming movie that they will surely love and worth the wait. Yes, baka mag pa presscon ulit pag complete na yung cast" Ms. Karen, the producer of this movie, answered. For sure Ms. Karen wants to caught the attention of people so that they'll wait for this movie, lagi naman siyang ganyan pag may bago siyang film.

Pag may upcoming movie, series, or show ako na idi-direct, hobby ko na, na araw araw kabahan. What I said earlier is true. I am so pressure because I think that one wrong move, I do, will ruin everything and I don't want that to happen.

"Yeah, I just got home. What's the matter?" Autumn called me but I think she's in a club? I can hear a loud music and clinking of glasses.

"Hello, Rei?" the noise slowly went down. I think she went out of the bar?

"Oh, yes hello? Who are you partying with Its already 3 am there, hindi ka pa ba uuwi?" I panicked when I heard her sobbing. She's always crying when she's drunk but I'm worried because she's in a bar and drunk, someone might use this as a chance to do something to her.

"Rei, I missed you. I hope you're here! Savi is already drunk and having a twerk battle with Jace" awwe, she's the sweetest!

"I missed you too, babe!!"

"Why are you here?"

"Bwisit ka bigla ka nalang nawala nag panic kami, akala namin sumama ka na kung kanino!" I heard Jace and Savi's voice and the metallic music came back so, I guess she's already inside. I ended the phone call without saying good bye, since she's now enjoying. I miss them so much!

After ending the phone call, I decided to take a shower then cook a dinner but before I could turn the shower on, my phone rang, on that I get my towel and wrapped it on my body.

"Reisha Loine Alfaro, speaking" I said the moment I answered the call, because the number is unknown.

"Hello, Ms. Reisha?" a guy from the other line answered.

"Yes, this is Reisha. May I know who are you?"

"Oh, right! Sorry. This is Philip, I forgot that I changed my number yesterday" it's the casting director.

"What is it?" I asked out of curiosity.

"It's about the cast of the movie. They are completed now and Ms. Karen wants to introduce them to you ASAP, today. Are you free?" napapikit ako ng madiin. I thought I can take a rest after the presscon. Sure, din ako na hindi natuwa si Ms. Karen na sinabi kong walang pa talagang cast kase gusto niyang sabihin ko na surprise yun, eh kaso nga pag may presscon or camera nakakalimutan ko yung mga dapat kong sabihin or gawin.

"Give me an hour"

"Alright, noted. Thank you, Ms. Reisha"

"Okay, thank you"

I'm just wearing a cropped turtle neck sweater with coat and high waist pants partnered with combat boots. While I'm driving, I can't help but to feel nervous, I'm always like this whenever I'm meeting the casts of a movie I'll be directing or there will be an event with some other celebrities. I'm afraid that I'll bump into him, I'm afraid to see him, I'm afraid that I'll tell him—

"Yes, I'm on my way" I stop thinking about it when I answered the phone and drive as fast as I could, ako nalang daw kasi ang hinihintay.

Before getting out of my car I checked myself on the rear mirror "You can do it Reisha!" I said to myself before getting out of the car

"Good afternoon Ms. Reisha!"

"Hi Ms. Reisha!"

"Hello, direct"

"Hi, direct"

Other employee and celebrities inside the elevator greeted. I smiled at them because I can't utter any words, masiyado akong kinakabahan. Iba yung kaba ko ngayon, I wonder why?

When I arrive on my floor, I fix my eye glasses before stepping out of the elevator.

"Andiyan na si direct, guys!" kaniya kaniyang sila ayos at sinalubong din ako ng iba.

"Good after noon, direct"

Halos complete buong set andito. Maybe Ms. Karen wants us toknow each other, first before we start working.

"Here's the cast" and then Philip introduces them to me. I've already worked with some of them.

"Who will portray Charlie and Charlotte's role?" it's leading man and leading lady of the movie.

"Sorry, direct but we still have to wait for them because he texted me that something came up. Do you have plans after this? I can just text them to just meet you on the first day of taping" I motioned my hand to stop him from doing that.

"No, no I can wait for him and besides I enjoy talking to them" I said referring to the cast. Ayoko talaga na may na po-postpone na meeting dahil sa'kin, ayoko mag pa importante kase I know that we all have different schedules and priority.

It so good chatting with them they are so talkative, funny and witty, for sure the set will not be boring. Masaya talaga yung set pag bata pa yung mga artista because they usually make us do something like we play games if we are in an overnight taping, pag mid 40's na yung mga cast I can say that it's kinda boring because they just kept on talking about new actors, business, jewelries, cars, and everything they have in life kaya pag puro matanda yung actors puro tulog lang ako sa sobrang boring.

Talking to them eases the nervousness I'm feeling. I'm now already comfortable around them but I can't stop thinking about the leading man. Who could he be? Could it be him? I don't want to think about it anymore so I focus on these kids in front of me

"Direct eto si Marco makulit 'yan pag taping tapos pag rolling na bigla bigla 'yan matatawa kasi narerealize n'yang muka siyang tanga" Misha said. Marco and Misha were both from a gag show that featured children, they've been working with each other since little and that explains why they are so close.

"Oy! Anong mukhang tanga? Ikaw nga yon ang panget mo umiyak muka kang undin!" I remember my teenage days to them. Kahit na sinasabihan ni Marco na panget si Misha, you can see in his eyes that he has a feeling for her pero it looks like Misha can't see it. Siguro gano'n talaga pag ikaw hindi mo makikita pero pag yung iba nahahalata nila.

They were all close to each other because they started talking about "remember when" and I'm just laughing to their stories "I'm sorry, were late. Something came up" maybe they just have the same voice, it's not him Rei. Try to look at him to find out. I'm trying to convince myself but I just can't look up to see who it is.

"Asus! Nag lang kayo ni ate Alexa" don't tell me it's Alexa Ferrer? It can't be.

"Direct" Philip called me.

"Hmm?" I can't choose a word to say right now.

"This is Sean Cruz also known as Seven and this is Alexa Ferrer. They are loveteam, the AleSean" He said introducing them to me "This is Direct Reisha Alfaro, I bet you've already heard about her?"

"Of course, we do! I'm looking forward working with you direct!" Alexa Ferrer said and hugged me. I caressed her back using my right hand.

"I'm Sean Vernon Cruz, I'm excited to work with you" he said and offer his hands.

I took his hand and say "Maria Cecilia Alfaro, director of the movie and I am as excited as you"

I should have said "I'm Maria Cecilia Alfaro mother of your child"